There are times
I feel so filled with love,
That it falls from my limbs
Like raindrops.
But I forget,
Not everyone loves the rain.

Patience

Is not

Failure, or wasting time

It’s not loneliness or isolation

Patience is not useless

It’s not a setback

Patience is needed and necessary

Patience is appreciating what you've been waiting for

It’s calm, it’s acceptance

It’s happiness and peace

Patience is finding joy in life

While things fall into place

My fingertips
Bleed for you
Every word that I can't say.

What is distance,

But a plane ride

Or an 11 hour drive to the mountainside.

What is distance?

But miles and state lines,

And sunset and sunrise.

What is distance,

But watching loved ones come and go.

What is distance,

But something you can’t feel or touch;

You can write it and hear it.

Isn’t that good enough?

Who taught you how to male gaze?
On a day so hot it could cook an egg...
Was it your father
That told you my legs were ****** fodder?
Or was it your mother
Who said my **** are wild and for someone other than a toddler
Now while I'm proud to a woman
I also walk this earth as human
And your eyes make me despise
Every curve of my thighs
As much as I'm beautiful
My mind is also useful

Who taught you to male gaze
On hot New York days?

I am the siren

I shipwreck soldiers

Leaving them stranded on salty shores

I sing sweet songs that can turn a bitter heart

Into sugar.

I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders.

I fall in love with every set of lips I’ve ever kissed

And still my heart bubbles up over itself

Like some lovesick teen with dreams

Painted in unrequited fantasies.

Will I ever get what I want?

Or am I doomed to drown

In my ever growing desires?

Hello hello oh mystery man
It's funny how people meet
Are you the one who fortune told
Would kiss the ground under my feet?
Now let's not get too ahead of ourselves
Wearing our hearts on our sleeves
But I've been waiting for someone to come along
And make a woman out of me
A voice still unheard yet I can already imagine
I'll melt like morning dew
Hello hello my mystery man
It's a pleasure to finally meet you.

In a few more years I see myself playing the piano-drunk

And signing on tabletops.

In a few more years I see myself kissing strangers and falling out of love

Or back in.

In a few more years I see myself learning to swim

And jumping off cliffs praying that I live.

The painters live by the seasons,
measuring tints and hues
In every birth and every death in every leaf
And the poets live by the weather
Soaking their words in sorrow or temporary bliss
At the slightest shift in
Nature

I imagine your voice waking me up

On cold mornings.

I imagine seeing you face come hazily into focus

As the suns shines its sweet rays on our skin.

I imagine you pushing the hair from around my lips

And kissing me inhaling every scent.

I imagine feeling you smile

Embrace me;

And I smile too.

I swallow sadness
I eat it
I study it
I feel it fully, in every corner of my bones
I soak in emotions;
I seeps into my soul
I am a sponge

I know that I love you by the way

You creep into my thoughts

As the day creeps through my window.

I know because all the flowers smell like you

And as they bloom I see your face

A love as easy a the change of seasons

Subtle but I can feel it.

Like the way my hair stands on end when your voice

Touches my ears

New York blues,
I've been looking for you;
The way you make me stare
At someones shoes
Instead of their eyes.
New York blues.
The way you make silence feel
Golden.
New York blues.
The ways you make me nostalgic for people I have never met.
Blues, blues, blues
You make me want to throw away my culture
And forget what my mother taught me,
Make me want a high I've never tried;
You put the world at my fingertips
So shocking!
Lonely, lonely
New York blues.

You make me feel like early winter mornings

When I refuse to get out of bed

Because it keeps me warmer than you ever will.

You remind me of hot summer nights

When I wake up from nightmares;

Cold sweat dripping down my face.

You look like springtime

They way you bloom and glow when nobody is looking.

You remind me of fall

Beautiful and fragile

The wintertime just feels like

Love.

Cold lips and fingertips

Naked. Pressed against each other

Lonliness

It’s as stifling as a cold

It makes every bone in your body

Weak.

Waking up becomes harder

Because I can sleep a little longer

And dream of you;

Falling asleep is harder

Without an arm around you.

Some say they care

And maybe they do

But they care more about whats underneath

The cotton that makes you modest

Some care but they will never tell you

Maybe you don’t seem worth it

A lost cause

A waste of words.

How can I miss someone I've never met

Something I've never had?

I can only hope that our paths will cross

You will never be mine, but I still hope

To hear my name leaping off the tip of your tongue

As it meets my mouth.

I felt you so vividly in my dreams

As if I'm leaping dimensions, to a world of our own

A world you've been to; a place to run away.

I could be your perfect secret as you leave me for reality

Please don't leave it all for me.

Oh how I wish to be a reason for

Syntax and diction.

A reason for brushstrokes

And pen marks.

I’d love to be the reason for dreams

In the days or the nights.

An inspiration, an idea.

A muse.

I want to be the  reason

You pour your heart onto paper

And blush with truth.

