There's nothing in me,
but emotion and thought
In a field of sunflowers
I am a lily, that's lost.

Screaming, "save me!"
Trust me I know the cost
"Pick me!"

Let me writher and rot
Please do not leave me in gloom
I will not bloom next summer,
And I blame you.

I need to die to be alright
Help me rise again,
Hold me in your hands

You say, "I will be your friend"
Then you leave me in the dark
Bring sunflowers to the eulogy
You told me I was not them, but a lily

I do not have eyes, yet I know I am art
I want to glitter with the stars
I know you are the one who tore me apart

Stuck my fragments inside of a jar
Set me on fire
My inclination is gone

See me,
in the sky, and not in the mirror

See me,
in the pasture, and not in your tears

See me,
on the ground, and not as your fears

Do not dream of me, but remember me for years

"I'm fine"

I'm a liar
I'm spectacular
If given the chance,
I'll unearth all your dirt
And show you the golden soul

You lost all those times life took you by its hold,
But death cut off your oxygen
Forcing you to let go.


"I'm alright"

I'm a mood swing waiting to happen
'Cause inside buildings are always collaspsing
I abandoned the cities in my mind
Just so I,
could spend some time
Being everything you needed me to be

Here's the only thing,
I'm destroying me

Driving your knife a little farther so you could paint
My crimson blood on the wooden floor
I dont want something pretty to look at anymore.

I'm locked in a cage

Your brush against my dark caramel skin
An artist with a butchers skill
Its my fault for chasing a thrill

I feel the rage of investing my time
Into what felt so good being flipped and dipped in the acid
Falling through my eyes
Called tears.

I covered my face because of my fears
I don't want you to see my face
Vulnerability caused by surfaced pain

Make it all go away
You said "its okay"

"I'm okay"

But I am not okay this time.

I'm drowning in the abyss
I'm not making it out of this ****
But as the depths of me lay in defeat
I know I'll be granted by the threads of hope
Waiting for me to pull
Because though I cannot fight
I will rise again

She said, "please help me I'm in pain"
The reply was "no the demons won't sleep
Rage and rage they will

What will you do to make it end
We know you've thought about ending yourself

The demons will only dream
Imaginative things
They'll take you to the depths of hell but know
None of it is truly real

You let them crawl in your brain
They're like pain killers

You take too much and you don't heal
You're only killing me

'Cause the demons don't die
They only dream
And you're fueling these creative things"

It torments me,
I'll be the only one to know
As they look into the casket
Wondering why

I'll reach up from the depths of hell
Haunting their dreams
I'll let me them know:
I finally gave up on me

My nightmare has not ended, I know
Although dead, I broke those left low

I was never a good person to begin  
The inside of me does not believe

The little girl sits in darkness
Hiding in the corner,
She dreams

The snake tries to swallow her
She has become immune
I do not know what to do

She is the light shinning
I can not find her
The small light is violently fading
As I annihilate a wonderful thing

I let them take
I have no motivation
Why not snap and break?

The labyrinth I made was no mistake
Can you not see
Confusion leads to clarity
Broken is beauty

Stuck in the depths of the ocean
Long lost cities held under

She is drowning in a swamp of cold
No one there to hold her

Out of her mouth it's all lies
"Give it time"
This soul will never rest

I tried to have no regrets
Barely breathing,
Choking up like she has a hole in her neck

And although surrounded by people  she could never be more alone
She waited through rain and snow

No one ever came to get her though
Resolving to a heart of stone
A spirit with no guidance to the right road

I hate feeling hurt
I always reach my highest highs in my life to find new lows

It's all just one big *****
Violence and internal conflicts won't leave me alone

Dark family secrets soon to be exposed
I am my biggest foe

And the storm makes it all the more bearable