I stood
Mouth
Wide open
What a fool
That I am
I tried
In a stupid way
To help
But
I yes I
was stupid
I didn't
Think
That I
Had no right

I stood
Where?
I stood
Where he had stood
Some moments before
I savoured his manhood
I let it wildly engulf me
I let my mind explode
With just gone passion
My hands clasped together
Kissing his muscular air
It will be soon again
I'll be swept off my feet
I know I'm impatient
For this splendor called love.

Whoever you are
Whatever you are
Wherever you are

Is there any sense
In anything we do
Isn't it so stupid
Anything at all

Please please tell me
I know nothing
Nothing at all
Why is it so ?

People do die
Many many shots
Fired through heads
Is there any reason
For these barbaric things

Is there any just cause
For bombing towns
Is it for a self ego build
Or to pass away the time

Please please tell me
I know nothing
Nothing at all
Why is it so ?.

Learn to love
Learn by doing
It's so good
Learning by doing

Learn to hold
Learn by doing
It's so nice
Learning by doing

Learn to kiss
Learn by doing
It's so sweet
Learning by doing.

Rope did pull
Bell did toll
Sound stood still
Where is sound
Tis high above
Tis lowly down
Tis not here
In deaths ear
Coffin did slide
Flames did engulf
Not one heard
My deep sob
It tried, but
Did not escape
From fiery lips
Turned into ash
To be thrown
On stormy seas
To worldly sail
For my evermore

First was my eldest sister
Of what , I knew not
She cried and cried
I could do nothing
No , nothing at all
And I didn't know
My elder brother
He cried a lot too
What's happening
Stepfather calls
They both enter
The bedroom
Then it's mine
Yes my turn
He was bare
He made me
The very same
No , please no
It really hurt
And I cried
And cried
What have
I done
So bad
So bad
For this
This pain
Two years
Next brother
Two years
Next sister
Two years
next brother
Two years
Next sister
Yes , we all
Witnessed
Every time
Mother !
Always at work
Nights
And I
Yes I
Did nothing
NOTHING
I did nothing
To stop it
Next
My children
Oh yes
My children
I hate
My children
I see them
In my guilt
Of doing
NOTHING
Hurts hurts
Loo problems
I said
Husband did it
But
He did not
He didn't even know
I told his mother
I told the doctor
He did it
They both said leave him
So in my mind
His fault
Get rid , get rid
He knew nothing
But he had pain
I made sure of that
Because
Looking at him
Made me feel
GUILTY
When
My stepfather died
I cried and cried
Why oh why did I cry
Though not with joy
I still wonder why
He made me rely upon him
He scared the hell out of me
His whisky made him worse
I even bought him presents
Trying to curry favour
Why, why, why , why
I don't know how
He's put
Something
Very strange
In my mind.

Your rhythm
Has no blues
Your pie
Is in the sky
Your dreams
Have no pipe
Your bridges
Are not crossed
You look
After you leap
Your stitch
Is out of time
Your iron
Is never hot
You are all of these
But baby
I like your style.

Apparentely
After a high powered bullet
Has entered your brain
You'll feel the pain
For the rest of your life

Trees centralize scenes
Rivers flow over pebbles
Ever bright the sky
Even sharpen my blue eyes
Sight to be held close to heart
....
Water is hidden
Autumnal sense of being
Trees magical colour
Eternal life abounds here
Ready to be heartfelt now
....
Winds about to blow
Ice and snow follow quite soon
Never without gloom
Deciduous leaves sish sashing
Soon enough for sights delight.

Can you remember
When we were lovers
Not so long ago
Holding hands
Whenever we could
Never wanting
To let go

Can you remember
How strong our love was
Not so long ago
Loving looks
Sharing delight
In everything
We did

Can you remember
Where our love went
Not so long ago
Finding fault
Where none did lie
Not caring
For what we had

Can you remember.

Feet slosh in watery boots
Squelch is my sad music
Stink is what I'm made of
And others by my side
Fear is my companion
So through and through
Every day and every night
Every shell my night mare
Some friends are no more
As I'm here before sunrise
Awaiting the dread whistle
Rifle clutched in shaky hands
I think of my sweetheart Mary
To whom I shall be wedded
Of my brothers and sisters
Father and dear old mam
All too soon , I'll be over the top
Throwing fear to another place
Anytime now we'll be on our way
I hope I'll let no one down.

