Though I face the yelling loud,
I'd like to make my daddy proud.
A's, B's, and one C,
Never will it be a victory.
No I can't be like my big sis,
Tests 99%, only one miss.
I try so hard,
With a good report card.
Still can't give you a smile.

Even when I twirl,
I'm not daddy's little girl.
I stand on my toes,
To be right under your nose.
You look past me,
And yet I'm still not free.
I'm doing pliés at the barré,
While you're at the bar.
Why can't I make you proud?

Oh how I wish I was your son,
So I wouldn't want to be undone.
We'd play catch and drink a beer,
Then I wouldn't have this fear.
Of disappointing you again,
Feeling all that pain.
I can't keep doing this to myself.

Instead you shut me out,
I have many reasons to pout.
I haven't seen you in a year,
I shed a tear.
I miss you,
Even if you don't miss me too.
It's time to find someone who loves me.

People are like roses.
Each piece of a layer wilts off until it becomes a whole new rose.

Most nights I am out cold... But I lie awake and staring into the blackness of the room. Wishing you were here with me, holding me as I nuzzle into your chest inhaling your sweet aroma. I roll over to see the illusion of you coming to kiss my forehead and I come back to reality as your lips never meet my sensitive skin. A tear streams down my cheek and my pillow catches it forgivingly as my blanket tightly hugs against my cold body.

Even if you are miles and hours apart, our hearts are not. No matter how many times we leave each other, I want to just stay in your arms like when I just came into this beautiful world. Now look around you, this world loses it's colors... The black and white sketch got made to a beautiful chalk and watercolor canvas, only to be washed away. I want to be back to the simple joys, I want to be back with you. If nobody understands love, it's me, but I know I can never ever stop loving you. You got me here, and now I don't want to leave without you. You held my hand through everything until you left, you left me alone with the crazy lady... She left the marks on you, why would you leave me with her?... I waited so long until I hurt myself. Blood was shed, nooses were hung. I let your beautiful creation become a hideous disaster. It got torn apart, as I was waiting for a simple phone call or text that I got one a month for two years as you refused to talk to me. Why? Was I your "beautiful" creation or was I a mistake, the leftovers of something bad?... How could you leave her so helpless with nobody to fight off all the harmful things, teach her how to shoot or how to keep her boots nice and shiny. You lost one daughter, you can count on the second to stay. You may be close to your deathbed, but I know that you haven't even put the sheets down. I want you to walk me down the aisle but that aisle may never even be coming. You're a grandpa, but I want you to meet my children... I never met my grandpa's so it *****, I know. But I want you to be a part of my life forever. No matter how much I hate you, it's hate with love.

I'm wearing your now mascara-tear-stained shirt.

To the ones struggling with life,
To the ones who just want it to end.
Keep your chin up!
You can't see this beautiful world if you're looking at the ground.
Sometimes cry, to wash away the pain.
But keep your chin up.

You poison me with love. Your venom runs through my veins. Every second, I think about you, I ache to be with you, I yearn to please you. But knowing you don't want me, knowing you'll never feel the same about me, that's my favorite poison. I taste it every night, and every time you talk about another girl. But I guess she deserves you. She deserves your attention, your love. I was waiting for the stars, when I already had my sun.

I didn't know it was happening. Not until he looked at my arm and asked if I was okay. Replying with a nod, but the tear running down my face and the blood running down my arm told the truth.

I'm sorry for being curious. I'm sorry for being cautious about who gets my heart. I'm sorry for bothering you. I'm sorry for not being able to drive to your house. I'm sorry my mom is strict. I'm sorry for being so young and immature. I'm sorry I have my flaws. I'm sorry for being so dumb. I'm sorry I let the wrong guys break my heart. I'm sorry for loving everything about you. I'm sorry for being me.

I left because I thought you deserve better,
Not because I thought I was.

Maybe if you looked at me
The way I looked at you,
You'd know how I feel,
What I go through.
When you call me beautiful
Just to cheer me up.
When you spam me,
Cause I'm tearing up.
You don't know it actually hurts more,
Because you and I?
We'll be nothing more.

Think of lying in bed staying awake. It's dark, you don't even want to look at your phone. You don't have the motivation. Once you fall asleep it's painful to wake up you just want to go back to dreams the happy place. Once you're in public all you focus on are the people smiling with friends or the people laughing being happy. You don't even feel sad anymore. You just feel achingly empty. If depression were a color it'd be the darkest red, because it's like a flame of happiness is getting burnt out.

You've poisoned me. You've corrupted my mind, my eyes. I cannot love someone the way I now love you, but you try to make me realize the future I envision will not come.

You're my sunshine, you give me light when I'm a thunderstorm. The sun is always there, even when you can't see it.

Roses are red,
Their petals are thin.
I'll never love anyone,
The way I loved him.

I never thought I could see the light.
I thought I was blind.
Until you washed the mud right off my eyes.

Maybe you left because you finally saw me, the way I see myself.

How can you crave to hurt me? To want me back after you already broke me into pieces? Because you remember the good memories, and I remember the bad.

Darling... blessing or curse,
there’d be nothing worse,
than a world without you in it.

In shadows cast by life's relentless storm,
A girl with green eyes, her heart forlorn,
With hair like whispers of the fading day,
She battles demons, hidden, in disarray.

Though darkness cloaks her, her spirit's strong,
A silent battle, unseen for far too long,
Her heart's a treasure chest of feelings deep,
In solitude she weeps, her secrets keep.

No friends to share her burdens, pain concealed,
Yet love within her heart, a force revealed,
She loves so hard, a beacon in the night,
A fragile star in the vast, endless sight.

Her tears may fall like raindrops in the dark,
But in her strength, there shines a hopeful spark,
For even in despair, she fights her fight,
A girl with green eyes, a warrior of the night.