Where were you when the sky was falling?
Where were you when the ground opened up
And took me?

Do you ever question your absence
And why you never saw me smile?

Oh, Daddy, dear
You were walking with the beast
When the beauty needed you here.

You could've stopped me from hating you
Before I learnt the meaning of hate and the things you did.

But the front door seemed more appealing
And I'm sorry it did.
You kept walking. You're leaving, you're leaving-
Oh, hell. I blinked and now you're gone.

7, 8, 9... How many years is it now?
Can you count your length of absence to the day?
Or were you too stupid to know what number came next
after day one?

I've thought about meeting you again.
And I've thought of all the reasons you'd come.
You'd only show, just to tell child services
That you know my ******* name
And the colour of my hair-
It's dyed bright red, not that you care.

Then, I thought of all the reasons you wouldn't be there.
You can't remember my existance.
I'm not worth your time.
You're too lazy to even flinch
Or move a finger or blink
To bother with your child.
I'll stop this list now, before it takes away all my ink.

Mother was always right.
Did it hurt when you'd call me? I was only aged four
I'd run away from Mum when she tried to pass me the telephone.

All the time, I see girls who whinge about their father's
And I'd look at the good relationships they have
And feel ill in the stomach with a lump in my throat
To know I've never known what it's like
To not have a deadbeat father.

Your arms can be my tourniquet,
keeping my lungs in my chest
after I've torn it open-
When I no longer have the strength
to stand up straight and walk
you can be my spine-
These thoughts are spiralling
out of control and they're hurting-
My head will shatter,
will you be my glue?-
Cracked fingers, dislocated jaw,
I've screamed too much tonight,
become my tongue
Stop me speaking filth-
Blistering feet, I've been running on coals
chasing people my whole life-
I need you under my skin
save me.

There isn't another breath
that you'll take
when you learn of the disease
you've made.

There is a certain kind of sadness
pooling deep within your eyes
and every time you smile
every time you laugh
it shines so bright
I'm sorry.
so
the hour,,
glass is ticking
and dripping and crack-
ing. will you fall down again
tonight, graze a new knee, tango with
new tears and taste a different kind of dirt. With
beautiful bruised lips like yours, I bet you never knew.

A master of horror shows,
A fiend of the darkness,
A shadow in the sun,
Magnificent spine chilling master piece,
May you be known for a beautiful mind.

You'll spin an escape one day,
And I hope you refuse it's every ability
To entice you.

Everything is dark.



And everything hums with white noise.


I am buried six feet down in sadness


I wonder if the wind will blow soon, and carry away the weight of my mind.
Or serotonin will flood this hole I’m stuck in.

Helga broke another
Tiny heart:
Helga broke a heart;
Helga breaks hearts.

Soul changing eyes,
Petrify.
Are you alive?

Rose petals fall;
Helga broke one more.

Flattery is the starting gun
Like a pack of wolves
She'll hunt and run.

Feast, feasts;
Helga is the beast.

Snapped another heart string,
Wipe your tears,
You didn't feel a thing.

Helga, you're a *****!
Helga, Helga!

I dub thee a witch!

*Another heart,
On a stake.