Do not be judgmental
Do not ask ask me questions
I can't give you explanations
That's what I told my inner self
Everytime i did something wrong and unpleasant

Let us talk
Not to critique
But to express a sudden love
An unexpected friendship
And a connection that suprisingly blossomed

Not
talking
made
things
easier
more
bearable

We abandon the people
the things
we love
the most

There was something peaceful in his gaze
Like somehow he has figured out his whole life
And I didn't want to disrupt this
For he seemed happy

I like to take notes on a novel
Simply because
I want to be part
of the writing process,
I want to tell the author
that his words are poignant
in the most beautiful way
that I am one of the characters
but I don't know it just yet

I wanted
people
to
accept me
as
I
am

But that
was
too
much
to
ask

Hold
your
own
hand

Imagining things
that don't exist
is torture

I want to believe in myself
I want to be better
Study more
I'm healing
But sometimes it gets so hard
and I don't think I can do it
anymore
but there is hope
better days
I want to feel everything
Allow myself to be human
It's okay to have a bad day
We should be more gentle
with ourselves
To forgive ourselves before
forgetting others

We leave
to come back
someday

We love
to feel
something new

We cry
to let out
words
that can't
be spoken

Spaces
are barriers
that we keep
from the people
we love the most

We will always feel attached
To people we don’t know

Revenir
Pour détacher nos racines humaines
Revenir
Pour se souvenir du passé
Revenir simplement
Pour apprécier un présent plein de morceaux de joie

Je veux que mon existence aie du sens
Que ce que je dis soit non pas éternel
Mais lu par quelqu’un qui comprendra

Some people leave
because they gave us
everything we need
in order to continue
our path in life

My life has become a series of goodbyes
There's no stability
Everything is always moving, changing

She knows that underneath all the layers that I show
There's one true self that only me and her can see and understand

We have always convinced ourselves that we have feelings for someone when we didn't
And we always hid the true sentiments for someone that we aren't suppose to fall in love with

I'm torn between what I want and what I need to do
I'm torn between allowing myself to feel something for someone or spending a lifetime not admitting it
I'm torn between my distant country and the new city that I live in
And all these things
that I can't control
are making me go mad
This uncertainty is killing me
I'm tired of all this mess
This modern world is nothing but
a series of routines that are repeated
Like a tv show that you're not able
to stop watching
Full of silences in the metro when
you can't stop thinking about every single thing

To deal with loss
is deal with yourself
You have to accept things
that you can’t control
But feel sad it’s okay
Don’t act strong
that’s not the point
Loss means appreciating what you had with him
Loss is loving people more than before
Loss isn’t scary
But it’s hard
It will **** you at  first
You won’t believe it
But it will make stronger
by giving you a closer look to life
death is the only thing that brings closer to life, to reality
Let yourself miss the person
Cry when you talk about him
Express the little things that you remember the most about him
I love you
I miss you
And I wish I could see your smile once again
For it was my greatest blessing

Ce que j'ai ressenti quand j'ai écouté ses chansons

True sorry
Sa musique t'envahit
Te coupe le souffle
Rien que des sentiments graves, étouffantes
Il te prend par la main
Et t'étrangle soudainement
Il te caresse dans ta gifle
Il est avec toi
et t'abandonne quand tu le désires le plus
Il est là
Sur des vibrations sonores hors norme
Ce qu'il fait t'exaspère
te rend malade
Il ment sans même rougir
L'improbable c'est lui
L'horizon , les jardins vivent dans
ses imaginations
mais il aime me montrer ses démons

Nomade Slang
Je me balade dans tes pensées
Je veille sur tes routines plates
Ton âme danse dans cet espace
Je te voix heureux mais effrayé de
ce monde et ne montrant que ta tristesse

Essentielles
La mer, le vent chaud
les gens qui passent
Tout est familier
Tu revoit ta jeunesse
A l'aise dans un coin
Ce que tu es ne te ressemble plus

What you want
Isn't right for you
So why do you just change it?
Maybe it will work out this time

This rush
This madness
What is this feeling
How can you describe it
Is it okay to always want it?
What if someday it fades
Just like everything else

But for now we are in control of
ourselves
And we are experiencing moments of exctasy even if they only last  seconds

I changed
they didn’t
this is what happened

we’re not the same anymore
what is essential for me is meaningless for them
you know how hard this is?

