K Mae: Poems

K Mae Jun 2013

in depth of dark I  seek your heat
    with curves enfolding angles
    as front meets back with sweet relief
    to sleep in breathing tandem this
     my chamber of renewal

chaos 10w

K Mae Aug 2013

chaos 10w

father of intention
mother of birth
creatrix of changing pattern

Clinging Fog

K Mae Sep 2012

Clinging Fog

on this morning of clinging fog
again we choose doing over being,
the weight of our agendas
de-pressing heart and fire

*you left before I looked in your eyes.

cocooned

K Mae Apr 2013

cocooned

cocooned within my fantasy
twisting floating feeling free
believing stories I've been told
this mortal wrapping now grows old
gratitudes and platitudes
now fall away a fruitless play
for ruthless truth
I've now a hunger
reveal the essence
shatter cover
consciousness grows not from mind
but deep my source my spark divine

Come to me Before

K Mae Sep 2012

Come to me Before

Come to me in morning
before I'm covered over
with blankets of the day
before I'm dully distanced
by reason and agenda,
the guard still out at bay.

come to midnight

K Mae Mar 2013

come to midnight

come to midnight we commune
imbibing nectar of the moon
solitude with soulful pleasure
stealing free of hours measure
silent shares diffusing scent
alleviate our discontent

common perversity #1005

K Mae Nov 2014

common perversity #1005

miss you dear
til you are near
then push, push away

Comparison 10W

K Mae Apr 2013

Comparison 10W

Deadly to creativity,
paralyzing joy,
invalidating beauty,
Denial of Essence

complete

K Mae Aug 2013

complete

seeking fulfillment
         in dreams travel far
    yet bless being present
                complete where we are

Corpus Callosum

K Mae Jan 2013

Corpus Callosum

You know what I am
One side and the other
Dawdling dreamer to the left
****, do it now by right

Separation by design
How clever safely kept
Yet merge and melt the magic path
when hands are clasped voice rings from center
Surprise result
Human roulette.

Crescent Moon

K Mae Jul 2013

Crescent Moon

Bala Chandran
Crescent Moon
suspended in our sky
embracing curve with tender hooks
that we may display dreams on
singular light reflecting life
satisfied we meet your gaze

I think you embody your name most fully

Crescent moon haiku

K Mae Feb 2016

Crescent moon haiku

Crescent moon
I am full with void
touching light

Crooked Finger

K Mae Aug 2012

Crooked Finger

Chasing mind
I could not catch
Body crashing down
Broke it didn't know it
Healed with a frown

Dammed

K Mae Jul 2012

Dammed

A spring was dammed in long ago
to make a pond their business.
warm water glistens in the sun
even seagulls circle, speak

It felt all wrong.
spring still gives forth
with no place to flow
held cruelly still by walls cement
boundaries of man

I mourn this water soul excised.
I could not enter water dead.

Dark Sunset

K Mae Nov 2012

Dark Sunset

Dark clouds reach
Fingertips extend
Rake my Soul

Brittle Earth
Waiting for Rebirth
Whine in Vain

Change is Now
Don't get lost in Fear
Inhale Deep

Mountaintop New York Highway

Daz

K Mae Jul 2013

Daz

Dying Embers
sometimes Daz-zling
then a Shadow
Not seen with searchlight

Transmuted again ?

death upon us

K Mae Aug 2015

death upon us

the fact of his leaving
not understood, but surely no mistake
one more eddy in the sad river
one brother less
we are left being what he could not be
journey unsolved

#death #loss #brother

Delta

K Mae Oct 2012

Delta

I allow my friend to touch me deep where I am raw
easing the task of bones and sinew
who work too hard to hold integrity.

Releasing now physical/energetic dams
Flowing again, forging new paths
from the Delta that is me

For Mary, my loving massage therapist

discover

K Mae Jul 2014

discover

years together
assume naught to discover
yet this very day
we've been never this way
presently changing
beyond rearranging
perhaps you don't recognize me
and  who
now
are  you ?

