am i really getting over you?
or am i just trying
to act like i’m okay?
just to show you
that i can exist without you
but do you notice?
or care?
i already know the answer
is no.

“who do you wanna dance in the dark with?”
a question i read
on a tik tok i saw.

everyone was saying
significant others
or
past lovers
and even
celebrities.

and my response was;
“i just wanna dance in the dark
by myself,
i don’t need anyone else
to have a good time.”

and with that response
i figured i was over her.
because even yesterday
i would’ve said her.

i woke up this morning.
and the first thing i thought of
wasn’t you not being mine.

it’s weird.
i feel free
like a bird.
changed
like a new person.
calm
like the ocean waves.

i’m letting go of you.

but that was my resolution;
and here we are,
three days from 21
and i’m almost over you.

i see your name on my screen;
i hear your voice
or remember your face.
nothing happens to me.
stillness.
free.
a numbing sensation.
there’s no hatred
or love.
i think i’m getting over
you.

i watch the rain fall onto the charcoal road
drops hitting the tin roof
a euphoric sound.

i think back to the times i spent thinking of you.
a lot were associated with this weather forecast.

we had talked about romantic gestures
in the cold, dark streets of home.

and times when the sun shone
we had wanted the sky to cry.

but now they’re all lost
memories and thoughts
we will never go back to.

home is where you get comfortable.
you can be yourself
and do what you please.
you were always home to me.
but i got too comfortable
and now you’re gone.
i now have no place called home.

society makes us all believe
that we are
not good enough.
but in reality;
everyone is good enough.
more than good enough.

especially you.