Her tired mind aches for what she still struggles with
Everyday is silent chaos,
Silent because it’s all in her mind
Silent because it slithers and it destroys her internal
She lives her life running from everything
Trying to hide but no matter where she goes
Her mind knows her best
some days are filled with happiness
Yet she always wanted Joy

Everything will begin
To change
And you'll  *remain the same

Open your mind
I want to see the  beauty
You always seem to talk about,
It fascinates every part of me
It wakes me
It shakes me
To think were different
**But somehow alike

The sad
Reminder leaving
Us to
Think that it's okay to
H**old on and pretend everything is fine when its not

"I miss you"

Late at night I'll watch the sky
& I wonder to myself

*How did I ever make it this far

My art is like a story that never ends;
My art is living, my mind is creative.

What hurts more,
The times where the pieces placed themselves
Or
The times where the pieces were nowhere to be found  
?

I loved everything about today
Because I was with  **You

I'm going to forget
All the times you made me
*Cry

Suicidal thoughts,
Overthinking,
Cutting,
I
Eventually let
Them get to me, don't let them get to
You

R** emembering
A ll the drops whenever
I would look outside and wondered,
N ever thought I would hear my own

Sometimes  I wonder
Sometimes  **I cry
For way too long

IF THIS MY GOODBYE
SO BE IT
IF YOU FIND THIS
JUST KNOW
I LOVE YOU
WHOLEHEARTEDLY
MY DECISION
MY LIFE
YOU COULDN'T STOP SHEIT IF YOU TRIED
PROBABLY WOULD HAVE MADE ME STAY ANOTHER DAY
AND MAYBE ANOTHER DAY AFTER THAT
BUT EVENTUALLY YOU WOULD HAVE GREW TIRED
AND EVENTUALLY I WOULD HAVE TOO
I NEED YOU MORE THAN EVER BEFORE
LOOKING FOR FLOWERS TO BLOOM
IN PLACES THAT NEEDED FIXING
OR I THOUGHT NEEDED FIXING
FOR THAT MATTER

I HATE IT HERE SOMETIMES
THIS PLACE IS NO PLACE FOR ME
BECAME SENSITIVE TO EVERY TOPIC
BECAME SCHIZ EVEN
WAITING FOR YOU TO COME HOME

HOME
BECAME FURTHER THEN I THOUGHT
I JUST KEPT SPIRALING
SENSITIVE BECAUSE SHEIT GOT REAL
AND TEARS STARTED FLOWING
EVER SINCE THAT CALL CAME
I BECAME DISTANT
THAT OUTER BODY EXPERIENCE
WAITING FOR YOU
TO GET BACK
FELT LIKE I ENTERED ANOTHER
DIMENSION
LOST
TRYING TO GET BACK
EVERY TIME I HELD YOU
I FELT THIS DISCONNECT
WITH BEING PRESENT
I CRIED THE LOUDEST
YET NO ONE HEARD ME
EVERYDAY
FELT MIXY
I TRUSTED YOU
GOT ME
KILLED
****
YOU GOT ME
I HOPE YOU FEEL ACCOMPLISHED
WHY ME
OVERPLAYED
LIKE AN UNRELEASED BEAT
YOU HAD NOTHING TO LOSE
I FELT PLANTED
IT WAS **** ME WHEN IT RAIN
OUTTA STATE
OUTTA MIND
FEELING BODIED
DRIVING THE BOAT
PRAYING IT DON'T SINK
PRAYING THIS RAIN DON'T LAST FOREVER
HOW IT SUNNY OUTSIDE
AND ALL I FEEL IS RAIN
DRIVING THE BOAT
YET IN OUTER SPACE
MIND SPEEDING
IF ONLY I SMOKE THAT
THERE WOULD BE A LOT OF SMOKE IN THE AIR
IF I LEAVE NOW
THERE AIN'T NO COMING BACK

WEIGHING EVERYTHING
BECAME TIRESOME
I BLAMED MYSELF FOR EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED
THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT
TOOK A HOLD ON THAT SINGLE THOUGHT
I THOUGHT
FOR SO LONG
AFTER THAT

DISCONNECTED TO RECONNECT
DISCONNECT TO FEEL
RECONNECTED
YET YOU STILL LINGERED IN MY MIND
I AM LIVID FOR SPEEDING
MAYBE IF I SLOWED DOWN
YOU WOULD HAVE MISSED ME


WHAT MAKES YOU THINK
I WANT PEOPLE TO SEE ME LIKE THIS
WHEN I FEEL LIKE I'M AT MY LOWEST
TOO WEAK
TO WANTING TO GET UP SOMETIMES
I RATHER JUST STAY HERE
FAKING THAT SMILE KNOWING THAT SHEIT
WEIGHING ON ME

FELL TOO MANY TIMES
TRYING TO GET YOU TO
COMPREHEND ME
IT BECAME TIRESOME
I MISS YOU LIKE VACATION
THIS THAT YOU NEED STOMACH FOR
THIS THAT YOU READY HOLD ON
TRYING TO HOLD ON MYSELF

