He only said
I wanna know you better
And that’s how it all started

Does it happen to you?
When self doubt is all you can think about
When all the good things in your life are forgotten
And you’re only focusing on yourself

Missing someone so much
You don't want to talk to them
Nor hear their voices

I miss the walls of a city
that used to bother me
I miss the way people
would made you feel
I miss how much
love was found in unusual places
I miss seeing my father
everyday for a long period of time
I miss the lack of conscience
How everything seems weird at
first
For whatever reason
leaving what was once completely natural
was unbearable at first
but livable at last

Loving someone needs time
You can't jump from being friends
to lovers in seconds

Why don't we bring
the everyday routine into our lives
and accept it
as boring as it is
Why don't we bother ourselves
and just imagine how much life
was meaningless without effort
Why don't we see
all the beauty left in
this world
Why don't we give ourselves
the chance to start again

Loving you
meant
loving myself