I am not sure what to do with myself or my life or my love.
I am not good enough. I know I want to change but I do not how that is to be done. I cannot strive for perfection when it is unattainable. And I know that I should because even if I fall short, I may fall close. But I do not.
I am not going anywhere. I am treading in the same shallow pool, unable to dive into the deep end. And still, I am setting goals that I do not have the motivation to work for. I am high hopes and big dreams and crushed ambitions.
I do not love you like you deserve. My love for you is ocean waves, lapping forward and retreating once again. Your love for me is constant and unchanging. You deserve to be the center of a planet’s orbit. I am not that planet. I wish I could be.
I am not sure what to do with myself or my life or my love.
I cannot be the lover you wish for me to be.