I am okay*
If okay means knowing people are prentending to be friends with you
If it means noticing a lot of things changing
And you, just wanting to eat, sleep and cuddle pillows a lot
If okay means things are not well but you're hoping for the best
yet still expecting the worst
Embracing sadness thats creeping
Breaking into tiny ashes while the world does not care nor does not notice

Then yes I am okay

You are goodbye
I am hello
So I'll close my eyes
For I can't watch you go

Even as I blink
You're farther away
I see your image shrink
And I'm not okay

The next time someone asks you if you're okay
And you routinely go to say
I'm fine,
Hold your tongue,
You're doing no wrong,
By simply being human.

the eyes tell the story,
that nobody wants to tell.

smiles lie,
the truth they hide well.

the eyes never go empty,
there is no dry spell.

smiles never pass tests,
they always fail.

I sit here, staring into nothing
Seeing everyone beside me laughing with great happiness
Their enjoying their time
Why aren't I enjoying mine?
Maybe its the joke, which I don't find funny
Though,
Deep down, i know the truth
I know i don't belong here
This is not my home
This is a town i'm passing through
As i journey through this life
Where I truly belong
Is my true home
As of now, I am a stranger
Who exists only to be alone
Alone in my home
My home in my mind, is where i'm alive
But for now, i’ll sit here
Stare into nothing
As I step into my thoughts;
Into my reality.

I want to change.
I want to be a good person,
Who does good things.
So why is it that whenever I am tempted,
I give in?
I have been alone and confused
For so long.
At this point it's hard to tell
Where I even belong.
This pain inside is never going to heal,
If I can't change my ways
And start something real.

Thinking about you,
Makes my day,
Every moment,
In every way,
Your smile melts my heart,
Like no other,
Especially,
When we stare at each other,
Your face gives me butterflies,
Whenever I look at you,
It makes me want to blurt out,
I Love You,
But what turns me on,
Is not just you face and your smile,
It's your personality,
And the times when we talk awhile,
Being with you makes me happy,
All the time,
That I wished you were forever mine,
But you have someone else
Which hurts my heart,
Every time I think about it,
It tears me apart,
I understand,
If you love another and not me,
Because the truth is,
I just want you to be happy,
But what pains me the most,
Is when we talk to each other,
And all you can talk about,
Is her,
If she makes you smile,
If she makes you glad,
I don't want to get in the way,
Because I'm not like that,
But to tell you the truth,
When she goes,
I just want to tell you,
I love you more then you'll
Ever know