i think myself into new dimensions,
i'd take you with me if you weren't afraid to die...
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as i wander in search of mystery,
its just this world is such a bore.
i know there's more,
i still explore
&
i still am the best company.

you would call just to hear me say nothing at all,
i would listen to you spill drunk words with swag
& sway.
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i knew not of how to love you
til i lost you,
we lost connection
then somehow i found myself.
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i still miss you...
& tears still quickly form at the thought.

its okay,
even with no one to share it with...
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im eager to say everything.
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my lack of expression through the oral & written word
wears on me like the worn out jeans i wear once a week
at my place of work where i spend each day
hoping that my sense of tomorrow brings desire.
if tomorrow comes,
that is...
-
my state of mind tells me that nothing really is...
i find it strange to say that
nothing really is.

our connection seems promising,
our imperfections make for great conversation.
like a 90's romance novel,
the way i feel.
-
dear love,
we're not perfect
& its not like we'll ever be...

4am no longer calls;
am i unsatisfied with the peace i've found?
was the chaos
my driving force?
sometimes i feel lost without it.
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its different now,
its silent.
still dark,
no longer violent.