romance films,
one too many.
way too caught up in the love stories;
no happy endings
cause they never really end.
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some say love lives on
beyond this physical reality.
to find a love that surpasses,
so immortal.
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insidiously complicated
yet i would give my last breath
to partake in just a moment
with a love that continues...
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on & on & on
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maybe love has really left planet earth.

of course,
my obsession would leave me uneasy & upset
at the fact that you're not as crazy about me
as i you...
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its just ive never had reciprocity,
no mutual effort,
not even a hint at attempt.
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so when you find them aesthetically pleasing;
you lust,
you lurk,
you love
& they excite you.
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you used me to gain steadiness
then shook my hand as if i possess nothing more,
as if feeding into me was some sort of taboo.
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if you ask me where i've been
i can tell you where i've been...
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to the moon
& back.
to the moon,
i'm back
& forth.
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after-dark you can find me
with a spirit squad behind me,
a force to guide me,
a light inside me.

there lies much power in the written word,
i wish not to inflict harm...
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but if you dare test
my humanly conditioned
state of existence;
i may write you off
then dispose of your corpse
down below to the land of the dead
amongst the ones who are
mislead,
into the state in which you feared...
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please never drive me to that point of no return.

doors opened to the tenth dimension,
the god in me knows
i've earned it...
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obstacles throw themselves at me,
testing my patience
& im learning
to trust the timing...

as i watch generations
continuously fall into toxic cycles,
gain hope
& lose sense of what they know.
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i stand behind
as magic curates in my veins
& in my wombs
lie everything i'd need to recreate.
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if they would listen,
they would see that all we need
exists already.

i am mother...
most flaw-full,
awe-filled,
still loving like no other.
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its scary how
no one knows the bond.
i do treasure the experience;
i gave my life to
the one i gave life to.