Done Enough

K Mae Nov 2012

Done Enough

Blessing of injury
Not for every one
Nor do I recommend it
But it brings needed balance to me
When weary in body or mind
I stop.
Focus inward.
Done enough.

Down the fence.

K Mae Oct 2012

Down the fence.

Down the fence.
Tree wants to come in !
Let her be.

dream come true

K Mae May 2015

dream come true

he has now appeared
bringing that which I desire
traits you've buried
under serious distraction
appearing in supportive role
our invocations answered
*creators who play such a game
are called in ready or not

Dress rehearsal

K Mae Oct 2012

Dress rehearsal

Halloween
Dress rehearsal for
All Souls Day
All Saints Day if you believe
Day of the Dead is coming

driving home

K Mae Mar 2013

driving home

driving home...
"you ready for some company ?"
"sure come on...maybe you'll spend the night"
fresh with all the years
my heart leaps for him

Eagle Glides

K Mae Oct 2012

Eagle Glides

Eagle Glides
Hunger and Beauty
Unity

ends in silence

K Mae May 2013

ends in silence

All music ends in silence

and I am timeless

until the metronome
awakes familiar chords

Escher's End

K Mae Jan 2013

Escher's End

In darkest hours unsatisfied
in vacant breathless space
wandering paths of Escher's lizards
I
         long
                for
                             you

Known touch won't do No nothing now
no sweets    no smoke     no wine
I'm magnet drawn to what I've not
I think
        I lack
                  I need

*Shall I be the end I seek ?

excited song haiku

K Mae Aug 2013

excited song haiku

excited this night
soprano harmonics chime
self silent...I hear

yes...treefrogs

Exist with pain

K Mae Oct 2012

Exist with pain

For days, did nothing but freak out, yelp and moan
exist with pain
Let the pop-doctor press ribs back into place
Then merciful drugs to dull the feeling, coax muscles to relax
Now I drift into sleep with little warning
during conversation, at the computer
In this state, no poetry comes through me
Today, I re-approach sanity and well being.

*How do people live with chronic pain ?

I am now beginning to see that a deeper healing can come from this, an injury which I brought on myself, through over zealous commitment to my task, needing to come to this extreme to just stop.

expanding heart

K Mae May 2013

expanding heart

on this day of expanding heart
grateful tears meet each new kindness
and lightning strokes of pain
deepen breath
**as cardiac straps burst free

Fallible Rising

K Mae Oct 2012

Fallible Rising

Fallible, shocked to find myself low
I did not believe my descent could be so
Don't I live with magical dispensation
My life being subject to my blithe creation !
I thought I was living outside the mass rules
Sadly I see I'm asleep with the fools.

Slowly I rise, weeping thanks and distress
Paying dear price for my stubbornness
Making amends to body and spirit
My arrogance gone ? I think not, but fear it !
Humility wakened, Immortality slashed
Continuing reasons to feel so abashed.

What are the steps I must now be ascending ?
Practice beginner mind now never ending.
Sacred illusions are found to be crumbling
Retreat to the silence , relief from the rumbling
Raising my gaze though I'm used to head bowed
Trembling aside, now refuse to stay cowed.

Falling

K Mae Sep 2012

Falling

Chill nights summer days

Falling all over myself

Transition thrill builds

false vitality of habit

K Mae Mar 2013

false vitality of habit

confident on timeworn routes
until unknown brings gasping fear*
what is this ?
my playground now to be reduced
to rutted paths of paltry use ?
enough !
power mine I have denied
creative pulses flattened
miming patterns drawn by others
spark of mine allowed to smother
shocked I recognize within
dryly spreading stubbornness
*the false vitality
of habit

father shine

K Mae Oct 2014

father shine

father shined his shoes
we ironed handkerchiefs
by the dozen shirt collars
underwear so white and loose
child noise song not allowed
we did not know he missed being
artist bad boy free
sole beloved of his woman
now mothering too many
his own left too soon
the boy to hurt forever
to pass that truth along
as best he could

Fear grows my story

K Mae Jan 2013

Fear grows my story

Fear grows my story in silence sustained.
Where you are How you are Hidden can't reach you !
There's no recognition of me.
Wisdom is gone devoured no mercy
small breath and clamped heart with panic inlaid.
Time and again I shall learn all is well Yet
here I return this my self-made hell.