I lie side by side
With myself
Wondering
Where I am
Did I have to leave her
To free me from her lies
I could have stayed awhile
Enjoying her womanly charms
Lived with her wantonly ways
Trod on day by day
But
Had some place in life
No matter all the strife
But
No I could not
Face
One more miserable day
So here I am alone
Wondering where I am
Lying side by side
With myself

Sleeping in dark corners
Away from scary light
Holds me in control zone
In the middle of the night

I'll never find the answer
In my twisted sea of hate
I've burnt all my books
No more pages to turn

Pebbles are lizards
And trees are snakes
I can see now
What it takes

I'm hiding from myself
Don't where to look
No net to save
Acrobats do your worst

I'm a prisoner of my mind
Trapped inside my maize
Can only see my cells
Floating all around

Kick it up and up
Open my shut down door
Break it down and out
Let me see what's right

It won't destroy my truth
It'll make my light bright
Show this side of the moon
I want to be all but me

Thanks for cows over the moon
And lips that might see
A little sugar in my drink
And great gulps of life

Yes I can see now
What's in my brain
I've been too long
Juggling with my pain.

I feel emotion
Of what?
I know not
Deep so deep

A deep sob
From ?
Very low

My eyes awash
With these tears
I don't know why
I feel this way
It's so strong
This sorrow

I'm
crying now
So bad do I feel
What is it ?

Maybe we all
Have this unknown
I don't know why
A great pain

There's no reason
No reason at all
But it's got me
Helpless in its grip.

She doesn't shower
Nor take a bath
Neither does he
She doesn't look
At her nakedness
In her mirror
Neither does he
She does not
Spend hours
Applying make-up
Neither does he
What they do, do
Is get on with it
Just like all flies do.

No matter that birds do fly
That whirl and soar in the sky
No matter that the sea has tide
That rises and falls as on a ride
No matter that storms do so rage
Turning calm to havoc like a page
No matter that animals do so roam
They that do it have no home
No matter that bees go for pollen
To make honey to be reaped by men
All I want is peace in my soul
That's what I really want for me.

Did you
Have to do this
Did you
Have to do that
Did you
Think of my hurt
Did you
Think of us
Of us
Did you
Think I'm strong
Did you
Think I don't cry
Did you
Did you
Yes I cry
I cry
I cry
Yes I cry.

Could you dream
Your way into my life
Could you
Climb into my awaiting heart
Could you live
With trembling moments
Could you try
To calm me down
Could you go
To almost any length
Could you take
My rough and smooth
Could you give
When I don't deserve
Could you feel
My great intent
Could you cope
With my ups and downs
Could you read
My great many poems
If you could
I would be yours.

Those tears in your eyes
Showing , deep sorrow
Glistening with pain
Trickling down your face
Dripping off your chin

Your great shudder
Every now and then
Quivering of your lips
Eyes rolling in anguish
Not wanting to see

Your need for comfort
So very plain to view
There's nothing I can do
Because
You are my reflection.

Some more
Some more
Come to me
I want to see
I want to feel
I want to smell
What it is
You have for me
==========
I can't see
What is there
It's out of sight
I know it's there
But I can't see
A little bit more
Is all I ask=
==========
Come on
Come on
I'll let you in
I want to know
What you have
Closer closer
Now you come
Come into my door
==========
I want to see
What you have
It's not mine at all
Keep it close
To yourself
Never let it part
Save it , save it
Keep it by your side.

His foot slippedon the skin
A banana one of course
His arms flew out for balance
He thought wryly to himself
I'll never catch them now
For I have now , no arms
His fall carried on
Right down to the floor
'Oh' ,he said
'I'm such a beastly bore '
He threw his voice high and loud
And , immediately regretted it
Now he couldn't shout for help
No arms nor hands did he have
No means of communication
'Oh dear' he thought
For as you know
He cannot utter a word
His answer leapt to his mind
'I'll wake myself up
For this is just a dream'
But , he couldn't do it
He couldn't shake himself
He had no arms you see
So he had to sleep forever
For all eternity.

