You are a rainstorm in an Arizona summer.
I don't know whether I should hide
Or bathe in you.

When asked what I do for a living
I say that I am a poet
When asked how I make a living
I say that I don't, don't you know it

It has nothing to do with the pay
But more about all the pleasure
In a nut shell all I can say
Is that right there is beyond any measure

Love is peace in times of war
Love is being near no matter how far
Love is the disease of those who are well
Love is the cure for all that's unwell
Love is the courage beyond all shame
Love is wild no matter how tame
Love is the truth behind all the lies
Love is laughter behind all the cries
Love is the sanity in times of madness
Love is the smile in times of sadness
Love is that which keeps you strong
Love is right when everything goes wrong
There is nothing better to share than Love
The most precious gift of the one from above

I find myself spiraling
Into a pit of anxiety
Every time my control
Is snatched away
Every time someone else
Takes charge
And says
'Leave it to me'
My heart pumps faster
My chest feels tight
My leg starts to shake
And I can't trust people
To do the right thing
One part of my mind
Believes they mean well
And will help me
But the other part
The irrational part
Will lead me elsewhere
Down a path of despair
And anxiety
Coming up with scenarios
That would never happen
In a million years
But anything seems possible
When you have no control

The urge to
write a new piece
it comes up
like the feeling you get
right before you're about
to throw up
in the back seat
of a bad idea

but it's not all bad
you always feel better after
well, right after
anyways

then you sip some water
close your eyes
say never again

but that's the whole
fun of it,
after all

this one girl...
is living out the dream
this one girl...
has no clue of what that means

this one girl...
says i am woman, hear me roar
this one girl...
has never been that sure

this one girl...
grabs the reins and holds on tight
this one girl...
pulls the shades down on her life

this one girl...
brings it all to where she's at
this one girl...
has spent all she's ever had

this one girl...
dances underneath the moon
this one girl...
doesn't care to play the tune*

this one girl...
knows where her fortunes at
this one girl...
*can't remember when it left

Don't worry darling,
When I push you away,
I promise,
You won't feel a thing.

I'll be the one,
To burn in the fire,
The smoke,
Causing my eyes to sting.

I know it's for the better,
I'm a burden,
Don't you see?

I promise I won't blame you,

Who would want to be around me?

As much as I look around
This great wide world
I see you in every place that I go

In a boat at Maine
In a train in Boston
In a Jeep in New Mexico

But why do I search?
And think?
And search?
When I know no hope remains

It's because I had hope
Then lost hope
Then had hope, but lost
And all hope, to me, feels the same