"Measuring the flour, cutting off the surplus, adhering to rules, to rules, to rules."

Baptized once again at 31
you were dressed in an apron of glory
purple-inked and gas-filled
a ******* carved inside your head

Withering in the basement at the age of 10
you took the blade as a best friend
a walking miracle, a providence
you were a tempest of silent wails

Ariel has made a banshee out of you
the world is going up in a shriek
but your head never went with it
an epoch later; you're in holy flames

A golden lotus crescendos in the ground
stripped of the chance to see your Ariel grow
the bell jar is inhabited by some
my patriotism has been ablaze

O' American Isis
I grant you now the discretion you desired
you don't have to adhere to rules anymore

*The universe is coming by your side

You know when you go and you ride a roller coaster for the first time?
You're not completely sure you want to go
You're scared
So you bring someone with you and you enjoy it
You enjoy sharing that experience of pain and joy and absolute terror
But this roller coaster is the one
That is only goes upside down
Then it has a flip
That came out of nowhere
And suddenly
You're right side up
And you question it
Its been going the other way for so long
Your perception is altered to be so different
And you hit a stop
And the next time you scream you're actually right side up
Seeing things for how they actually are
Smiles are frowns
Frowns are smiles
And you're lost
So you look around on your roller coaster of fate and you see someone
And they’re glorified
They’re the angel that got you off your never ending roller coaster
And you get attached a bit too much
You expect things that aren't there
Then they leave
****.
Gone.
And once again
You're back on that roller coaster
Alone
And you don't know what to do
So you repeat that cycle
Over
And over
And over and over
And I want to find someone to share it with me
Or I don't want to be on it anymore