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Kathy Ong Sep 2016
i’ll be forever stuck with this feeling
always dealing with the pull of your person
but concealing my intentions
never revealing, never creating an intervention
but always imagining, channeling my creativity
my ability to think of ways we could be
together, maybe forever, however
reality sets in. it’ll never work between you and me
there is no guarantee that the two of us will live happily
ever after, whenever we’re together there’s no laughter
no amusement, just awkward silence and shyness
not to mention possible ****** tension,
that could cut the air without any further inspection.
we will never be satisfied with one another,
we’re incompatible or maybe we’re just uncomfortable
with dealing with the emotions present at the moment
but you’ve captured my attention, forming somewhat of a connection
that sadly won’t end well unless we’re in an alternate dimension
Kathy Ong Apr 2016
I don’t know
How it started
Where it started
Why I started this

I don’t know
How to talk to you
What to talk about
Why I keep trying

I don’t know
How to end this
When to end this
Why I can’t end this
Kathy Ong Apr 2016
Your presence excites me always
In the hallways
In the classroom
In my bedroom

I never thought it would be you
Closer we grew
Arousing me
I felt so free

I long for you to stay in bed
You’re in my head
Instead of him
I’m not that prim
Kathy Ong Jun 2016
Single, lonely, independent
You’re always on your own
You say you’re used to it
You say you don’t mind
But we both know you do
So just let me love you

Once, you were young and in love
Had a high school lover affair
You had your heart broken
You never opened up again
You became so blue
And wouldn’t let anyone love you

**** boy, man *****
One night stands became frequent
You gained a reputation
You had women falling at your feet
But you weren’t ready to be true
Or to let anyone love you

A girl came by one day
The first to make you feel anything at all
You fell for her hard
You thought you loved her
But she broke your heart too
And you thought no one would love you

Talking to you became addicting
We began to know each other more
You shared with me your stories
You gave me your trust
But you became uncomfortable with what I knew
It was too much for you - for me to love you

Staying friends was awkward
I still wanted you, and hoped you wanted me too
But I distanced myself
And I gave you your space
I was one of the few
Who ever tried to love you
Kathy Ong Apr 2016
I hate myself for wanting you
You dominate my thoughts

I hate myself for trusting you
You hurt me just like they did

I hate myself for hanging on
Seeming so desperate to have you

I hate myself for loving you
You clearly never deserved me

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