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Melanie Jackson Mar 2020
1 pill
2 pills
3 pills
one more
take them everyday
we cant fix you
so take these
everyday we will
S E D A T E    Y O U
Melanie Jackson Apr 2020
when i was younger
i never bothered
to plant any
R O O T S
i never built anything
to hold me down
so even if i don't say it
it still hurts me everytime you
fight with her
it feels like once i finally
get myself just a little
R O O T E D
it feels like
everytime i feel myself happy
you pull me
just to hurt me by
U P R O O T I N G
myself from where
i had worked to hard to
P L A N T
Melanie Jackson Dec 2020
a
feather
that tells a story
written in words
that when my time
came to be i on
ly  forgot to
speak leavi
ng me
br
o
k
e
n
Melanie Jackson May 2019
a heart             is one
thing you        should ne
ver bra             ke or be
nd for o          nce you
do it may never grow
back from that be
nd a broken he
art cant for
give a b
roke
n h
er
t
i
s
a
l
o
s
t
Melanie Jackson Nov 2019
i sit in a room
with a parent i barely know
addicted to the pills
scent of cigarette
you promise you will come
but then a minute before
you have some crazy excuse
they say the high is fun
im not laugh am i
but you didn't care
you were to busy
popping your pills
but you left us behind  
those pills got you
didn't they
cause you cant stop
popping your pills
Melanie Jackson Jan 2021
sunlight brushes your skin
lighting it
darkening it
those piercing blue eyes
pulling me in
and with me he loses his disguise
and with him i can be myself
i can dance on water
i can fall into my dreams
and im so happy he let me fall in love
i only hope for me to never hurt him
because to me he is precious
Melanie Jackson Dec 2021
the worst prisons arent in citys
arent the ones with bars
but the prisons we lock ourselves in
the prisons that live in our heads
Melanie Jackson Sep 2019
broken dreams
and ripping seams

a girl sits still
upon a sill

strings pulling hard
she moves not that far

shes controlled by her master
one that does not care

for her at all
cause a puppeteer

is always near
Melanie Jackson Jan 2021
You brought me downhill
At such a steep incline
That all we could see was the skyline
In the rearveiw mirrior
Driving faster picking up altitude
Till I start to question the life you have lead
But you laughed about it
When I Said one of us had to jump off
*** the weight of the two of us
Was Starting to effect me
Trying to save both your mental health
and mine
Became a job I wasn't built to handle
Melanie Jackson Jan 2022
im sorry i love you slowly sometimes
and others i jump in head first
i don't know what its like to love
without being in survival mode
but i want you to know that on the early march day
you where my reason to stay
and you still are even today
Melanie Jackson Feb 2022
how does one ever recover from this?
i don't think i ever can
perhaps i don't want to
perhaps its easier not to
don't judge me though
we all carry our own baggage
some just carry it more inwardly
Melanie Jackson Feb 2021
I will always smile
When my thoughts run to you
Your soft touch
Your honey filled smile
Those handsome blue eyes
Your gentle laugh
Your hopeful eyes
The way you protect me
I'm glad our paths crossed
You make my heart flutter
You kiss me
In a way
I will always
R E M E M B E R
remember this ad me when you feel down i will miss you most of all
Melanie Jackson Sep 2020
when my years catch up with me
R E M E M B E R    M E
though my days grow numbered now
R E M E M B E R    M E
when my tears dry on the ground
R E M E M B E R    M E
even if i disappear please promise you will
R E M E M B E R    M E
Melanie Jackson Sep 2020
rewrite the memories
reword the story
of my past of my future
if i could change anything to
R E W R I T E
the story of you & I
Melanie Jackson Mar 2020
the system is
R I G I D
please don't slip
U P
because if you do i
F E A R
that they, the
O F F I C I A L S
may come back just to
K I L L      Y O U
Melanie Jackson Sep 2021
hi
to everyone
who's ever suffered
at he hands of
a person they thought loved
them but in turn they were
only looking for another soul to
burn and hurt
im here with you
some day i promise you
we will
rise
Melanie Jackson Feb 2020
some people say
that im like a
R I V E R
they say like a river
im always
R U N N I N G
whether it be from my problems
or simply to get
A W A Y
but i think that maybe
i can stay with you
F O R E V E R
Melanie Jackson Jan 2022
roses are red
violets are blue
i wish I could get out of my head
because with you there sometimes I wish I was dead
Melanie Jackson Jan 2022
roses are red, violets are blue
i hate myself for being in love with you
I cant make you smile
you will not stay for awhile
so why do I force myself into your arms
why do I accept when thoughts of you swarms
so roses are red, violets are blue
I hope that one day I can get over you
Melanie Jackson Sep 2020
when we rule the
W O R L D
i almost wonder if we will leave the world in
A S H E S
or if we will grow the planet and move us
F O R W A R D
i suppose it all on the shoulders
of the people we let
R U L E
Melanie Jackson Jul 2021
Do not get overwhelmed
If you get overwhelmed you cry
2.dont cry infront of them
They will think your weak
3. Learn to fake smile
They don't care about your real emotions
4. Don't vent to anyone
Our family is perfect
5. Never allow someone to think less
Defend us at all costs except our name
6. If u lie don't get caught
We all have to at some point be smart
7. Never answer questions straight forward
We aren't to be open books
8. Children are seen
But never heard
9. If you brake any rules
You are no longer family we are exclusive
run
Melanie Jackson Sep 2019
run
faster and faster
don't trip up
don't slow down
don't slip up

