8.9.25 (11:13 am / 11:13)
404
not found
we couldn't find the page you were looking for

so where have you gone?

In the black of night
not a twinkling light in sight
he shone as bright as the sun
too bad we were on the run

Had we not witnessed the death
not heard the last breath
we would be enjoying the party

But his mind was too preoccupied
too mystified
by the mysterious woman
consulting the doorman

Have you ever heard 'curiosity killed the cat'
boy you should have hid behind your hat
you were the guest
now your part is the test

You are ****** for all eternity
because of your naive mentality
so run you little lab rat
your being chased by the cat

stheyre goingto find me
thosefeelingsi tried to leavebehing but theyy sswoulndt leave me.

theywalk beside me in thesunlgith sheileding their eyes
and in the darktheysmile stroking my hair

sayingyou;re n o t e n o u g h enunciating eachwordhisssssing
whispers

never ever ever enough youcould ne v  e   r be en o ugh
too much at the same timg like please picka ******* feeling

shes an oldfriend thistype oflonliness
i know her well
.

7.8.25 (17:28)
i'm hoping to move on
hoping to get over you.

just like the two girls before,
i just think maybe you were that flash of brilliance
a moment like light on water
before the rainbow fades
and we are back to just you and me again.

i'm hoping to move on from you,
not the way that means i'm leaving, but the way
that means
well
i don't know

i can promise you
it will be okay
and that's what i never could say before.

i wish you'd write back to me 7.19.25 5:39 pm /17:39
oh, -------,
sometimes i wish you would write a letter back to me.

sometimes i wish you would log onto your old macbook
instinctively go to hellopoetry.com
type in my ariana grande username
find me and my words
find it, these lost sentences,
these trembling letters
i've been trying to send you.

i see why you don't-
the fear that maybe,
one day,
we will wake up and realize we don't love each other
that we don't know each other like we think
we do.

i haven't sent you a letter
because i don't want you to know but i want you to know
that i love you
but what if, what if, what if
one day i don't?

the uncertainty of being not torn apart
but drifting
finding someone new and
figuring out ourselves, finally,
finding that we don't need each other anymore.

of course that's not why you love me
or why i love you

i get that
i get that fear.

but you are not afraid
because you don't even know
that this whole time

i have been screaming
your name.

my everything 7.17.25 (6:08 pm / 18:08)
what did i say when you told me everything?
nothing?
everything, too?

is is even important to remember?
or too important?

so
what will you say when i tell you
everything

all my truths and so then all my lies
what will you do?
when you know, when you know, when you know
that you have known nothing
almost all along?

i'm sorry really flipping ******* sorry
i hope you don't mind i stole your words
i hope you don't mind i stole your trust
i hope you don't mind i simply could not make myself tell you

that everything

so
what will you say?

i suppose
let the stars speak for us.