In our minds
We believed that we chose the easiest way
When in reality it was the most difficult

There are things that you will never
be able to picture
nor even imagine happening to you
But you end up accepting them
As the only possible uncertainty in
your life

When you left
I became whole again
And that was life weirdest paradox

You always wanted to hear the truth
to speak it
You adored realities and you loved hearing stories of people healing after many sufferings
You want people to always be true to you
You have a fragile soul and a loving mind
You are too good to everyone
But why did always thought you’re not enough?
When every time you failed
Every time you fell, you stumbled to the ground
You rose up stronger
better
more at peace
more calm
You cleansed yourself
and I started to admire you
I fell in love with you all over again
I respected you
There were times when I loved you more than I loved myself
You never liked yourself
But all I ever wanted was to be more like you
But that could never happen
I will never live in a time of war
I will never know what fear looks like

You are the person that always supports me
that cares for me even when I’m being arrogant
You never make me feel useless

I have learnt everything from you
I have learnt that depression is not accepting your situation , your present
I have learnt that letting go of things ,of people is something good and beneficial
I have learnt that loving people is hard and takes a lot of  work
I have learnt not to listen to these negative voices inside my mind
I have learnt to pray every time I felt scared and in periods of self doubt
I have learnt to forgive the people that don’t bring peace to my mind
I have learnt that being an independent woman will always help me in my life

I have learnt all these great things from you
but still you convince me that you are not enough
How could you think you are unnecessary
When every time I needed you
you elevated me from all this madness
you gave me sacred lessons
you told me about your childhood struggles and your adult secrets

I love you more than I did you before
more than I loved you yesterday
But forgive me if I ever made you suffer
I am a difficult human being that is hard to handle
But I promise to be better
to love myself
and to accept love from people who don’t know how to express it

Just like that
You end up inhaling smoke
They fill your lungs with a
temporary happiness and a brief
moment of satisfaction
Yes, these people were cigarettes

You meet new people
and they fill you
With the feeling of belonging

Just like french songs
that simplicity
and that purity
I wanted to be the girl that broke the singer's heart
I wanted to be a song
with few lyrics
and a ton of emotions

Am I enough?
Or the world is too
demanding ?
We challenge ourselves everyday
But life is not a competition
I think we need to feel
grateful in a society that
is constantly trying to put
us down
We are not humans anymore
We should quit the jobs
that make us suffer
Have a roadtrip to
an unknown place
Sit on the grass
Look at the immense sky
It's not about how
much you've achieved
But more about what have
you learnt in order to
love yourself
and to accept your fragile soul
It's a long journey
But we'll get there someday
I promise

I am not like the others
My skin is made of a
thousand dreams that needed more tourists
and my eyes are poetic places
My hands have caressed  
the pages of many old books
and my nose will always recognize the
scent of the people that I love
I have tasted the flavor of
new beginnings
But my ears were never able
to hear the sound of your voice
My feet have touched the
sand of your imagination
But my hair couldn't
bear the heavy winds
coming from your stormy mind
My arms couldn't
embrace your sweetness
But my teeth were made
to mash these dark thoughts
of yours and transform them into tiny ones

A part of me
wants you
while the other part
rejects you
a part of me
is stuck on you
while the other part
has finally let go
What part should I trust?
What part suits me more?
Maybe I'll keep you
somewhere in my uncouscious mind

Some movies will let you feel
They will give you the power to cry
They will show you simplicity
****** and eternal desires
They'll remind you of what you're missing
They'll reflect your life

What you keep inside
matters the most...

