PIGMENTATION DISGUISE

By the gates of condemnation she stood
Shielding her eyes behind sunglasses
And her face was hidden by a hood
She was not my neighbour nor from my hood
Her mood was foul
As she was full of fear

   I didn't see the lies people spread about her
All i saw was a unique human being
I may have been three shades darker
But us being different wasn't a sin
Nor could i pass judgement because o
The colour of her face

They called her albino
I called her daughter of Adam
Behind the pigmentation disguise
She had a beautiful heart
I took her hand and applied something
I learnt
To stand up for fellow human

she would wrap her arms around me tightly
her voice spilling hums silently
convincing me all broken pieces will fall back together
she charmed me with her wit
tied me up and still convinced me love was sweet
my blood smelled her portion
i was really blind and patient
i was love sick she was the nurse and i was a patient
she would hold my hand and tell me
close your eyes
after all love was supposed to be blind
but where she left me
just brought tears close to my eyes
i was in hell my chest bleeding
holding pieces of my hearts waiting
for someone to sew them back together
she pushed me barefooted on a carpet of broken glasses
winked and turned her back with no more glances
i bled but still i couldn't get rid of her from my veins
i trudged on pathetically pain almost bursting through my veins
i took a sheet of paper used my blood as ink
and wrote this stupid poem

the word sorry has pierced my heart
and left me bleeding
you  have hurt me more times
than sorry can redeem
from the depth of my sorrow
i wallow with regrets of trusting you

i have tried loving you but
ended being tied by you
your deceitful charm have poisoned
my heart black
i have patiently waited for you to change
but you have changed me to your patient
the betrayal has just made me so sick

with ***** hands you have crushed
my pure heart
and made me  poor
i can't even afford a heartbeat
eternal ache is what is beating in the hollow
of my empty chest
you have murdered trust
and made me orphan and a beggar
begging for love to die

it's the beauty that made me realize
i wanted you
and it is the first kiss that made me
let you in
i had been swimming in an ocean of darkness
and i realized your brightness is the light
i had missed all along
it's your love that swept me like a typhoon
and in an island of commitments
i landed
it's your trust that made me realize nothing
could break us apart

forever felt like a very long time
but we lost count of time along the way
the ember of our love  became
an eternal flame and
our fingers  entangled like vines
a story was rewritten
love was reborn

dear my dead......
am in a frozen trance trying to
jot down all that's in my head
donned in forced air of solemnity
and my life time couple: sorrow
i need to borrow a single slice
of our past
and recall our last time together
as memories stream in thick and fast

first i have been spending my sleepless
nights shirtless
struttling aimlessly  the cold kissing
my pale skin
as i uphold one hand on my beardless chin
ogling at the naked night i search your face
among million stars
wishing i could freeze time space
and race to that place your soul rests
even if it means going to mars

at times i stirs from my seize
when i sneeze because of the cold breeze
i toast a beer to your imaginary image
my mind get vintage glimpse of our times
back then in the village
from the land of silent i know you can
hear my thoughts
maybe you hover near enough to see how
my grieve is tied into agonizing knots
    
i try to concentrate on the serenity of darkness
maybe the distraction will make time move faster
and save me from torture of thinking about you
i take another sip and convince myself every
swallow will drown my sorrow and allow me to sleep
i don't know who i am without you ..
you may be away physically but my heart is still with you
in that four by six bed
my time stands still until i see you again

that night we met you smiled at me
right under the glare of a full moon miles away
the swells on your chest and the sweet smell
of your skin scent  sent jolts through my spine
i wanted to bolt but your crystal clear eyes hypnotized me
you swayed your hips provocatively as you made your way down
the stairs  i couldn't tear my eyes from your stare
it was LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT

     i was ready to share my world with you
when your knitted words  convinced me i was
your knight in shining armor
under the light of the moon you vowed
i was gonna be your last king  
and that our relationship would be everlasting
that is all i wanted to hear i moved near you
lust made your face glow with wants  to be satisfied
i kissed you and my hand roved below your waist
IT WAS *** AT FIRST NIGHT

i didn't like how you talked in suspense
behind the veil of your language i could sense
betrayal
you painted my heart with pain
it was plain that hurting me was your plan
"i have died every day waiting for you to change"
i couldn't spare you a fight today only to die tomorrow
WE BROKE UP AT OUR FIRST FIGHT

am done being weak
it is time to wake up and speak
the shame has been consuming me
keeping this secret has been confusing me
am tired of people using me
that's why i would like to share my voice

i smelled your foul mouth
as you pinned me against the cold floor
your rough hands roved over my petite chest
i couldn't imagine what was there that aroused
your appetite
i was only eight years old
way too young to be your mate
but still you decided to choose my fate

i tried to cry for help
but your merciless pinch just made me yelp
you covered my mouth and unbuckled your belt
i closed my eyes and i heard the rip of cloth
i tried to fight but your grip drained my strength
you forced yourself into my innocence
the pin was so intense and i sobbed wondering
what did i do to deserve this.

with each ******
you shredded into pieces my trust
tears gracefully crawled my face
i prayed i could race to far place to hide from
this disgrace
excruciating pain took residence in me
as my virginity blood stained my purity
because of you i hate all men
because of you i walk alone donned in a suit of shame