As broken as I am Turning every situation left As if love has left And I’m trying to love yet My heart is Harden The possibilities of it being played with is endless My mind says So delicate my heart Be gentle with my heart I ask of you to kiss my mind With your eyes and let your lips Sync to the melodic getaways Let it play out Until the seasons repeat Let it play out Until forever more That I want to give it to you but I’m sensitive to every situation Dealt with it all in the past Not wanting to come across another project Trying to piece my heart together Simultaneously finding myself Wondering Why I could never get anything right Look at the waves how wild they can become Yet so soft sometimes Underneath lies a larges amount of nothing more But it depends how you look at it There is free Hillary written all over my canvas The pen ran dry The words remain the same with vivid details Safe me Reflected on her eyes My own eyes Your voice calms the wild Throughout the storms So soft spoken you are So driven with your art So multi talented *** you I’ll let you tell it Synced in with the melodic getaways The energy so fire yet water nor anything can put it out
IF THIS MY GOODBYE SO BE IT IF YOU FIND THIS JUST KNOW I LOVE YOU WHOLEHEARTEDLY MY DECISION MY LIFE YOU COULDN'T STOP SHEIT IF YOU TRIED PROBABLY WOULD HAVE MADE ME STAY ANOTHER DAY AND MAYBE ANOTHER DAY AFTER THAT BUT EVENTUALLY YOU WOULD HAVE GREW TIRED AND EVENTUALLY I WOULD HAVE TOO I NEED YOU MORE THAN EVER BEFORE LOOKING FOR FLOWERS TO BLOOM IN PLACES THAT NEEDED FIXING OR I THOUGHT NEEDED FIXING FOR THAT MATTER
I HATE IT HERE SOMETIMES THIS PLACE IS NO PLACE FOR ME BECAME SENSITIVE TO EVERY TOPIC BECAME SCHIZ EVEN WAITING FOR YOU TO COME HOME
HOME BECAME FURTHER THEN I THOUGHT I JUST KEPT SPIRALING SENSITIVE BECAUSE SHEIT GOT REAL AND TEARS STARTED FLOWING EVER SINCE THAT CALL CAME I BECAME DISTANT THAT OUTER BODY EXPERIENCE WAITING FOR YOU TO GET BACK FELT LIKE I ENTERED ANOTHER DIMENSION LOST TRYING TO GET BACK EVERY TIME I HELD YOU I FELT THIS DISCONNECT WITH BEING PRESENT I CRIED THE LOUDEST YET NO ONE HEARD ME EVERYDAY FELT MIXY I TRUSTED YOU GOT ME KILLED **** YOU GOT ME I HOPE YOU FEEL ACCOMPLISHED WHY ME OVERPLAYED LIKE AN UNRELEASED BEAT YOU HAD NOTHING TO LOSE I FELT PLANTED IT WAS **** ME WHEN IT RAIN OUTTA STATE OUTTA MIND FEELING BODIED DRIVING THE BOAT PRAYING IT DON'T SINK PRAYING THIS RAIN DON'T LAST FOREVER HOW IT SUNNY OUTSIDE AND ALL I FEEL IS RAIN DRIVING THE BOAT YET IN OUTER SPACE MIND SPEEDING IF ONLY I SMOKE THAT THERE WOULD BE A LOT OF SMOKE IN THE AIR IF I LEAVE NOW THERE AIN'T NO COMING BACK
WEIGHING EVERYTHING BECAME TIRESOME I BLAMED MYSELF FOR EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT TOOK A HOLD ON THAT SINGLE THOUGHT I THOUGHT FOR SO LONG AFTER THAT
DISCONNECTED TO RECONNECT DISCONNECT TO FEEL RECONNECTED YET YOU STILL LINGERED IN MY MIND I AM LIVID FOR SPEEDING MAYBE IF I SLOWED DOWN YOU WOULD HAVE MISSED ME
WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I WANT PEOPLE TO SEE ME LIKE THIS WHEN I FEEL LIKE I'M AT MY LOWEST TOO WEAK TO WANTING TO GET UP SOMETIMES I RATHER JUST STAY HERE FAKING THAT SMILE KNOWING THAT SHEIT WEIGHING ON ME
FELL TOO MANY TIMES TRYING TO GET YOU TO COMPREHEND ME IT BECAME TIRESOME I MISS YOU LIKE VACATION THIS THAT YOU NEED STOMACH FOR THIS THAT YOU READY HOLD ON TRYING TO HOLD ON MYSELF
TO FAST FORWARD I FINALLY MADE IT HOME BEEN GONE FOR SO LONG HOME FEELS FOREIGN HOME DON'T FEEL LIKE IT DID BEFORE SO I'M ALWAYS OUTSIDE TRYING TO STAY OUT MY CONSCIOUS
SMOKE THAT DRILL THIS THIS CONSTANT FEELING OF NOTHING CHANGING HOME SUPPOSE TO FEEL WARM HOME SUPPOSE TO FEEL SAFE WHERE HOME AT WHEN YOU ALWAYS IN OUTER SPACE