In the age of digital media
All we want is a relationship full of photos
Uploaded on instagram
We want a simple love
A non complicated one
But that never happens
Because love is a complex necessity
But hey for once we can try to keep the freedom to ourselves
To love someone
And to like someone else for a while
To see what we're missing
But at the same time what we still have
Where our strength hangs is in ourselves
Not in others
We're complete with each other
And by ourselves

Mashrou’ Leila will lead the revolution
Songs made in my country never fought the system
They never expressed what the youth wanted
or how they really felt about themselves
But their songs make us dream to the Marrikh
They give us a connection to reality in Fasateen
They expressed what the society of spectacle is in only 3 minutes
We could think about our ex in Ala babu
We are able to remember our country in Lel watan
How we always live in a state of exile in **** El-Khandaq
Manipulations In a daily life in Taxi
Grief and tough love in Abdo
Evolution and infinite surrenders in Wa Nueid
The barriers of language and sexuality in Kalaam
The devastating stages of a separation in Bahr
The closeness of strangers in Habibi
They are The Doors of our generation
They made crowds go crazy just like The Rolling Stones
But at the same time they were pure and melancholic just like Jeff Buckley
Thank you for keeping us alive in dark days and heavy nights
Your music will always give us new and unfamiliar feelings

You see this world is so big and gigantic
but somehow to feels so small sometimes
There are so many people out there
that feel the same as we do
So don’t be afraid to share you writings
You can make someone happy
You can let them realize that someone from another country
is feeling the same way
but he isn’t able to express it
Be honest and say everything
It’s not about good grammar
and phrases that rhyme
Its about pure and simple thoughts
It’s about expressing yourself without limits
It’s about loving yourself enough to write about what bothers you
I am a strong human being when I decide to talk about my weakness
I am strong when I tell you my fears
I am strong when my faith is more important than anything
I am not giving a lecture about how to organise yourself
I am saying what’s on my mind
And that’s what you should do in order to be free

Hello?
yes
Can you hear me?
yes
Listen to me
I am not here to tell you that we’re going back together
So why are you calling?
I just needed to express myself
Okay go on
You mean something to me
I can’t stop talking to you
You're my friend, my friend from school
I want us to talk
But sometimes I feel like I don’t mean a thing to you
That’s not true and you know that
Let me continue
I don’t know why I keep going back to you
and you’re the one that hurt me
I guess I don’t want to lose you
and I don’t know if that’s a good thing
But listen carefully
I am not your psychiatric not your nurse
I am someone who has difficulties in their life as much as you do
So please understand me
I just want good vibes without feelings
I just want us to talk as friends that never lost their friendship despite the distance
Do you understand? Are you listening?
Yes I am I really like what you said even if there are some things that I don’t agree with
It doesn’t matter at least I am saying what’s on my mind
The conversation ended there
But actually it never happened
I created it to justify myself for talking to him again
That’s all

It’s not about the past
nor about your future
Why do we like to torture ourselves?
Is pain the only thing you can feel?
Is absence the only kind of love you know?
Are you telling me that you don’t love your present?
What do you want?
Is this the life you’ve always imagined?
We are human beings and we are melancholic
We are dark souls
But what if
You decided to change
Do you need time to think about that?

Happiness is waking up in the morning and being able to get up
Happiness is sorting out your clothes and realizing that you have too many
Happiness is knowing that you’re lucky
Happiness is finding out that your stress is meaningless
Happiness is not being afraid of useless things
Happiness is taking care of yourself everyday
Happiness is bathing in a warm water
Happiness is sleeping early
Happiness isn’t that hard you know
But we always forget ourselves in this chaotic world
I want you to take care of yourself no matter what
To love yourself and admire your body even if it’s not perfect
I want you to wake up everyday grateful that you’re living this life
I want you to have all the things that we’re missing in your life
I want you to have friends that love not matter how weird and awkward you are
I want you to trust yourself enough so you’ll never worry about the future
I want you to give yourself some time to sit back and relax
Make time for yourself , for your own self
It’s not good to neglect yourself
You are enough my dear
But stil don’t know it
Don’t wait for someone to tell it to you
My darling you are strong because you’ve decided to fight
But don’t lose yourself in it
It doesn’t matter if you win or you lose
What matters is your effort, your strength, your ability to stand up again
If you're thinking that your life should be all about good moments
You’re wrong
Look around and you will see that all this chaos inside of your head doesn’t exist
You will have more confidence once you understand that being yourself is the best thing you’ll ever learn to do
Have a good life and appreciate what makes you weak

