im worse than before.
at this point i dont even talk about it anymore.
i have a feeling that ill get so bad
that ill finally have the guts to end it all.
i talked to two adults who were supposed to be able to help me,
all they did was make excuses for him.
oh well,
not like i expected them to really be able to help.
now i can say i reached out...
now its definitely their fault,
they cant say i was selfish and didnt reach out.