TO FAST FORWARD
I FINALLY MADE IT HOME
BEEN GONE FOR SO LONG
HOME FEELS FOREIGN
HOME DON'T FEEL LIKE IT DID BEFORE
SO I'M ALWAYS OUTSIDE
TRYING TO STAY OUT MY CONSCIOUS

SMOKE THAT DRILL THIS
THIS CONSTANT FEELING OF NOTHING CHANGING
HOME SUPPOSE TO FEEL WARM
HOME SUPPOSE TO FEEL SAFE
WHERE HOME AT
WHEN YOU ALWAYS IN OUTER SPACE


NOT SUICIDAL
THIS AIN'T NO SUICIDAL NOTE
NOT SUICIDAL
JUST CURIOUS ON
THE KILLER ME
NOT SUICIDAL
I JUST MISS ME

Having
Everything bottled up inside
And
Remembering
The times it couldn't take anymore

We risk our hearts to love
And to love again,
Some are scared
But they risk it anyways
Hoping there will
Be something beautiful
In the end

People will be:
scarred
broken
sensitive
depressed
hurt
in pain

And still want to
Love again


Because the Spark
Is no longer there

Trying to create
Something more than a Spark
Something more memorable
Than the last
   *                   *                   *
I want something that Sparks
And never loses its fire,
Never dulls
But becomes more  Vast

Within the days that pass
Knowing I've found You

Things will get better
I whispered to myself

& I still wait
Until
That day it will

But you see
You are missing everything
That passes you by
Because you won't stop
Thinking about that day
You wish would come

you keep thinking & thinking
About life getting better & wanting more

That you forget to
Look at the things you have already
& you have to remind yourself
Things are the best it could be
At the moment
Because there are those
Who have it worse

And the things you wait for
May not come
But you will receive other
Things that not everyone has

Things that you didn't wish for

Things that get you through
Without you realizing it

**& that's what everyone seems To forget

Even when bad things occur
We always forget about
The good things we still have.

Say something
Because the Silence
Is roaring with the Echoes,
Your Presence
Makes my heart weak & heavy
I can hardly breathe
Your scent,
Burns my eyes & they start to tear
As of the rain on my window
After a beautiful shower
Your lips,
I wish I felt
The Bittersweet taste
That stays in my mouth
Every time I see you

And I'm sorry
But I can't wait any longer
My Love would never be enough
Let me know what will

the warmth of your lips touch upon mine
Reasons why I always went for more
maybe if I sip this I can let go of every memory of you
I should have known you weren't any good

Have you ever thought
Our
Memories would be held here
Everytime I think about it, I can't help but cry

sometimes you have to be vulnerable
and embrace everything
in order to live again
||

**Don't ever think your weak

Listen
I 've heard
E nough
S o please, say nothing

They come & go
Just Like People

Tears rush down one by one blinding me;
Every one of them
Are different
Reasons why they
Slither

☽

The dark blue opened sky
Just the way I pictured to see it
And You being with me
Made everything complete
Because you were next to me
And I got to tell you right then,
Looking up trying to find
Hidden gold stars *☆ ,
I spotted a few with you
☆ As we walked to the park at night ☆

The November weather is here
Making our hands cold
As we sat on a single bench
Under a big tree
Which gave us shade
Looking at all the leaves on the ground
Makes me smile for some reason
There's just so much of them

As you were getting closer to me
I saw a yellow leaf between Us,
And I put it under my wallet
So the wind won't
Sneak up and take it,
The leaf was the only thing
Keeping us apart
An unfinished puzzle piece
It was,  &
When we finally connected
It felt complete
I love being close to You

Kissing you with the music
You play
Is a good different &
Kissing you three minutes plus
Is always a nice feeling
It turned me on
When you ****** on my tongue
while my tongue was folded,
Every time I ****** on your tongue
It felt like I was taking a part of you

Our random talks
Makes me see life in a different way
Its interesting how people think
I find it very different

I love that I'm open with You
You hardly find people
You can be open to
Which *****
But I'm thankful
I have you to be open to

I look forward to more of our talks
I look forward to learn great things about You
I look forward to laughing with You

In between,
Thank you for being You,
With me,

Cooper :

     **♥

I'm  obsessed  with the  canvas
We created
Above us  two

&
I'm always searching for  You
When I'm looking up into the sky

So
Much joy
It brings
Let it show;
Eventually someone will fall in love with it

Sometimes when our minds
Is too sour
We need something*  **sweet

Why is my presence needed
When my mind is
Elsewhere?