roots pop up
and weave through
dont catch your foot
or you will fall too

dont look back
it will only slow you down
dont give up
though your heart pounds hard
Melanie Jackson Jan 2021
at first the trees blur past
my life washed behind me
my thoughts washed behind me
but then my body cant handle
i slow to a snail pace and the memories flood in
and sometimes i miss what we had
and others i blame myself for leaving you behind
but all i can do now is keep
R U N N I N G
Melanie Jackson May 2019
it is sad
that some people
aren't waiting for
there happy
ending anymore
there just waiting
for the end
Melanie Jackson Jan 2020
one day i will get a
B O A T
and on that day i will
S A I L  A W A Y
to lands i have never seen
T R A V E  L
through mountains and
F O R E S T S
there i will start my new
L I F E
one that s full of
HAPPY
days and months so that i can
F I N A L L Y
learn what its like to truely
S M I L E
Melanie Jackson May 2020
like a
S O N G
i sang with you
and with your
L Y R I C S
you convinced me of lies
but now your
N O T E S
are off key
and i cant hear the
M U S I C
that you began to play
Melanie Jackson Nov 2019
save yourself from
the pain i caused
save yourself from
the broken pieces
save yourself from
the mess i create
save yourself from
the things i have done
save yourself from
the person i have become
save yourself from
the walls i build to high
Melanie Jackson May 2019
i suppose
i love my scars
because
they have
stayed with me
longer
than most people
have
Melanie Jackson Oct 2019
piano tiles
on the floor
broken dreams
thrown across the stars
my heart
inside your hand
your eyes
filled to the brim
my tears
on my cheek
your lies
across your chest
just like a
scarlet letter
Melanie Jackson Oct 2019
here i sit
at a table of wood
listening to you
your lectures long
and i don't learn
my eyes move around the room
trying to make out
the reason i need to know
things like
writing essays about short stories
how to use a 3D printer
and algebra
yet you cant teach
taxes
money saving
and how to live in our world
these are skills i found i need
but you cant prepare us
Melanie Jackson Jan 2020
sit quietly
put your hand down
no question is dumb
except that one
don't look at that
focus on me
your opinion is wrong
who told you that
you were aloud to
have an
dont talk back to me
if you defend yourself
you will be suspended
don't answer when i ask questions
keep your thoughts to yourself
you know nothing
this is my subject to teach
don't act like you know the answers
it doesn't matter if
you already know this
don't work ahead
Melanie Jackson Sep 2021
the sky seems grey
almost taunting me
bringing me down in its misty plumes
pushing me down
forcing me back into bed
forcing me to feel worthless
as memories crash against the walls of my mind
dragging me back down into my
seasonal depression
Melanie Jackson Apr 2020
sometimes i couldn't hear myself
S C R E A M I N G
couldn't feel the pain you were
I N F L I C T I N G
like i had put myself away

and sometimes i catch myself
D R E A M I N G
couldn't stop the flashbacks from
C O M I N G   O N
like i wanted to feel something other than pain

