I love him
I tell myself
I know that
We will be together forever
I don’t believe that
We could be separated
My thoughts tell me that
He’s the love of my life
Sometimes my heart lies and says
I could live an eternity
Without him
Like my friends say
“We’re perfect for each other”
And you can’t tell me
He’s not the one.

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There is a place out there, somewhere, waiting for me.
Somedays, I sit and it all comes to me.
The fight within. The astonishingly thin line between dark and light.
And the struggle not to stray.

Most days, I know where I stand.
Then, there are other days; days where the veil is hidden
and everything is exposed. I see myself as I really am.
I see the dark. I see the light.
But I don't see a future.

That's when I remember you,
Everything you promised me.
And I remember this place.
Here, the struggle is not important, because you are here.
I am here.

And that's all I need to keep fighting.

Each day
I have this urge
To drown myself into the deep dark river

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine"

No, I'm hurting

I'm hurting because of you

"Okay, I love you"

"I love you too"

No, you don't

You wouldn't do this, you wouldn't hurt me

You don't love me, you just don't want the others have my attention

You don't love me, you just want to feel needed

Maybe it's the way we see the world that makes us different.
Maybe it's the way we see each other that makes us learn how to love.
Maybe it's our anger that separates us.


or maybe...

Your love is gone and you don't want me anymore.

Tears falling down

Heart has been shattered

Empty gaze

She was never good with words

She was never good at showing her love for him

She was drowned by the reality

She was lost


He is the sun for her

She lets herself burnt, trying to hug him

Never knew, love could be this smother

It slowly kills her

Suffocated

Dying


If only he knew

How much she cried

How much she hid the tears

How much the pain she felt

But he didn't care......