NOT SUICIDAL THIS AIN'T NO SUICIDAL NOTE NOT SUICIDAL JUST CURIOUS ON THE KILLER ME NOT SUICIDAL I JUST MISS ME
NOT SURE IF I WANT TO RUN FAST SOMETIMES I FIND MYSELF LOOKING BACK IN THE PAST BUT I CAN’T STAY HERE ANY LONGER THIS PLACE IS NO PLACE FOR ME I SWEAR I’M BUILT DIFFERENT I SWEAR I’M NOT LIKE THESE OTHER ******* NO CLOTH HERE BUT YOU FEEL THE TENSION THIS THAT SHEIT THAT GET YOU TO THE FIFTH DIMENSION ITS THAT GET YOUR MIND RIGHT THIS THAT HAVE YOUR MIND TRIPPIN FOREVER MISSING THIS THAT GET YOU HIGH FEELING REALLY LIFTED THIS THAT FEELING EVERYTHING ALL AT ONCE TYPE FEELING I COULD TELL BY YOUR EYES YOU NEED HEALING I COULD TELL BY YOUR MIND EVERYTHING FOR YOU IS MISLEADING TRYING TO PIECE PIECES ON TOP OF PIECES WHILE MIND SPEEDING MIND ALWAYS RACING ONE THING TO KEEP IN MIND IS TO ALWAYS HAVE PATIENCE YOU COULDN’T GAIN WASTED TIME IF YOU WANTED TO THERE’S JUST CERTAIN SHEIT WE GOT TO GO THROUGH FOR THE BETTER VIEW THE BETTER ANGLE WHERE YOUR MIND AT ITS NOTHING YOU CAN’T HANDLE THIS THAT WE MAKE THE BEST FROM WHAT WE GOT IT MIGHT NOT BE A LOT TO YOU BUT I’M HIGHLY THANKFUL THIS THAT HOLD ON THIS THAT AND THE THIRD WE REALLY DIFFERENT NOT SURE IF YOU COULD TELL THE DIFFERENCE HOW COULD YOU BE LIVING IF YOU NOT RIGHT WITH YOURSELF TIME TO GET RIGHT WITH YOURSELF TIME TO LET GO OF ANYTHING THAT IS HOLDING YOU BACK MIND GOING THROUGH BRUTAL ATTACKS HOLD ON THIS THAT NATURAL SHEIT THIS THAT YOU WATER ME I WATER YOU TYPE SHEIT THIS THAT WE AIN’T DONE YET THIS THAT WE FORGIVE BUT NEVER FORGET **** ITS THAT HARD **** WE GOT TO GO THAT HARD WE ON A MISSION I SEE THE POTENTIAL I SEE AMBITION SCULPTING MYSELF ONLY TIME WILL TELL THIS IS THE BEGINNING LET THAT SINK IN I SWEAR EVERYDAY IS SOMETHING DIFFERENT THERE’S NO PLACE HERE FOR IGNORANCE SOME GRASP SO MUCH YET NOTHING SOME COULD BE SO DISGUSTING CHOOSE WISELY LET THEM TALK SPICY DON’T LET THEM GET TO YOU THIS THAT INNER PEACE ALWAYS LEAVE WITH SOMETHING THEY NOT USED TO FOCUS YOUR ENERGY ON WHAT MATTERS NO DEGREE BUT THEY GOT THEIR MASTERS SHEIT ALL SEE THROUGH NOTHING NEW THEY WITH YOU WHEN YOU UP NEVER SEEN SO MUCH MAKEUP THIS THAT SAME RACE LEARN TO HAVE PATIENCE SOMETIMES IT MAY CAUSE FRUSTRATION FEEL LIKE YOUR TIME STAY WASTING ITS THAT FOCUS ON THE DESTINATION GO YOUR OWN SPEED GO YOUR OWN PACE THIS THAT SAME RACE DON’T BE IMPATIENT THIS THAT CHOOSING ME FIRST THIS TIME THIS TIME ROUND WE DIGGING DEEP STARTING FROM THE UNDERGROUND ITS THAT WE TAKING OUR TIME THIS THAT YOU FIND YOURSELF THIS THAT GREAT FEELING ITS THAT ZEN
I NO LONGER STRESS ANYTHING MY HAPPINESS AND PEACE OF MIND OVER EVERYTHING NOTHING LIKE A WILD LIFE NO RARA JUST PEACE LET GO RELEASE LET GO AND SEEK ALL THINGS EVEN WHEN YOUR MIND IS WEAK THIS IS A FOREVER THING YOU GOING TO FEEL EVERYTHING THIS IS A PROCESS OF SELF HEALING CONNECT WITH YOUR INNER FEELINGS REFLECT ON IT EVERY BIT EVERY OUNCE ALL OF IT COUNTS EVEN WHEN YOU DON'T THINK IT DON'T YOU GOT TO BE REAL WITH YOURSELF LET IT BE WELL KNOWN YOU HAVE TO WANT IT FOR YOURSELF FIRST SHEIT COULD BE A LOT WORSE DON'T LET YOUR MIND CONFINE YOU DON'T LET THAT SHEIT EAT YOU
Feel my heart beat skips beats Touch my mind gently ******* words I choose wisely See my tears as they slither slow yet run quick Hear them hit hard like missiles
If I would to tell you a secret would you keep it I choose my words as if my life depended on it
You ain’t invited but you making all the rules Had me fooled Save your sorries I know you ain’t sorry You know the saying: Different day same story Same old story Telling me all these lies
