Today, I found out that you got a new boyfriend. It shouldn't surprise me, but i cried anyways.

I spent the last 6 years loving and even though you were in Korea for 3 years. You lead me on with false hope and left me for my dark twisted thoughts and scenarios that would never happen, except one, your new boyfriend.

The first time i met you we looked in each others eyes because you wanted to know what color mine were, all i saw in you eyes was a beautiful blue/gray storm. If I knew that this is how things would go I would stayed for away from you.

Your love is a very bad drug for me. When I am around you I feel on top of the world but the moment you leave everything falls apart, my mind, my heart, and my sanity.

It was so ******* clear to you that I loved you. I tried talking things out but you just ignored me. How foolish of me to think after 6 years, maybe just maybe I'd have a ******* chance with you.

The most awful part is i found out over Facebook.

I had this crazy thought that maybe one day we would be married, but i guess not.

I don't love you like i used to.
I just wanna be with you.
I never thought I'd feel this way.
I never wanted to feel this way.

I thought we'd end up happily ever after
(no not like this not like this)
But we ended up like this
(why like this why like this)

Your skin, your skin, your skin it haunts me
your skin, your skin, your skin it terrifies me

Every night I lay awake inside my bed
wondering where i went wrong

Your skin, your skin, your skin it haunts me
your skin, your skin, your skin it terrifies me

I found you when i was 12, or did you find me when you were 14?
I love you. They only way I'd let you jump off a bridge was if I could join you.

I am 17 now and you are 19, I want you, and I feel stupid writing this but this is the only I can feel relief.  I know you can feel the awkwardness between us when we are together and trust me I wish I could change that. I wish you'd give me a ******* chance.

The other night I couldn't sleep because of you, you were running through my mind like a horse on a track. I probably had a border line panic attack because i couldn't stop think about you with someone else doing ***** things that you and I both know you wouldn't do, at least I'd like to tell myself that. You are beautiful, lovely, and goofy. So any songs remind me of you and when you are around I play those songs and hope you listen to those ******* lyrics because honestly I couldn't tell you how I feel so I let those songs I love so much play to you. because I over think and panic and cant speak so I let those songs do it for me.

I am a *****.