I don't wanna be here but I'm too afraid to die Can't say I haven't thought about giving it a try I tell people I'm happy but that's a ******* lie I guess I'm just afraid to tell the ones I love goodbye
I don't know why I'm still here, or why you care, why do you care..?
We know that this won't last Not like it used to And I'm okay with that But not if I lose you I can feel it in my bones Sinking deeper in the overflow Can you feel it in your soul? If I'm honest, maybe we're better off alone
Cross my heart and hope to die I’ve felt this pain a million times I say I’m good but it’s a lie I wish you knew how I felt inside
80 in the whip as the rain hits my windshield Driving fast to escape how I really feel I would tell you but that’s a big deal You don’t see what I see that’s how I feel
Hit the gas and I’m floating now Text you back and hoping now You stay with me you don’t *** around I don’t know where I’m going now I’m always chasing you around You pull me down when I’m off the ground Playing games like cat and mouse One time just come around I’m a get so high like The skylight You tell me I’m a down guy Girl yeah is you down tonight Go and get it till the sky rise We gon get it like the high rise All the way up to the top Baby girl we don’t gotta stop
I need a Person right now, and I'm all alone on my couch, and I'm really thinking how I could do things work better I'm still me and i still made it through the weather If i were you and you were me the things would be more different Life just feels the same and lately I'm just feeling different I just want to take it back when we were only kids Escaped out of our classes just to give you hugs and kisses
But things are different now and feelings aren't allowed It's funny now i try to hide em' back when I was prouder then
Yeah, I feel like I fell and I landed in the deep end Getting wasted every party on the weekends I meet girl but they're never what I looked for Only feel love when I read about it in the bookstore About time that the tables started turning Same **** i was searching and searching Getting sick of all this learning Why can't my life be perfect
I need someone new, someone whom i call hers Wanna get the feelings that I felt in the past I knew life was ain't gonna be easy But wasn't expecting it that fast
It's all lies out the gate I snuck up fast, I'm losing everything that I thought would always last So now I lie waiting for a cure To this poisoned and diseased Mind I thought that had my back Now I'm giving up, God help I've been falling apart Self distractive at heart It's okay, it's okay if you hate me I've been living my death Over and over again It's okay, it's okay if you hate me 'Cause I hate me (It's ok if you hate me) Am I blind? I'm letting myself slip away I'm losing every chance I get to keep myself the same So now I hide I keep my secrets locked inside I'll severe out the truth so the world can see my lies Now I'm giving up, God help
**** **** **** **** **** **** ...hate myself..? Or just the world?
I'm sorry that I did this The blood is on my hands I stare at my reflection I don't know who I am Practice my confession In case I take the stand I'll say I learned my lesson I'll be a better man I'm packing up my things and I'm wiping down the walls I'm rinsing off my clothes and I'm walking through the halls I did it all for her So I felt nothing at all I don't know what she'll say So I'll ask her when she calls
"Would you love me more If I killed someone for you? Would you hold my hand? They're the same ones that I used When I killed someone for you
I hear the sirens coming I see the flashing lights I'm driving through the suburbs Wearing my disguise I show up at her doorstep To look her in the eyes I tell her that it's me But she doesn't recognize Can't you see I'm running? Said I need a place to hide I've gotta ask you something Could you please let me inside? Just let me explain No I wouldn't tell you lies I know you'll understand If you let me stay the night"
Would you turn me in When they say I'm on the loose? Would you hide me when My face is on the news? 'Cause I killed someone for you
You have to understand that The one I killed is me Changing what I was For what you wanted me to be I followed your direction Did everything you asked I hope it makes you happy 'cause there's just no turning back
You found my weakest spots and dig in deep Show up with someone new just so I can see I act out pathetic Told you it hurts but you still don't get it I used to think certain things bother me more than they should But then I realized you just make me feel misunderstood If love is pain and pain is real Baby, if it wants you feel I couldn't stop myself from falling for you You turned into someone else, I wish I knew
I drink my coffee in the morning I brush my teeth before bed I fake a smile to keep the sad thoughts Out of my head I sit outside and watch the world spin I bet you probably moved on But I still can't seem to sing Hmm, anything but this song
