You lost your
                    chance,
                  I'm not waiting
                     around,
                  Playing with my
                   heart and mind
                   I want to gouge
                   My eyes out till
                     I was blind
                   To never have to
                     see your face,
                    Anywhere, anyplace
                    Your kisses can't
                      replace,
                    The feeling of the slap
                       in the face...
                    To me you are a
                      horrid disgrace...

Guilt causes pain
  drugs dull the insanity
In my brain ,
Take them away,
  the guilt, drugs and pain
are killing me everyday.
I don't want to cry,
I don't want to die,
  Please take my pain away.

I've learned to hide my depression
so no one will know
learning to hide my agression
I can't let it show
swallow my pride
all to protect
who I am inside
I've got it down to a science
never told a soul
until my heart showed defiance
I fell for you
I let my guard down
but you weren't true
you've hurt me
I gave you everything
but it wasn't meant to be
and as I sit here all alone
I realize the truth really does hurt  
now my cover has been blown

I left the person who loved me for the person who lusted after me.

My heart is quite frail.
It's been broken so much.
It cannot be healed by the gentlest of touch.
Love comes so freely.
But i have to reject.
Only because i built a wall, to shield and protect.
It really is hard.
I feel all alone.
Maybe my heart has turned into stone.
It would make sense; how empty i feel.
And how this pain has turned so real.
I wear my scars outside, but inside as well.
If you just paid close attention, i'm sure you could tell.
But nobody cares about the past.
As soon as the blood stops, they're gone.
It's that fast.
As soon as they're gone, you're back at square one.
All alone, broken hearted, and completely done.