Im a mystery

Youre in love with every thought of me

You imagine how I’ll say your name

Or how my breathe will feel

On your neck

Or when I run my fingers through

Your hair

You don’t care to know

My flaws

I can’t help but cling to you like

Lint on your favorite sweater

I’m stuck.

Pick me off one by one

It’s never enough

I’d hide in every fiber just to see your smile.

As you ran through my house

You didn't notice you had knocked me down

Until you heard the crash.

You lied to her when she asked

And you said you didn't break me

I was in the way while you were chasing after something

That you thought was better.

But it wasn't and you never got it

And you cried as you watch her collect my peices

And I cut her hand and she cried too

But only a little.

And she glued me back together

The best that she could.

No one could really notice

Unless they got real close.

But I knew.

I could feel every crack,

Every gaping hole that you faced towards the wall

So the neighbors wouldn't see.

And years passed,

And you could never look at me the same.

Because I was broken

And you knew why.

In 3 years my days have complied
Into what seems like like 3 weeks
In the city that never sleeps
But it's all I want to do
I haven't even had a chance to blink
Senses become desensitized
To blaring of sirens or the smells of people dying
But I guess we're all dying
The shell of my cancer soul
Has grown thicker and stronger
But not any less blue
My heart has grown more weary
But it still rest on my sleeve
It's wonder how anyone finds themselves
In this concrete time machine
Maybe it's more like losing what you came with and building something new
This city where dreams become reality
And reality becomes you

Kiss the small of my back

And travel up the valleys of my spine

To the hill of my shoulder blades;

Can you feel the scars?

Lay you head on my chest

Listen to my heartbeat

Can you hear the cracks?

I am I am I am

No longer broken

Nothing is worse
Than letting someone get away
With breaking your heart.

The symbol of my culture

One I've yet to meet.

My mother always told me "You're just like you Father"

The one I've yet to meet.

Still I pray I find some culture, where all this land seems to be

Now I don't know Spanish , but I've got the face of a queen.

Just like a bag of rice

Mix me up, mix me up

I come together nicely

Until I'm all dried up

I'm a walking contradiction
Controlled by my emotions
Unaware of my action
In one ear and out of the other
The words of my friends vs the words of my mother
Who am I really?
Does anyone ever know?
Or do we just lie to ourselves to give the world a show
Ashamed of evolution
Comforted by prediction

Howl, howl, howl.

Let me for howl for you

My full moon

Crescent eyes.

I’d fall into every crater of your heart

Thousand of miles away

But in the bright night sky

It ‘s like you're right here

Shining just for me

I’ll be your wolf if you’ll be my coyote

And we can howl to same empty moon.

I want you to read my scars

Like the sentences in your favorite book

And feel my curves like they’re all you can dream about.

I want you to kiss my lips like they are sweetest thing

This awful world has to offer.

I want my name to fall from your mouth

Like a psalm from heavens.

Know my body, I want to be your map to God.

Ever since you kissed my lips

All I can think about is having more.

How you’ll think my moans sound

And how you’re body will quiver.

Breaths shortening as I remember

Your lips on my shoulder

And your pants tighten thinking

About my soft skin

My name is Eve when I’m in you presence

And I know you don’t care much about hearts

But I want you to hurt me,

Break me apart.

Waking up alone was always the hardest part. Going to parties and ***** downtown bars only intensified her loneliness. The stares, the cat calls. Everyone admired her appearance (she was asking for it) but no one wanted to know her. Some days days her loneliness grew into bitterness other days were worst. She would've had a sense of  abandonment if anyone stay in her life long enough to abandon her.

There was a void in her life. A hallow feeling that couldn't be filled with drugs or *** or music. She fell hard and fast for the boys who looked at her in the eyes and talked about ideas and thoughts and opinions. Anyone could be her one and only (she was nobody’s anything). It’s as if someone had a timer on her romantic endeavors and turned it before all the sand hit the bottom. She felt cheated; life was playing a ***** trick.

“We accept the love we think we deserve” she had read in a book once and it had stuck to her brain like magnets to fake jewelry. She found love at nighttime or across state lines and oceans. She found love in the men who could never love her as much as they loved their money or their wives. She found love in the men who only prayed when angels floated up their noses. It wasn't what she deserved but it’s what she got.

Now I'm starting to feel a little manic depressive one day I'm happy the next I'm so aggressive who can I be in a world that hates me

Who takes my culture and separated it into two parts the good for money and the bad becomes funny

I was born a monster but you can pay to become a monster too as long as you're eyes are blue

Lays your eyes upon me

As if you were wearing blinders

And I am all you can see

I want you to study every detail of my face,

Wondering which mark to kiss first.

Learn me like a map

Taking new routes each day to my heart.

Circle your favorite places with gentle

Fingertips.

All my scars are fading

And I’m afraid that I’ll miss them

Nothing left but some raised white lines

I have nothing left to hide

They were beautiful

And I remember them all

My mystery I wanted someone to solve

Now time is running out

Because they are all gone.

Love
Seems to be
In the
a
i
r
And I can't hold my breath
Much longer