I want to feel cool
I have a lot of fun
I might have a fat belly
But I still can love life
I don’t want to be like
The other mentally ill
Or intellectually disabled people
I just want to be a normie
I want to just sit there doing my art ya see
And lift myself up so easily
Even if I am big ya see
I want to have some energy
I want to be the kind of person
That doesn’t have problems
I watched the French family
On YouTube and Facebook
They are a singing family
Who loves life through their voices
It reminds me of my family
When I was young
Sonny reminds me of my brother Chris
And the parents remind me of my parents
And the young girl reminds me of myself in a way where she enjoys doing
Quarantine concerts
When I fall asleep on my sofa bed
I want to relax on the bed like a little girl
I remember my friend Patrick
He was a top friend but he just works
And goes to music concerts
I take cholesterol meds and vitamins
So why do I feel heavy
I want to feel young
I know I ain’t young anymore
But at the end of the day
I like the life I have
I don’t want to feel heavy
I get vibes that when I get my skin cancer
Removed I could die and wait till the
Messiah dies and then get reincarnated
As twins where we could do anything and feel fitter
I hate peoole who push negativity into my brain
I don’t want people pushing me down
Like I am a fat shy person
I try and be regular
I do I do I really really do

I was walking in the street
And i saw a policeman walking past
He said hi how are going
I just ignored him
The policeman wasn’t happy with that
And he stopped me saying
You must be polite
You must answer when you are spoken too
If you want to relax just go home
You see that building there
That is a Psyxhiatric centre
And because you weren’t  polite
I think you should go there don’t you
I  said *******
Are you kidding me
I am scared of the psych ward
I don’t want to go there for this
And the policeman picked
Me up and off to the psych ward
For not being polite
I didn’t talk to any nurse there
I was *******

I like halloween parties
I like to have some fun
But I never get to have
Parties like that
Because I don’t work
I would think it would be fun
And dressing up can be fun
And drinking red cordial punch
With Lolly snakes as worms  
Really makes it so Devine
I don’t want to be alone
But I am too old to have ***
I don’t want people thinking I want ***
Very hard to believe
I had ****** thoughts in 2013
I was sexually frustrated so I went to the psych ward
But when I was in there
I was telling everyone
I wanted to put my artwork on the walls
To brighten up the place a bit
And I wanted to help in the celebrations
Of parties for Xmas Halloween and Easter
And I would be dressed up as the Easter bunny
Yes I think that will be so cool
I know they are kids holidays
But it will be ****** fun oh yeah
Just good food and drinks but no beer
Because alcohol sounds so bad
I would like to have a lot of fun
And dress up as people you know
Put a devil mask on
And a coloured wig and ****
And a pitch fork to say
LET’S PARTY

Richmond ****
Richmond ****
The only reason why they won tonight
Because the umpire was going for them
Like match fixing or player doping
Because why would a team who
Has been on top all year lose
The preliminary final
You see port were attacking great
But they weren’t taking marks
When they needed to
It was like storm bearing raiders
The losers might as well not
Been in this game
I hope the Brisbane lions best Geelong
Tomorrow and Penrith beat Souths
But it was frustrating that raiders
And port lost after such a good season

I was well
When I had Foxtel in my flat at the back
Of my parents house
I did volunteer work and I went on bush walks with leap frog adventures
And I did performing arts
I was talking to people on the bus
I was well
I was happy and as soon as I started to power walk I started doing things wrong
I thought the police were going to look at me as being a great volunteering man
Who wanted to work in a good job
I could do it I just needed to relax at the end of the day and watch Foxtel
And I killed the cat and the police were looking down on me saying I did something wrong and I need to be punnished and I wanted people to understand I wasn’t a criminal
But that is what they treated me like
And I stayed there for 4 weeks and I got out
And I was saying weird things but I didn’t really want to be as sick as I was
And I got back into volunteer work and 3 years later I moved out but I had no Foxtel
So I had to watch shows on free to air
And I did and after that I got iiNet internet and it was like Foxtel and I enjoyed it but I had a negative friend even when I worked I tried to ignore him and started working 3 days a week and I was working at ainslie village and on construction sites and actew and I loved being a working man but I was running to and from work and doing art in front of the television and after a while I was throwing everything out of the balcony because I was hearing voices and the police put me in the paddy wagon and off to the psych ward where people treating me like I was an idiot and renald told them I like doing art which I did in there and some girl held a plastic fork to my arm and people said if I come to the psych ward I have to cope with the problems and everyone wasn’t very helpful with me
Never again but I could have those problems again if I don’t get help
I was well

I reckon I am kinda cute
I love to watch the AFL
And support teams that
Don’t often win that game
I like to watch Sydney v Carlton
And I say Sydney Sydney Sydney
Or Carlton Carlton Carlton
And when Adam Goodes scores a goal
I used to say onya goodsey
Now if Eddie betts scores a goal
I say onya bettsy
I used to sit there with teddy bears
As a collection item
I liked drinking lots and lots Coca Cola
And I used to say free instead of three
Saying I was cute
I liked tony lockett when he played for the swans I said well done plugger
And Barry hall took Lockett’s place
I said good onya bazza
Punch that other player
Mind you I don’t like bazza punching
I think he had alien hand syndrome
I wanted to help the homeless
Get a home cooked meal
Or have a home in a hotel
With round the clock dental and medical work
I like young kids who love to perform music going to meet and greets with their fans
I like making sure my washing is up to date
And my washing is done
I love to wear a Canberra Raiders top
And if they make the grand final
I used to go to their club to watch the game and cheer on the team with their fans
I have two adorable Neices Caitlin and Susan
Who love what they can out of life
I like bindi Irwin and her brother Robert
How they love animals saying they are just like humans
I cheer on the brumbies
To win the super 15
And even if the wallabies have no chance on winning I still like it if they fluke one
But I don’t like cheating
Cheaters never prosper
I love my life too much to **** myself
But I find it hard with people who talk about killing them selves
I think medication can soothe you
And help you get better
I love to be loud because that prevents yot
From being taken by people
I have false teeth because I acted like a kid
I think overall I am cute
Yes Brian Allan is cute
Able to get a women in minutes
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If I could change the negativity that comes out of my friend Daniels mouth I would
I would make sure he wouldn’t feel that people are doing things with his food
I would make the hospitals give him operations to make his eyes better
I would make some people keep their religious and political beliefs to themselves
I would make the television stop talking to him like bert newton waving at him and saying the hovel that you live in
I would make him feel the people aren’t laughing at him as he says something on the computer
I would make him not feel That something bad will happen when he does something artistic because art therapy is great
I would make him feel that the liberal party won’t play with the phones when we are talking
I would make him enjoy the lifestyle he likes to do
I would make him not believe it would be cool if everyone likes the same thing, we need everyone to be different
I would invent a happy pill to make him
Not have all this
So he won’t feel like swimming in batehaven to the deep water so he will drown
I want to help him make him positive
But it is hard