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135 · Nov 2018
Second Guessing
So I sit here
Rotting from inside
Now watch me sit dear
Severing my ties just ask me why
I am ashamed to pave the way
My self reluctance is to blame
Will anybody save me I'm afraid?



What if I'm broken?
What if I cannot win this fight?
Would you believe me,
Or just leave me here to die?
And honestly it's hard to see
The future that's in store for me
I'm broken!
Second guessing all that's keeping me alive

Don't believe a word I say!
I crave the ways I've been
I'd be lying to myself
If I said I'm free from this
Without the need of agony
It's bringing out the worst of my own faith
Will anybody save me I'm afraid?


Well it feels like someone's testing me
And it's easier said than done to be so calm,
But I know that you're watching me
11:03 p.m. :_:
134 · Nov 2018
Better off
We know that this won't last
Not like it used to
And I'm okay with that
But not if I lose you
I can feel it in my bones
Sinking deeper in the overflow
Can you feel it in your soul?
If I'm honest, maybe we're better off alone
My mind is falling apart
130 · Aug 2019
Visceral
My decisions
are always visceral.

***, love, don't eat meat.

Empathize until it hurts.

Go here, and there,
but stay home most of the time.

Feel feel feel.

It's all visceral.

I don't use my head
or even my heart,
I use my gut.
130 · Nov 2018
...
...
Do you know how hard it is with people
asking me
Left        Right    

                     and centre
Won’t stop asking your name..
And I have to explain.. that you STILL love me...

But not the same..
and when I tell them you left me... they look at me so incredulously
“He doesn’t know what he’s missing”

But the thing is neither do I :(
125 · Dec 2018
Just let go
Sometimes you
just have to

let go of certain
people in order

to make room
for something

Beautiful To Enter Your Life
125 · Dec 2018
Us
Us
He liked deep poetic quotes
because his mind can't process
the rush in his veins
when he hears her name.

She liked sad love songs
because she can't describe
her lonely world
without him in her life.
..I hope I'll be alright without you ..
124 · Nov 2018
(F*cking) Selfish (shh)
What do I gotta do to make you all mine
What do I gotta say to make it all smiles
You got other things to do than waste my time
‘Cause I’ve been so selfish
And I just can’t help it, yeah

Girl, just slow down
There ain’t nobody faster in this whole town
But I just got caught up in all this phony
******* about how I should be lowkey
When you won’t even speak to me
120 · Nov 2018
Maybe...just maybe
Maybe.. we fall
IN LOVE..
                       with sad eyes

Because we see our souls ...

Reflected in them..
?
117 · Nov 2018
Knocking On Your Heart
Nothing makes it hard to breathe
Like being in your company
When you’ve got someone new around your arms
I thought’d I’d be over it
To see you lock with other lips
I guess I’m just no good at moving on

I always tried to
Tell myself that I’d
Fall I love with someone else
But oh my stubborn heart is set on you
And every night I
Fall asleep just so
I can see you in my dreams
And now I think you ought to know the truth



Are you listenin
I’m knocking on your heart, could you let me in
Tell me I’m the one and I’ve always been
Cause I don’t wanna wonder if we’ll ever meet again
I’m knocking on your heart, could you let me in

When you left I made you swear our love would last
No matter where
And we would call each other every night
But nights turned into weeks, turned into months
We didn’t speak
And so we lost our sense of love over time
Well..could you?
114 · Nov 2018
Mask
Bring me back to those times when people were
truthful
When true love existed
When people don’t just come and go
The mask we are wearing now getting thicker
everyday hiding the genuine within us just so to fit
in we change
Ourselves to a complete different person please turn
back
Look at what you have done to yourself
remove that mask of yours.
6’11’18 11:56 am

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