I tried to hold everything together
And seconds later, the tears seem
To fall down

And I am under
drowning

The pieces of my heart
Is scattered

And trying to
Find the pieces
Is like trying to count
The stars in the sky at night
With tears rolling down

Things came apart
But
When it came back together
Not every piece
Was put back in its place

Gonna go on a drive with you,
I don't know where
But let's go some where
far away from here,
Setting our eyes on seas we've never seen,
Setting our minds to travel the unseen,
Let's take a journey, you and I,
Traveling trails of a mountain
That lead us into the sky, and
When we find our way back down
We can sit in the sands of the sea
Watching the waves move up shore
Kissing our toes, and when night falls,
I'll remind you how much I love
The stars and the moon
While we are looking up at the sky,
I'll hold you, watching you
Fall asleep in my arms,
Realizing, --that every moment
I've spent with you on our
Journey has made me
Love all of what we do
Together--  *as a whole

Perfecting the pictures of us
Remembering the times we had spent together
Overly thinking about the pain I've once felt
So many memories held in one single photo and I can't
Even think about putting it away

He knew what she's been through
& he did the things
He said He wouldn't

                                          Even when he
                                                            ­                 Promised
                                                      ­                                                 **Not to

☾  I am the moon  ◯
And you’re the sun    ☀
You always have a way of
Filling my days & my nights
With light
I feel so warm when were together
Whenever were close to each other we create
A beautiful sunset with
Our thoughts that we share together
                                                                                                  
☀   You light the sky during it's darkest hour                         ☄
You have stars that twinkle and shoot across the sky
We look up to find shapes in the clouds and stars that align
Looking at you with that pretty face
I feel good knowing I can kiss you at anytime

☾  Every time I see something beautiful
That the sky holds
I want to share it with you

The night comes with so many things
We yet have to discover
The sky is the canvas

The:     ☁                   ✮               ✈            ☁        ✮                    ☁
   ✈                ✮                     ☁         ✮                        ☁         ✈          ✮
                            ◯
Stars –shining up above in space–
Clouds –moving over our heads–
Airplanes –flying above us–
And the moon –seeming so close we can touch it–
It's within everything you picture it to be
Creating our own sky
Creating our own canvas
Making two skies,   –One–
Blending them together
Making a beautiful picture
So breathtaking
Silence starts to play a part
We let our minds wander

And I'm Staring at you
Until our eyes  finally  meet
That’s when you would smile
When you catch me looking at you
And I would just smile back
Me being next to you
Wanting to kiss you within the next
Seconds
I get so bubbly inside
And I can't help it

I love your presence
You Amaze me
**♥

A person can be  insane
And love you to bits

A person can (also) be  sane
And not love you at all

Everything
Just
Started
To
Fade
&
I wish I could have
**Darken Us

As broken as I am
Turning every situation left
As if love has left
And I’m trying to love yet
My heart is Harden
The possibilities of it being played with is endless
My mind says
So delicate my heart
Be gentle with my heart
I ask of you to kiss my mind
With your eyes and let your lips
Sync to the melodic getaways
Let it play out
Until the seasons repeat
Let it play out
Until forever more
That I want to give it to you
but I’m sensitive to every situation
Dealt with it all in the past
Not wanting to come across another project
Trying to piece my heart together
Simultaneously finding myself
Wondering
Why I could never get anything right
Look at the waves how wild they can become
Yet so soft sometimes
Underneath lies a larges amount of nothing more
But it depends how you look at it
There is free Hillary written all over my canvas
The pen ran dry
The words remain the same with vivid details
Safe me
Reflected on her eyes
My own eyes
Your voice calms the wild
Throughout the storms
So soft spoken you are
So driven with your art
So multi talented *** you
I’ll let you tell it
Synced in with the melodic getaways
The energy so fire yet water nor anything can put it out

I look straight into the sky
And I think about You
Knowing your looking
Right back at me
Or making myself
Believe that you are
You know the little things
We convince ourselves
So we can get through
The day and night
We both share the same sky
We both shared so much
You adore me
I adore you
And even if things
Shift left and right
Just know that the sky is up;
Look up Joe
Because I'm staring
Thinking you'll be doing the same

Sometimes when I'm looking for something
I don't know what I'm really looking for
But when I'm done looking
I end up with something
That either brings a tear or a smile.

Sometimes the  Silence  can
******

Plenty of memories
And
Someday I will learn
To let go

She writes down:
Her thoughts
Her Memories
Her Experiences

Sips on some strong alcohol
Because it makes her forget
*Every negative moment she encountered
And there comes a point where
She starts thinking about her life

Waking up next to empty bottles
With more regrets
So she grabs another one
To start her day

The frequency rains to such tone
That only grasp meaning
Of the heartfelt person you are
So deep beyond measures
Where words piece themselves naturally
And I look at your pieces
And my pieces
And think to myself
There are so many pieces
Pieced together in such ways
Peace is longing for
Wishing I could make all the hurt go away
Wishing the times you felt alone
I could hold you until you become
A flower

I'll never forget how beautiful you are
Every time I don’t see you
I think about every detail of you
Starting from the inside

Darkness was all there was
Darkness was all I seen

Give me light
So I can be on
My way

Just a little light
Just a little light
**Can help

If you ever thought you made me smile
You did
If you ever thought you made me laugh
You did
If you ever thought you made me feel good
You did

If you would've just think a few more seconds


Have you ever thought if you made me
Sad, cry, depressed
Because you also did

& you'll never know
**Because you never cared to ask

She grew into the most Beautiful
And she couldn’t be found//