Kathy Dehaven: Favorites

ill never be the same.

im ruined.

im not nice, or pretty, or considerate.

i do not love my father nor my step mother.

i am not and never will be bubbly

and i will never be someone that everyone wants to be around.

i am not and never will be special, or worthy of love.

i will never love wholeheartedly again.

and no one will ever love me.

Apr 2016 Kathy Dehaven

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Apr 2016 Kathy Dehaven

effaced

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i don't get to live life right now.

right now i have to keep all emotions in the back of my mind

right now i don't get to kiss the girl i want to kiss

right now i don't get to love who i want to love

right now i don't get to freely express myself

right now, even though i live in America

     i don't live in the land of the free.

     i live in a house full of judgmental Christians

     i live in a house that is most definitely not my home

     i live in a house that makes me not want to live at all