i knew things were getting bad again
when the only thing i wanted to do
was sleep
but
i couldn’t go more than
a few hours
without waking up.

maybe everyone who’s in love
grows apart eventually
which is a sad truth
that anyone who is in it
doesn’t want to admit
even when they know
eventually
their time will come.

“it’s just medicine”
exactly my point.
but it will hurt me
that’s why i want it.
but it will hurt
not just me
but those who love me;
which feels like no one
but i know
there is someone.

sitting in the corner of your room
in a little ball
crying your heart out
at the change of a day
you forget how many people
you are lucky enough
to have around you.
and you can’t not forget
it just happens
while you overthink
every aspect of life.

maybe that stillness i was feeling
when i thought i was over you
was just the stillness of
my heart.
because right now
it doesn’t feel like it’s beating.