Waiting till I don’t know why I’m waiting still Butterflies in my stomach The not knowing There ain’t no love here Stop seeking Stop wanting There to be something that has no growth for you Child Let me tell you something What dies doesn’t grow You can’t water a dead plant Let me hold you Let me hold you tight I know your heart feels heavy now I know you understand but as you look at this In the present but this is your past now Understand I know this wasn’t easy It never is Take your time Feel how you feel Don’t numb the pain Express your pain Let it out Let it all out Everyone experiences pain In there own shape pain
“Everyone’s experiencing pain Experiencing pain In there own shape pain In there own shape pain”
Let me wipe your tears Baby girl I know your heart feels heavy I know you can’t mask the thought I know it hurt I know you hurt I know you scared
“I know you sacred baby girl I know your heart feels heavy Oh It feels so heavy Heavy
Leaving me with so much on my mind I can't believe I roared the loudest in silent times and as time goes On I realized I would have Never been strong without loving myself first
The frequency rains to such tone That only grasp meaning Of the heartfelt person you are So deep beyond measures Where words piece themselves naturally And I look at your pieces And my pieces And think to myself There are so many pieces Pieced together in such ways Peace is longing for Wishing I could make all the hurt go away Wishing the times you felt alone I could hold you until you become A flower
I'll never forget how beautiful you are Every time I don’t see you I think about every detail of you Starting from the inside
IF YOU HAD A SIGN A TOKEN THAT CHANGED YOUR LIFE WOULD YOU TAKE THE CHANCE WOULD YOU LET IT CHANGE YOUR LIFE WHAT IF I TOLD YOU MY TOKEN WAS MY VOICE WOULD YOU TAKE THE CHANCE AND LISTEN IF YOU HAD A CHOICE THIS THAT HIGH FEELING REALLY LIFTED THIS THAT GREAT FEELING THIS THAT VISION THIS THAT WE SPEAK SHEIT INTO EXISTENCE SOME CAN'T STAND THE HEAT SO THEY DISTANCE NO PETTINESS HERE THAT AIN'T NOTHING NICE YOU NEVER KNOW IF YOU'LL SEE THEM TWICE THINKING YOU'LL SEE THEM TWICE WHY WOULD YOU MATCH NEGATIVE ENERGY WHY WOULD YOU EVEN WASTE YOUR TIME GROWTH IS ESSENTIAL I SEE THE POTENTIAL KEEP GOING NEVER STOP YOU DESTINED YOU BOUND PICTURE YOURSELF AT THE TOP BLESSINGS ON TOP OF MORE BLESSINGS CAREFUL WHO YOU KEEP AROUND
My thoughts so loud yet so silent Be the light not the light switch Control your thoughts don’t let it eat you Baby girl you are so strong so beautiful Your eyes let them see good Although your going to see things that are going to surprise/ shock Don’t let that shape how you view others Not everyone shares the same motive Your ears let them hear greatness Control the sound. Mute everything Anything negative that distorts you in ways you feel bothered For your mouth speak great power Let your voice vibrate Let your words disturb minds Let it shake the room until the walls come tumbling down Speak Volume Your voice speaks value only speak TRUTH
NATURALLY EXPRESSING YOUR FULL ESSENCE WITH THE ABILITY TO OPEN UP TO YOU, HAVING THE KEY FOR YOU TO SHOW ME ALL OF YOU, I WANT TO SEE, FEEL, HEAR, TASTE, EVERYTHING; YOU HOLD THAT DIAMOND PIECE THAT GEM NEVER HAD I EVER SEEN SUCH A BEAUTIFUL SOUL
Delicate flower you I love the way you dance & sway to the wind I love how you do your own thing And when it rains I love how your petals look afterwards Look How pretty your curls How vibrant you are Your golden skin I want to kiss all over your favorite parts Every bit of You is my favorite part
There's too much to say In a short amount of time And she loses her words And too much to say Ends up too few Because she gets nervous And the butterfly wings Are fragile And her heart Feels so too
BEAUTIFUL LIES WERE YOUR TRUTH EVENTUALLY I GREW TIRED OF ALL OF THE REASONS YOU GAVE AND FOCUSED ON MYSELF BECAUSE YOU ONLY CARED ABOUT YOURSELF LOYALTY FIRST LOVE, ALWAYS