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Man I hate nights like this when i can’t sleep , got me thinking about my childhood days wishing that I can do a repeat ,if i could just go back in time with the same mind set i could be so much better then i am in 2018 ,cherish the youth you once had cause when your grown you realize that being a child wasn’t so bad , in the 25 years of my days i shouldn’t feel so much regret hoping to just delete all the pain and stupid choices that cause me to weep, sit back and relax cause there’s some things that i can teach the younger me , quick to listen and slow to speak , when you step in these streets always check your surroundings, keep them eyes and hears open never them legs so just stay focused on the goals that you want to make so that older you in 2018 would be proud of you for eternity, make yourself become a legacy so the little you that you breed will say yeah you made a better you for me

As I sit back an think about all the time that i have invested in this possible relationship, It makes me wonder why i didn’t just didn’t sink the ship when you hit my line with that hey I miss you sht, man i hate having that weak feeling had my mind all clouded with all that we are as one stupid sht , i love you bae lying all out your fat neck wasting my time so your time will feel quick as sht , 3..2..1 it’s exit time for me to play this simple bih no call backs no more face timing this trick oh wait i need my dck wet let me speed dial this bih hey  I miss you bae can i get that pu*y real wet real quick switch lanes playing mind games let me inform you i am the wrong bih to play these games i don’t won’t you to chose me cause i been in my own lane laughing and secure my bag while you set tripping in a hood that going to set you in a grave and the homies stepping on your grave cause they don’t even know your real name should not have tried to rekindle that old flame if you knew you were playing ya games, I sit back an think about all the time that I have invested in this possible relationship, it makes me wonder why i didnt step back and think twice before i believe in your sht, with in due time the truth will open your eyes and you will realize that you are not the man that you claimed to be and that’s  on the set ,think your real clever playing in the streets and in between them  sheets but be careful because one day them streets gone have you covered in some white sheets , moms on the sideline screaming why me? Same question asked when you decided to play me, after all of this you’ve enlighten me my next moves will be like Houdini a mystery, and soon thoughts of you will be history

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I set myself up when i think about what could’ve been or what it should’ve been, told myself a million times to not think about it and let it happen when it happens , you see it’s hard to follow through with that when your use to having what you want at the end but sometimes what you want isn’t want you need and what you need isn’t what you want so please help me feed the mind and let me know how to ease the need and desire to want what you can’t have , it’s the urge inside of me that needs to feed on what i seek and if i don’t get it i sit back and weep in the mist of defeat . So why should i retreat when my feet leads me to the feeding that i crave for but should not deep down desire for, what am i searching for