Fear is no Wisdom Path

K Mae Mar 2019

Fear is no Wisdom Path

Inevitable movement
follows inscrutable pathways
within boundless unknown.
Admit any possibility with courage.
Of this I am sure :
Fear is no Wisdom path.

fervent writing

K Mae Oct 2013

fervent writing

when gardens go to rest
and dawn is slow to rise
may I know my way
surge my pulse
feed my dreams
with swirls of blooming color
from palette fertile moist*
*and release myself in throes
of fervent writing

Thanks to Rebecca Askew for inspiring and gifting me with the phrase, fervent writing

find these bones

K Mae Sep 2013

find these bones

respond*
find these bones
immerse them in saline lymph, tidal bay
grow sinew, venous pathways
overflow
hear turtle dolphin whale
entrain common pulsing
palpate boundaries
reshape
broadcast one secret vast owning smile

inspired by Vircapio, his responses, and his poem Afissos... alchemy of recognition, shelter in the storm

Firewalkers

K Mae Jun 2013

Firewalkers

Humans being one hundred strong
Raised the energy, an affirming throng
That night we agreed to bend the laws
next day we'd return to effect from cause
Yet I forget this lesson learned
On burning coals, no one was burned.
Despondency is truly tragic
We live and breathe and walk in magic.

First Snow

K Mae Nov 2012

First Snow

A sprinkling
Grass a frosted mint
Confection

flowers close at night

K Mae May 2013

flowers close at night

flowers close at night
all silent
open wide when warm sun light
humans breathe in no such rhythm
in our walls electric blight
earth rest cycle we deny
and never mind the moon and tide
continuing agenda must dance
weariness to override
until at last relief delivered
maybe it comes all too soon
wisdom or the swoon of illness
finally we enter stillness

flowers have ceased blooming

K Mae Nov 2014

flowers have ceased blooming

so plant myself in earth
  lie with weariness relaxed
    with nothing to uphold
      being totally embraced
        fullfilled at last engaged
             longing complete
                 nothing to ask

For Embers, For us all

K Mae Oct 2012

For Embers, For us all

Pain shared is lighter
Held by compassionate hearts.
Community serves.

for the beloved

K Mae May 2014

for the beloved

He would do anything
               Just name the task, the mission
                              For his Beloved
                                    In deepest sorrow, as in death, She is alone.

                                                 Enfold her in your living heart.

fragile blue

K Mae Dec 2012

fragile blue

fragile blue with morning star
traffic batters on
covering silence endless flow
mine this ripening dawn

freedom dance arising

K Mae Nov 2013

freedom dance arising

heart protected
chest pulled close
stance of ready armor
keeping shallow breath of life
expansion so much trouble
then once again
courageous choice
admitting healing touch
allowing what is buried deep
freedom dance arising
*allowing what is buried deep
freedom dance arising

free yoga

K Mae Mar 2013

free yoga

no class plan
but urging of my body
yearnings of my soul
guide weary friends
with serious joy
for one sacred hour
meet as we are
together

Freeze

K Mae Jan 2013

Freeze

Heart rending...
brittle trees creak and moan
strong wind cleaves wayward branches.
Time to let go here
with less desire
content or not,
surrendered being.

From You

K Mae Dec 2012

From You

From you I need no present
in box with sparkling bow

I need, I ask much more

That you live with jubilation
the depths as well the heights
Express your all that yearns to soar
in play's intense delights

And when I stray from wisdom place
uncertain of my worth
remind me that you love me and
our journey on this earth.

full belly hiding

K Mae Oct 2014

full belly hiding

full belly hiding
or belt it out the danger
lies with feline longing
through the heat
find the mate
apparently content
but it's kindness less than free
claw the covers honestly
grateful for the cost