Loving you
meant
loving myself

What is life without love?
Meaningless
What is life without hope?
Insignificant
What is life without respect?
Irrational
What is life without feelings?
Useless

To leave a certain space
with someone you used to admire
is called a distant childhood love

Believe that good things
are on their way
They will happen
They will be part of your life
But do not chase them
For they come to you
like little breezes of air
Unable to be seen
But felt deeply and strongly
within your soul

In 60 days
I tried my best to rediscover
my country Lebanon
It was weird
to experience
the other side
that I didn’t see before
the side
where everything is okay
where youth still governed an
important part of society
But most of all
to see how your school friends
have blossomed into mentally mature human beings
who aren’t afraid to show their fragile souls to the world

This time
I wanted to feel everything
feel the heat
feel the human interaction
feel the pain, the sadness of leaving
but also feel the joy
of recovering from insignificant
and useless scars

How much
was it important
To change your room,
your wall hangings
the ideas in your mind
but to keep your childhood
best friends close
no matter the distance
and no matter the time

It was an adoration of the body
the male body
It reminded me of statues
of desire
of a ****** gaze
and multiple pleasures
what an aesthetic way
to compare life
to water
the cycle of life
the maternal side of life
what a tragedy

Simply because
we are humans
we like what is
unexpected
what is unheard of
We just want to
feel amazed

Let go
of what keeps
your human roots
stuck to the ground

Let go
and liberate yourself
You deserve better my dear
Second chances are not always
worth the try

Just remember that even a movie
sequel is worse than the original

He walked
not knowing
that I observed him
from my car

That's how
everything
returned back
to its place
I have healed
myself from you
And that's how all human
existence has moved on