I am Friendly but alone
I wonder what others think
I her the chorus of a song I never Heard
I see beautiful people even if they are ugly
I want to know the meaning of life
I am friendly but alone

I pretend that i am the prettiest
I feel the people i love angery at me.
I touch the begging of a story that never ends
I worry that i am alone in this terrible but wonderful world.
I cry for a million people
I am friendly but alone

I understand that we all have troubles
I say nothing is fair
I dream everthing is perfect, everyong is perfect
I try to allways be happy in a world of sadness
I hope we willl all be okay

Always Wonder, Never Know

Nothing can remedy loneliness once beloved is gone.
Nothing can soothe the burns of frustration and
longing for a thing that can never be restored or
verified as ever having existed at all.

These are the sacred words of never and always, the absolutes.
Their only valid usage; not tossed casually in with mundane things
nor wielded so carelessly by so many weak thinking humans.
No, these are the sacraments of eternity;
never knowing happiness or never knowing why,
instead always wondering.

No descent into any inferno will relieve him with substitute punishments,
not ever.
No failure, however spectacular, can again be used to club him numb,
not ever;
only infinity will again embrace him,
ever.

None of this will stop him
from praying to gods he does not believe in
for an insanity that won’t be granted;
he will remain on edge at the abyss, abandoned even by gravity,
unable to fall in.

Even death might not clear this from poor soul the memory
of the few who loved him despite his many failures,
fewer still whoever understood him,
nor prove release from one single thing.

He will revisit Distress and Dismay
at home; there no hero will save him.
No omnipotence will forgive him,
no time will heal him, not ever.

You were fire
And I was rain
Somehow we convinced ourselves
That we were the same
Our ideas, sure, were not all that different
But our personalities
Collide in the distance

You played with my heart
And I played with yours
Did you know
I was silently keeping score
No matter how much you plead
You were never enough for me

Oh wait
I said that wrong
I was never enough for you

I'm not the only girl
In the world that feels
As if my heart is a guitar
Plucking the strings
Until they snap back
Like rubber bands
In Chemistry class
When all they boys
Use it like a toy
Whipping each other
Leaving marks
Like they do with our hearts
All they ever do
Is tear us apart

See I’m not that pretty
Funny, or small
I'm not even close to tall
My skin often gets compared to ****
But i'm suppose to sit
And pretend like I don't hear the names behind my back

Because of these things
I get no respect
Because of these things
My life is a mess
Like my bedroom floor
On a Saturday night
Because Sunday is clean day
And then we can wash
Our emotions away

Monday’s a new day to start again
We can pretend to be friends
And laugh in the halls
Fake just like my barbie dolls

Acting like someone we’re not
Hiding who we are
So we don't get shot
With words so cold
They’re basically stone
Breaking our bones
With each strenuous throw
Like dodgeball during gym class
You must be fit if you wanna pass
The games people play
To destroy everyone else
Who cares if it's not affecting their health
Just the ones with the mental illness
Because believing you don't belong
Is so very wrong

But that's why we drink
We feast
On the broken ones
Who are incomplete

We steal parts of them
To fill the caverns of our heart
Empty from the diamonds
That had been stolen inside

They say we are poor
But we have wealth
Full of depression beyond despair

The horizons we seek
Cannot be seen
Through the peephole
Of sight we are given

No
We are taught

Our actions are learned
To behave this way
To treat others like they're nothing
Much to my dismay

And in a perfect world
My words mean nothing
But we are not perfect
Nor will we ever be
All we can ever do is plea
That we treat others like we want to be treated
Like we’re in elementary school again

But don't you understand
We accept the love we think we deserve
So how can the love we give be any worse
Than the love we choose to hold for ourselves
How can we determine someone else’s wealth
When we can't even begin to describe our own

You see
I was rain
And you were fire
Flushed with desire you tried to climb higher
Tried to push yourself off the ground
You burned so high, too high
That's why I had to drown
Out your flames
Until they were no more
Until you were soaked to the core

Gone were the days
Of hot and humid
Yes I know
It was kind of stupid
But if fire took care of rain first
It might have ended much worse

You see you were fire
And I was rain
And no matter how hard we tried to convince ourselves
We will never be the same