I’m always careful with what I say
Afraid I’ll make a mistake
And be put on display.
Then the whole world would see me
But im not ready for that yet
And I may never be.
I’m scared to show who I am
In a world where
No one would even give a ****.
And I can’t shake off the feeling
That my lonely heart
Will never begin healing.

There’s a hole that can’t be filled
In my fragile heart so still
So holding my breath I wait
Trapped like a dog in a crate
But it comes and goes so often
So it always seems forgotten.
And until one day if it hits you again
Just remember that you’ll always have a friend.

When I first saw you
I couldn’t look away
And as my heart grew
You said you couldn’t stay
And when I asked you why
You said it’s because im a disease
And as you saw me cry
You left with much too ease
But now I know you were the sick one
And the hurt in you spread
So in the end it’s the poison that won
And you’ll forever be in my head

He loves me
He loves me not
He pretends to love me
As he sees my esteem rot
He says he’ll protect me
Until he gets caught
I know he lied to me
Because he loved me not
So now I’ll just love me
And I won’t be forgot.
Jordan.L

I wear it everyday, so you can’t see the real me
It hides away all my fears, and my biggest insecurity
And “what is that?” you might ask
And I’ll reply with a mask
That my biggest fear doesn’t matter to you
For I am the gum on the bottom of your shoe
That you may not notice until you look
When I have reached the end of my book.
-Jordan.L

She smiles for the camera again,
Hiding away all her fears.
And she wonders how long it’s been,
For it’s been far too many years.
She knows her life has been a silly game,
Fighting to be on top.
But there isn’t really anyone else to blame,
Except the photoshop.
One day she hopes that the world will see
Her hidden true beauty that lies inside,
Because maybe then she’ll finally be free, and never again have to hide.