Here I lay in an abysmal state. Severely weakened, but not dead.
Always made fun of, but not discouraged.
Always being pushed away, but not disheartened.

Every time I look at you, the stars inside me collide.
My brain implodes to your wit.
It's amazing how patient you are,
When it comes to dealing with my ****.

I know not how I overwhelm you.
You very well know I just want to protect you.
And eventually, love you.

Pain has been both a friend and foe.
It killed us, it shaped us.

I have spilled my words,
Full of selfishness and full of greed,
Because I was completely blinded
With you as my need.

All I wanted was to be let in,
And not forgotten,
And be a shoulder for you to lean

Lest I have forgotten,
The ways of the Man,
To be gentle and full of love,
As If being a God sent,
From the righteous Above.

Forgive me, milady,
For I retreat now, that's all I can say,
As my bravery's out,
To fight another day.

-J

It all started with your name.
I have been in dire straits,
Where death waited to claim me,
But with each fall I have risen.

I am the undying, yet you can still stab me,
I am painless, yet you still hurt me,
I am loving, yet you still push me away.

I will never stop, I will never falter,
That's what I tell myself.
While later on I'd call myself insane.
But really, there's nothing to blame.
It all started with your name.