i don't have much to say anymore
the words have been torn out of my throat,
i watched them drown

i watched myself suffer and crawl my way out of the hell you created
for me

all i can say and all i really know is that i hope you don't break her like
you
broke
me

i should have felt sick when i saw the two of you
but instead i felt empty
and on the car ride home i couldn't feel anything
but i fear this is what i've become

a hollow shell of the person you made me into
lost in my way, wandering, trying to find who i was
before you

i never dream of you anymore

but i sat in my driveway the other night
i killed the lights and soaked in the silence

you pressed on me so hard i couldn't breathe

i realized how afraid i still am
how the fear grips my throat and im choking for air, crying for you to release me

you didn't **** me
but you made me just like you

i don't know what's worse at the end of the day

i've always been a hurricane

rough around the edges
a little too harsh, a little too loud
at all the wrong times

i cry easily and i hold onto anger like a lifeline
but you're soft and charming and you always know what i need to hear
you smooth out the bumps and fill in the cracks

if i'm a hurricane, you're a summer breeze

but i cant help but wonder
how many other girls feel like you're a saving grace?

it's 9:44 now
you're already gone

i can feel it this time in my bones like the air i breathe

you're gone because i told you to go

why didn't you know that's not what i meant
why didn't you stop my pain with your hands

i'm bleeding out,
apply pressure,
stitch this wound i created

tell me there's another world where we exist

tell me we have a perfect life on a perfect street in a perfect house

don't tell me it ends the same every way
don't tell me we always end with our heads in our hands
in separate bedrooms

shoulders shaking like this is the end
because we both know it is

i'm trying to tell you i'm existing outside
i'm not really alive

i'm so much better at being alone than being with you
you want me to grab your hand as a lifeline
how am i supposed to tell you i've already drowned?

do yourself a favor and fall out of love with me
i'm nobody's and i intend to stay that way

always walking out, always leaving
you can stare at my back as i move further and further away

you and i both know we've always felt like letting go