everytime i look back on my
C H I L D H O O D
i see your face in the
B A C K G R O U N D
like out of the corner of my eye
i see your face lingering still
and know i know what to call it
just a little
S E C O N D H A N D    S M O K E
Melanie Jackson Dec 2020
like a cloud
it fills he room
i sit in a daze
caught to in this smog
but i guess i will always smell your
S E C O N D H A N D - S M O K E
Melanie Jackson Mar 2020
the clock keep moving
but it feels as if time is
F R O Z E N
because when
i was younger
i that that
I S
how time worked
freezing sometimes
bt i learned that wasn't how the
T I M E
we are so used to works
Melanie Jackson Feb 2020
you keep them
you tell them
but what kind of
S E C R E T S
do you try and keep
are they
C R U E L
do they hurt the person
or are they the kind that
the two of you
S H A R E
Melanie Jackson Oct 2021
when you feel it the first time
you wont have a clue
what your even feeling
is it love is it lust
you will ask yourself if you are okay
and of course you arent
why would you be
your shattered your broken
your body seems lifeless
and yet you will want it again
because its the only way he shows love
Melanie Jackson Aug 2020
like a ***
Just before the water
B O I L S
Or a person
Just before they
E X P L O D E
It feels like
My brain is about to
E M P L O D E
Because I'm expected
To smile like nothing is
W R O N G
But I have to
Sit in the living room and try not to
S I M M E R
Melanie Jackson Apr 2020
i have been told that
D I S T A N C E
is relative,
and relative
if you asked me right know
i would say that your relatively
F A R
and if you asked me just yesterday
i would have told you im relatively
C L O S E
to breaking down
because for now i feel so alone
i have missed all the elements
wishing they weren't so
D I S T A N T
from me now
i guess its to say
that i miss you most
at six feet
A P A R T
when i see you at my window
but cant drive you in my car
it feels like miles
with you six feet
A P A R T
sky
Melanie Jackson Aug 2020
sky
like the blue summer
S K Y
your eyes gleamed in the
S U N L I G H T
but when the sun began to set the
M O O N
did not reflect the person you actually
W E R E
Melanie Jackson Jan 2021
slowly i fall into your arms
allowing you to take over my mind
slowly i fall into your heart
allowing you to hold me close
slowly i fall for a person
allowing myself to fall in love with you
slowly i fall for a man
allowing myself to finally marry
Melanie Jackson Mar 2020
S M I L E
it makes you look more
P R E T T Y
S M I L E
it makes you look more
Y O U N G
S M I L E
it makes you seem
H A P P I E R
remember to
S M I L E
Melanie Jackson Jan 2021
his heart is snowflake
to some hes as cold as snow
icy and reserved
but if you look closely you see how special he is
because he is
and he is beautiful
and he is kind
but he is fragile
and easily broken
and i have promised him
to always take care not to ruin
his snowflake heart
Melanie Jackson Jan 2021
all i want is nothing more
then to hold your hand forever more
cause your the one i love the most
and if you love me
will you leave me
i hope you want me
i pray you want me
and all my dreams are
and all my wishes
go to you
because i think that i need you
Melanie Jackson Jan 2020
somewhere in america
there's a girl
being felt up in the subway
shes still in her uniform
that's part of the appeal
its hard to
R U  N
in a skirt and mary janes
and her teachers know it is too
somewhere in america
a girls trying to find
the perfect prom
D R E S S
well im looking in the
lost & found
cause winter's coming
and that's the only coat
i have
cause mommas working
for the government
momma only gets paid once a
M O N T H
somewhere in america
Melanie Jackson Feb 2021
At first when we met
I danced to my own beat
To my own toon
That whistled in my ears
But then as we kept talking
Kept growing closer
You became the song
That was evermore stuck
Dancing on the walls
Of my head
Melanie Jackson May 2020
i miss your calls
for months it seems
i forget that to you
i never have to be mean
i will never forget you
or your mother that i promise
but im
S O R R Y
to my forgotten lover
S O R R Y
im not good enough
S O R R Y
i just cant believe that anyone could love
my broken and damaged heart
my forgotten and lost soul
S O R R Y
to my unknowing lover
Melanie Jackson Jul 2020
Here we sit
Tangled in
C H A I N S
Forever stuck
In this never ending
N I G H T M I R E
For our lives are wrapped
And our souls are
B O U N D
Melanie Jackson Dec 2020
His eyes are the stars
Shining an guiding me through the darkest night
His lips are the waves
Pulling me in and crashing into my embrace
His hands are the sun
Reaching me warming me through the day
His love is the breeze
Blowing through my hair dancing lightly against my skin
His smile is a fox
Coning and brilliant as he zips his way through the trees
His happiness is a river
Flowing through me like its an addition of my soul
Melanie Jackson Aug 2020
your not a person your a
S O U L   R I D E R
you ride so ******* a
H A P P Y
soul, until its so drained,
so broken, that the person is
L O S T
inside of there minds
but i will not let you ride my soul into
O B L I V I O N
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