She said, "this will be a night you remember"
but I persisted we both would forget...
Until we parted ways and she left an imprint on my mind again.

“Hey wait for me”,
She said.
Running to catch up
With the rest of the group.
The group
that zipped her lungs
and
clipped her wings.

You sat on my ladder
and blew smoke into my face

Said you had the good stuff
Why don't you send some my way?

I've never cowered from the fire
I have short legs
You get burned so much that you adapted the pleague

Walking down the plank
My heads in the water
My nostrils are bleeding
You've gone blind

You run your fingers through your hair
You claim to be mines

You don't like a hot mess
So what am I?

I am your weakness
You're a peachy surprise

I knew you were the one
When you looked in my eyes

It hurts me to smile but the frown was denied
All of the tears sting when you tell your lies

I saw the green
But it wasn't the one this time

Thought that you could be
My most prized rose
Yet the garden died

Naked, with no clothes
You sat on my ladder
And blew smoke in my face

I knew you'd make the perfect lover
'Cause all your exhilarating quirks I could so easily hate

We walked downtown
Around in circles we went
You slid your hand into mines and we held them up high

Strong together, stronger apart
Both dealing with seperate demons
Waiting to be torn

I wanted nothing more,
Than to walk with you again
You wanted nothing more,
Than to escape my presence

Your secret hideout
Your new friends, the dragons
My little hole in the wall
And a tin can of spit

Running towards me,
Your sight piercing through my eyes
It was never a surprise when you left
I just dreaded the department

You got onto my favorite ride and waved at me
I couldn't speak

The music played over and over in my head
And the spinning record led ...

Lead me to your dungeon where all the magic is made
My heart bombed by a gernade
There are no pieces left

Just my hole in the wall
My hole in your dungeon of falls

I wanted to bring you up,
but you let me down
You wanted to get away,
but I wanted to keep you around.

My toxic mind is my escape
These days,
I confuse pain for anger

Anger for pain

I invest, but never earn
I ask myself: will I learn?
I already know.

My hopes turn to dust,
When death whispers no.
I wish... I become optomistic...
I tell myself don't.

Sometimes I feel as though I want to live
I can not hold on,
When there is no rope.

I have fallen down the wishing well...
I have fallen in a hole.

Vitriolics follow me and I,
Can not see my life through a bigger scope.

I look at all the stars and know
I am the daughter of the sun itself
I am not the center just the product
Of perfect hell.

I ask myself: will I always be afraid?

I look through my clear tears
They burn my eyes
I forgot about the oil & salt.

Soap could clean it up.
Yet I wonder, who cleans the soap when it is filth?

I want the dirt to disappear
I want to swipe away the dust
I want to rid myself of disgust,
For whatever I broke inside, me.

How can I forgive when you're the reason I do not want to live?

I have been dying

I would give in
I would crumple
At this point I am not even sure how,

I wallow and swallow down my pain.
I drain myself of all mistakes.
I still drown.

Right when I am on the brink of peace
My mind reminds me:
There is nothing I can do to escape
I am still in myself, at the end of the day.

I loved you
You broke me
I envy
Your capability

I'm in a blizzard,
not an ice cream cone

Darkness seems to be calling me
My pain seems fun,
Just like the pineapples,
I'm crushed

You will always be my first love
You won't be replaced
I'm bad at leaving so when I give my Ice cubes
There is a lot at stake

I'll never forget how I was left in the snow that day

Hurt and alone
While you were warm and cozy at home

I'm in a blizzard, not an ice cream cone
I love the cold

Stuck in a storm
I meet others to keep me warm
But I'm watching the snowflakes grow from my hands

I'm watching the snow touch the land