You hold me
A man
You hold me
Like a baby
You hold me
I love it
You bring
Tears to my eyes
You hold me
Like no other
You make me
So safe
Deep inside

You're so small
I'm so big
Yet
You hold me
So very tight
As In
A cocoon
Like a baby
Who needs love
And
Gets it.

Do you know
Do you
Know
What you've done to me
Do you
Do you know
What it's like inside
It's
Tormented hell
Memories destroyed
Lifeline gone
No cruising ground
Hanging on
Just finger tips
Where do I go
When so afraid
Hiding
Yes hiding
Myself away
Scared
Yes
Scared to love again.

Your eyes
Look into mine
My eyes
Look into yours
We lay
Side by side
No words
Just looking
Into
Each others eyes
Spellbound
By
Each others eyes
We express
Our love
With
Our eyes.

Back into our first love
Is where I want to be
Your smile in my eyes
My smile shining back
Our hearts are as one

My tingling lips await
For yours upon mine
Making my heart flow
With a love so strong
That I will surely burst
Oh my love , my love

It will not be so long
For our arms to entwine
Caress, oh sweet caress
Will be ours to share
Every hour of our day
Back into our first love.

It's not you I mourn
But the loss of your desire
You used to hold my eyes with yours
Then you had to forgo your love
Of which , I foolishly tried to regain
A love that you had cast aside
I realize now to recaptivate your heart
Was not a wild dream , but a futile one
I looked for every cause, that it could be
I  tried to blame it on evil tongues
But now , I thankfully know, that you
Yes you, Could not bear to hurt me more
By saying to me,
'You no longer belong to my heart'

No I'm not
I'm not not not
I'm not finished
I've just started
I'm going to go
From strength
To strength
And more
I insist
The world
Must
Must hear
Must read
Must know
Of my work
It must

I cannot
Let go
I must
Fight
I must
Suffer
I must
Struggle
I must
Despair
Then rise
Rise
Above it
The poverty
The jeers
The OH yessirs
I will
Do it
Yes
I will
I'm crying
But
Not crushed

Of what I dream
You know full well
Of what you dream
I haven't a clue

Of what I am
Is something clear
Of what you are
Is something out there

Of what I sense
Is something so good
Of what you sense
Is well away from me

Of whom I love
Is someone like you
Of whom you love
Tis not me

Dreaming is a waste
Beats me right down
Dreaming is a waste
Of my broken heart.

I think that I
Should not
Write poems
That
Upset people

Here she is
A picture
Of innocence
Is she
As she seems
Or is there
Something else
Lurking underneath
I'll never know
Because
I don't know her well
But
It's nice
To have this mystery.

Are her troubles
So deep
Are her worries
Necessary
Her surface
Is so peaceful
Her smile
Ever ready
But
Deep down
Is inner strife
I hope
It will go away.

They are waiting
Patiently waiting
Waited this long
Can wait some more
They know this world
Will remain in upheaval
For many a century
Or more
They know that mankind
Will self destruct
When it will be
They don't care
They are patient
They are waiting.

Love may go
Love may stay
Do we lose
Do we win
Do we care
Do we grin
What we do
what we don't
Be it good
or
Be it bad
Love was here
Love has gone

That I should not write anymore
Or do you think that it doesn't matter?

You play your guitar
And sing
I listen
And sometimes
Sing
Your fingers work
Selective
Of chords
Your voice
Full of rejoice
People
Enjoy your songs
Like me
And not
Because I love you
But because
You're good
Anyway
I love you.

Who is the colder of us now
You who were my love so deep
Or me who does not wish to speak
Are we equal in our thoughts
Do we hate one minute
And love the very next

Who was the first with evil tongue
Trying to smite with great spite
Opening wounds of long past gone
Was it me or was it you
Not so long ago ,we spoke kind words
And in a twinkle at crossed swords

Do we love or do we hate
Are they so close these extremities
This dangerous treacherous knifes edge
Why do we want to hold so tight
The very next moment ,off in the night
I know for sure , I'll never know
Why it is ,This terrible twist of love.