Grin till the wrinkles find their place
find their space to mark their trace
The trace of every struggle you couldn't get through
So you grin, grin so they can notice you
Have you seen what I've been through ?
And so you grin to make them understand understand how steep this uphill battle is
Grin grin in their faces, just in case they have missed
Grin till it wrinkles your face
Grin till it leaves a trace
Have you not seen what I've been through ?
If you haven't my face is the proof .

It sounds ridiculous but only I feel productive when I'm doing nothing.
Sitting back, just relaxing.
Popping blue beans, burning bowls of green.
And just thinking.
Daydreaming about how things could have been.
How things could still be.
But how things will probably be.
Just close your eyes and let music be your guide.

Entire lives constructed and played out
in grand fashion. A world so detailed
I would rather get lost,
And never come back to this travesty of a society,
so raw and primal.
so human.
My world is so beautiful and yet so depressing
because it's what ours could be, but never will become.
Anything to distract me from this.
The 24 year old burnout grinding through school because there aren't many options left.
So where will I'll be in 5 years?
I wont.

Why is it always the pretty (not the good-looking but the pretty) people that feel they are worthless?

I've learned to hide my depression
so no one will know
learning to hide my agression
I can't let it show
swallow my pride
all to protect
who I am inside
I've got it down to a science
never told a soul
until my heart showed defiance
I fell for you
I let my guard down
but you weren't true
you've hurt me
I gave you everything
but it wasn't meant to be
and as I sit here all alone
I realize the truth really does hurt  
now my cover has been blown