This silence is as loud as a resounding gong that shakes my soul, to the point where my vision blurs and my heart shatters. what does it take for you to see me or to just acknowledge the fact that I still exist. how can I let you know that if you ever tried to pry me open like an old dusty casket, the only thing you would see is my dead body clenching on a photograph of you, a relic that was suppose to be long forgotten and buried in the past. long gone are the days I spent under the sun, I lay dormant here with my only company; loneliness and despair. Still waiting for the day that I will rise again"

Old rugged jeans
I couldn't throw away
Because in it's tiny little pockets
I am keeping, the pieces
of broken dreams
and broken us

The Most Beautiful Girl
When I first met you, I had an argument with my heart, along with my breath. I was fighting with them. A nonsensical argument, on who i should catch first. I never knew who won between the two but, All I know, from that day, I knew, that I wanted you desperately. There was something about you, that pulls me in, and keeps me there. something beyond this world. something Ethereal. something that, Up until now, I'm still finding it hard to figure out. was it your smile? the sound of your voice? your laugh perhaps? or could it be the way you simply look at me. those eyes. god those eyes. i hold my breath, every time you stare at me. it feels as if, I'm drowning in a pool in a restraint jacket. I feel helpless. I wish, I could, sum up the courage to tell you exactly how I feel about you. I wish that, there was some magical drug, that would make you read my mind, and let you know exactly what i feel. I really wish, You know what i'm going through. You have no Idea, how hard it is to hide my feelings, whenever you're around me. I feel like a coke can shaken up, wanting to explode but, your fingers wouldn't open the tab. gosh, I wish i could tell you exactly how i feel about you. How the slightest curve of your mouth, means the most happiest moment of my life. and when your hair billows against the wind, i can feel my heart racing,. Your scent, Don't even get me started with your scent. there are a lot of places, that i haven't seen. or things that I haven't done, but as long as I have the moment, to even spend just a second with you. I know, deep down, that I could die, a Happy man. I swear, I didn't Plan to feel this way. This had blind sided me, out of no where. I thought, You were just another girl that would casually pass me by. but somehow, you've hooked me, towing along with you not knowing, and that kills me deep down. believe me, whatever is written here, is not even a fraction on what I feel for you. I'm literally dying, without you knowing it....

I hate heights, it reminds me of falling. And falling, is a sensation that i can never get used too.  I feel helpless, i feel like, i’m out of control.  I feel like, life has completely taken over me, and the only thing i can ever do is, let life take it’s course. And ride here as a passenger.  What is it with falling?  Why do we fall?  Why do we take chances, and take a leap, even if we know that, it’s the most terrifying thing you could ever do with one's life.  Do we all get pleasure with fear? or is it something beyond that?   I hate falling….

dear past
dear past do you remember me?
im your future that you didn't see
coz you thought everything would be alright
you were careless and free day and night
you thought you would be ok when u decide
to **** the love that you have inside
little that you know how it would be
that you werent strong jus look at me

you thought you can fight it you tought you can live
start alll over again wit a heart to give
now i live my life with misery and pain
wondering how i could stop this rain
wishing that i didn't do what i did wrong
listening to this endles sad song

so past please try to understand
that everytime you hold her hand
cherish it even if you know
that someday she might go
to find out that she's with another
is the hardes pain you wont recover

How can I touch a Star in the sky?  The one that shines the brightest.  Should I learn how to fly or Breathe in outer space?      Maybe I should just watch and wait for it to fall.  But, then again, what are the chances, that it will land in front of me?

The stars are still shining in the velvety sky. The sun is still slumbering, deep within the horizon. People are clamouring about, rushing to get to work, scattered on top of a dark, wet and glossy pavement. Some consider this as the start of their day, some the end and some are still sleeping. Life truly is unbounded.