Losing Interest
You won't find no better than this
I swear girl, if you leave
Just let me know
So i won't look dumb
When you
Move on..

It's sad how
things are most beautiful
when they are ending..

Flowers when they're wilting,
the leaves in autumn,
the sun when its setting..

Your smile when it's fading...

He came to me
and pulled up his sleeve
and handed me a knife
with tears in his eyes
saying “Cut me..”

I looked at
him confused

He said through tears
“I can’t stand to see you
hurting yourself so
if you need to cut
something ..cut me”

And in that moment
I broke into tears
and hugged him
and never let go

Because true love is when you don’t care if you have to be in pain as long as the one you love is happy.

I suppose

I love my scars
because
they have
stayed with me
longer

Than most people
have..

All her wild was put to rest
Under a long hand of darkness

But she remains a reflection in the cup
Swirling and twirling

Reminding me
There is light among the dark

There are dreams
There is always a poem

Resting beside the worries of yesterday

          - My wildflower tea

I thought I’d feel empty if you ever decided to leave me ..

Isn’t it strange?

That these days I feel more full then I ever did when I was with you

You found my weakest spots and dig in deep
Show up with someone new just so I can see
I act out pathetic
Told you it hurts but you still don't get it
I used to think certain things bother me more than they should
But then I realized you just make me feel misunderstood
If love is pain and pain is real
Baby, if it wants you feel
I couldn't stop myself from falling for you
You turned into someone else, I wish I knew

The hardest thing I’ve ever had to do?
It wasn’t you.. letting you go, that was difficult though, to swallow my pride and wear a smile to hide the fact I’m not okay..

Oh no, the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do?
Was finally admit to myself the truth..

It was admitting that you were never mine to begin with..

I guess if you can't beat 'em, join 'em
That's what they always say
Let's go inside, let's coincide
And I'll commensurate
Singin', we're the newest members of the broken hearts club
We still feel pretty lonely and we wish we didn't, but
We're the newest members of the broken hearts club
And we all kinda hate it, but it's easier than love

They threw me in and now I’m drowning in the deep end
If I’m religious, you’re the one that I believe in
You’ve been here with me to help me fight all my demons
On our way through the sky
We’re gon’ look down tonight
When we die, you and I
Two heartbreak soldiers
When you lay by my side
I see the world through your eyes
Ride or die, you and I
To live or die, what’s the price on a life?

I feel alive when I'm sleeping
'Cause they can't trust my words if I don't speak
But the world knows most my secrets
I feel alive when I'm asleep

And I haunt myself in the middle of the night
As I float through the frame of my body in my mind, oh
Everyone knows that I'm dying to feel fine
But the lens in my brain always tells me twisted lies

I see the world through a filter
And I'm just a different kind
I feel alive when I'm sleeping
I always hide on the inside

The leaves fall as they die
The rain when the clouds cry

Rose petals fall as the color fades
Tears when her heart breaks

Stars fall to make her wishes come true  
Her hair when she undresses you

All of these fall,
just like she falls for you...

I can swear, I can joke
I say what's on my mind
If I drink, if I smoke
I keep up with the guys
And you see me holding up my middlefinger to the world
**** your ribbons and your pearls
'Cause I'm not just a pretty girl

I'm more than just a picture
I'm a daughter and a sister
Sometimes it's hard for me to show
That I'm more than just a rumor
Or a song on your computer
There's more to me than people know

Some days I'm broke, some days I'm rich
Some days I'm nice, some days I can be a *****
Some days I'm strong, some days I quit
I don't let it show, but I've been through some ****

I'm more than just a number
I'm a hater, I'm a lover
Sometimes it's hard for me to show
That I'm more than just a title
Or a comment going viral
There's more to me than people know

We should leave our lovers
And be with one another
Run your fingers through my hair
And hide under my covers

We should leave our lovers
We should run after each other
We can share our secrets
'Till they swallow one another

We should leave our lovers
We should, we should leave our lovers
But you'll never leave your lover, no
You'll never leave your lover

We should leave our lovers
We should leave our lovers
We should, we should leave our lovers
I need you like no other, no
I'll never find another, no

Leave me in the silence
I'll let you cut me open
Help me from the inside out
Slow motion

I feel you in my blood, baby
Bring your body closer
Love me with your sad eyes
Drain me of my color

We should leave our lovers
We should, we should leave our lovers
I need you like no other, no
I'll never find another, no

You'll never leave your lover, no
You'll never leave your lover
I need you like no other, no
I'll never find another

When I'm sad
I don't want someone to tell me
about how "it gets better"
and that I need to "move on"

I need someone to tell me
that it's okay to be sad,
and that feelings are validated.

I don't need someone to tell me
about how much happier I could be,
I need someone to just hold me
and tell me that I've been strong
and that it's okay
to sometimes not be
okay..

Back then you used to be my medicine
We used to be so innocent

Then you turned into a drug
That won't get me high enough

Feelin' sick to my stomach, and I think I know why
I can tell something's different since we lost the fire
Every word's catastrophic, every kiss seems strange
Don't you feel like something's changed?

You up into material, don't wanna be physical
And you pretend it's alright (All of a sudden)
I feel so invisible, my condition's physical
Wish you could pause and rewind
Feelin' sick to my stomach, it's like I don't know you
I can tell something's changin' that we can't undo
Every nights a disaster, every kiss feels cold
When did we lose our control?

While you changed, I've stayed the same

I'm sorry that I did this
The blood is on my hands
I stare at my reflection
I don't know who I am
Practice my confession
In case I take the stand
I'll say I learned my lesson
I'll be a better man
I'm packing up my things and
I'm wiping down the walls
I'm rinsing off my clothes and
I'm walking through the halls
I did it all for her
So I felt nothing at all
I don't know what she'll say
So I'll ask her when she calls

"Would you love me more
If I killed someone for you?
Would you hold my hand?
They're the same ones that I used
When I killed someone for you

I hear the sirens coming
I see the flashing lights
I'm driving through the suburbs
Wearing my disguise
I show up at her doorstep
To look her in the eyes
I tell her that it's me
But she doesn't recognize
Can't you see I'm running?
Said I need a place to hide
I've gotta ask you something
Could you please let me inside?
Just let me explain
No I wouldn't tell you lies
I know you'll understand
If you let me stay the night"

Would you turn me in
When they say I'm on the loose?
Would you hide me when
My face is on the news?
'Cause I killed someone for you

You have to understand that
The one I killed is me
Changing what I was
For what you wanted me to be
I followed your direction
Did everything you asked
I hope it makes you happy
'cause there's just no turning back

Flowers have
done nothing
wrong

Yet we rip them
from their
homes

and give them
to people who
don't love
us

There are nights I cry so hard that my
body aches and I shake and I have to
put my head in my pillow so no one
hears me..

There also nights I’m happy that
you’re happy and I think everything
happens for a reason..

And there also nights where I feel
nothing at all..

But there is never a night that you
don’t cross my mind ...

Yeah, it hurts, but it's true, I shouldn't care, but I do
I hide who I'm inside, like I've got something to prove
But what I've learnt is that pretending ends up bad for my health
What's the point of being if I'm not being myself?

I wish we lived in a world...

Where it was safe to keep

..our hearts unlocked