I give myself all the pain
thinking I deserve it
I'm not sure why I do that
but that's just how I am

Nearly three months since my fingers have hit keys
in hope of creating something more than just
a message to a friend.

This is my message,
not to a friend
but something greater than just a quick hello.

Good bye

There are two types of love


There's the kindd you find
In good morning texts and shy smiles
The kind that comes with
Butterflies and stolen glances
The kind
Where you laugh for no reason
And a smile is forever glued to your face
Sweet, simple, honest, pure.


And then there's


The kind that finds you
In 2 am phone calls
And the tears on your pillow
The kind that come with
A war between your brain and heart
The kind where
Nothing makes you happier
And nothing makes you sadder
Passionate, overwhelming, intense, daring
And when it all comes crashing down
So
Do
You.

one day my mind will start to fade,
one day my skin will start to decay.
one day I will only wake up with tears,
one day I will question why I was denied with fear.
one day I will be unable to move.
one day my bones will break like frail shoes.
one day I will cry to a god that I don't believe exist.
one day I will become too weak to kiss.
one day I will die slowly as I breathe.
one day I will come crashing to my knees.
one day holidays will mean nothing at all.
one day I will sit as my health begins to fall.
one day I will look back at all the wrong I've done.
one day the sky will **** me with the sun.
one day I will try to remember who I am.
one day I will no longer give a ****.
But today is today why throw it to the wolves?
life is too short to be appart when we have so much to lose.
And today I know that I will always know your face.
that warm comforting smile.
even the crazier days.
But after all is said and my body is all used.
I will remember that forever, that I'm madly in love with you...

I had the best of times
I will never forget
You were the best
But
Wait
Wait
Wait

I forgot

My parents warned me about the drugs in the street
What they didn't tell me though,
was about the other kind of drugs
The ones that come stumbling into your life
Hazel eyes and a heartbeat
That make yours almost
stronger
faster
Forcing you to realize
why they name hurricanes after people