My guard dropped like an anvil from the sky
I never knew I was up so high
So alone
Freezing from the inside
Hiding lies in lust when love would've done fine

you were as elegant as hummingbirds,
sipping dripping nectar.
as soothing as the sea shells,
clenched within the sandy shores of Miami.
as gentle as the raindrops,
pouring down on a Saturday afternoon.
and as I slip into a deep sleep of euphoria,
I can only think of what little memories I've left of you.
I hope you're well.

honey, you'd lose the love given to you
but darling, promise me
to never lose yourself

i know it's not the same
and we're both drowning
drowning from the sorrow
the sorrow that is us
just leave me alone

i want to ******* die
and i believe in free verse

i haven't written in ages
and everything's a blur to me
though i might be oblivious of everything around me
i could still hear their screams
as they continued to shun me
all i could do is to shun them back
i want to have someone to talk to
but i couldn't utter the words i want to relay
i don't have a home
it's all a wreck for me
i don't have a home if it's not you
everything's a wreck
and i'm not maturing correctly
i couldn't do things right
i just couldn't see things right
i couldn't see things right
if it's not you

woke up to the sight of a tall hedged maze
as children played in their castles and cardboard boxes with their make believe friends
and as they delved in from my point of view
they realized that i am nothing but an ember
barely keeping my flames alive