People entered my soul without notice
They visited me
and they lived in me
Their strenght was all I need
And I depended on them
And I let them change me
to be better of course
I never knew what I kept
inside of me
Until one day
I opened up
I said what I wanted to say
I acted naturally
I wasn't too shy
I let go of my insecurities
I let go of past judgments that were
always sticked to my thoughts

New beginnings are scary at first
but they are filled with new feelings
New excitments
They make you who you are
You become stronger
You feel better
But that doesn't mean
that there weren't lonely days and lonely nights
when all I ever did
was remember past memories
and look at old photos
It's not that easy to forget people
that you love
I'm not forgetting them
I'm just learning how to live without them

Nobody can make you feel unwanted nor sad
Because what you have felt this evening was sacred
Three souls playing, fighting, crying
As if I have witnessed a conversation of people
who understood how to make life a
living, a misery and a land where we could forget our differences
To become one in their little world of music
To witness magic
Endless shadows
To feel so happy
A sentiment of pure excstasy
To experience patience, rage , sadness in a second
Is  rare in our world
To experience pain, nostalgia and a piece of your
distant country
To close your eyes from all this madness
To see lights in Ouds
To witness a cozy litlle night filled with
nothing but candles
and people making you forget that your soul
is trapped into a body that constantly suffers
Our deepest selves have found a shelter
We have visited our loved ones
with our invisible wings
We've known what made us human
We've seen three persons merging
into one for the sake of music
We've seen them through moments of excstasy
but most of all hard and severe body movements
Giving life to a woodly instrument
Making the robotic and the technological a human for once

If only wars destroyed
buildings and walls
not souls
Men and woman continue their life
with half a heart
with half of their feelings
Wars ****
childhood
innocence
ignorance
We lie on the floor
not knowing if tomorrow
we will have another chance to continue dreaming
of better days
and some security
for our family and friends

like cigarettes
***** drinks
mixed with long unnecessary conversations

like the sound of the rain
the smell of coffee
mixed with poems and books
written by
unknown authors

like your skin
you perfume
mixed with the sound of your voice

like sunsets
loud music
mixed with long walks

like snow
pure desires
mixed with dark thoughts

like first times
new friends
mixed with discoveries of unvisited places

like photographs
vintage clothes
mixed with us holding hands in museums

like big sweaters
messy hair
mixed with feelings of belonging and complete confidence

like summer nights
the moon
mixed with old memories

like children
the simplest pleasures
mixed with church bells

like dreams
Freud
and unknown tomorrows

like broken hearts
sad songs
and depressive moments

like movies
sacred movies
and self-discoveries

like new words
dictionaries
and Albert Camus

like love letters
platonic relationships
and endless scenarios

like rivers
a sense of reborn
and other perspectives

I want a love that can trascends earth
that is able to travel to Mars
An outside of this world love
Where we could live on a deserted planet
Only us

Astronauts will be stupfied
Because what we have inside of us
has never been proven before
Two hearts not related to each other
but attached by an invisible wire
Beating with the same intensity
We'll mix Earth and Mars into this infinite universe

Someone called me modern today
and I don’t know if that’s a good thing
Maybe because where I was born people are usually attached to useless traditions
But we can’t always define someone by their country of origin
Even if we have lived in same places
but we have different parents, entourage and all that stuff
Stereotypes ruin our lives
But we will always find a way to show our true selves

We think our kids will be better than us
They will have everything they need and even more
But that doesn’t make them great
Your child is not the one who is gonna realize your lost dream
He isn’t so special
He is just like you with the same thoughts and fears of your childhood and your teenage years

So I don’t think we are disappointing them
when we aren’t able to do what they think we are capable
Nonetheless I hope I could satisfy them
Make myself proud and make them proud
For they have given me the chance to grow mentally and spiritually
And I am forever grateful for that

Life is great you know
It never fails to show you your strength