I've asked my therapist, my mom and dad the same I've asked my friends and fam, they all say I'm to blame I've spent all this time pretending I'm okay Well, I'm not okay
Today might be the day I go insane The day I go insane That'll be the day, today might be the day The day I go insane
It'll probably be the best day in my life I'll be rid of all my problems, I'll be rid of my strife And I can't even fix an issue by just sayin' "Good night" And I don't even got to worry if I'm wrong or I'm right And when I argue with my darkest side, it's comin' to light I'd rather have 'em call me crazy, than have another fight with you This mind of mine is mine to lose, it's true
Nothing makes it hard to breathe Like being in your company When you’ve got someone new around your arms I thought’d I’d be over it To see you lock with other lips I guess I’m just no good at moving on
I always tried to Tell myself that I’d Fall I love with someone else But oh my stubborn heart is set on you And every night I Fall asleep just so I can see you in my dreams And now I think you ought to know the truth
Are you listenin I’m knocking on your heart, could you let me in Tell me I’m the one and I’ve always been Cause I don’t wanna wonder if we’ll ever meet again I’m knocking on your heart, could you let me in
When you left I made you swear our love would last No matter where And we would call each other every night But nights turned into weeks, turned into months We didn’t speak And so we lost our sense of love over time
They threw me in and now I’m drowning in the deep end If I’m religious, you’re the one that I believe in You’ve been here with me to help me fight all my demons On our way through the sky We’re gon’ look down tonight When we die, you and I Two heartbreak soldiers When you lay by my side I see the world through your eyes Ride or die, you and I To live or die, what’s the price on a life?
Bring me back to those times when people were truthful When true love existed When people don’t just come and go The mask we are wearing now getting thicker everyday hiding the genuine within us just so to fit in we change Ourselves to a complete different person please turn back Look at what you have done to yourself remove that mask of yours.
Back then you used to be my medicine We used to be so innocent
Then you turned into a drug That won't get me high enough
Feelin' sick to my stomach, and I think I know why I can tell something's different since we lost the fire Every word's catastrophic, every kiss seems strange Don't you feel like something's changed?
You up into material, don't wanna be physical And you pretend it's alright (All of a sudden) I feel so invisible, my condition's physical Wish you could pause and rewind Feelin' sick to my stomach, it's like I don't know you I can tell something's changin' that we can't undo Every nights a disaster, every kiss feels cold When did we lose our control?
Woah, nobody's home, I'm all alone Guess I'll just sit here and stare at my phone When I'm all alone, you don't even know How bad I'd love to be alone with you And I could go put on a hoodie and sweats And then take a walk to coffee, and get back into bed But my bed and my head and the heart that you wrecked In my chest are a mess since the second you left And I'm lying awake and impatiently pacing The hallways and taking the pictures from frames And arrangements of daisies in vases you made Are all dead and alone like I am, but I hope that Maybe I'll forget you someday But today is just another Monday
I can swear, I can joke I say what's on my mind If I drink, if I smoke I keep up with the guys And you see me holding up my middlefinger to the world **** your ribbons and your pearls 'Cause I'm not just a pretty girl
I'm more than just a picture I'm a daughter and a sister Sometimes it's hard for me to show That I'm more than just a rumor Or a song on your computer There's more to me than people know
Some days I'm broke, some days I'm rich Some days I'm nice, some days I can be a ***** Some days I'm strong, some days I quit I don't let it show, but I've been through some ****
I'm more than just a number I'm a hater, I'm a lover Sometimes it's hard for me to show That I'm more than just a title Or a comment going viral There's more to me than people know
Roses are red, violets are blue My heart is dead, I'm such a fool Why did I fall for you? I gave it all for you
Feelin' lost, don't know what to do But I just got some head in the back of my coupe Still feelin' dead when I think about you I can't do a **** thing when I'm without you I'ma take a trip to the past off the shrooms Off the acid Then I'll **** a bad *****
Yeah, it hurts, but it's true, I shouldn't care, but I do I hide who I'm inside, like I've got something to prove But what I've learnt is that pretending ends up bad for my health What's the point of being if I'm not being myself?