Hitting the dirt
Again and he spins
Averts the impossible
Loses but then he wins
Taking the swings
With the pauses
And the misses with the hits
Always minds his causes
And takes the chunks with the bits

Out and about
He's a man for all people
They scream and they shout
But he's no feeble
Minded trickster with those
Lying sleeves and words
He's the one they chose
He's not just for the birds
No - he don't subscribe to the herd

When it's all said and done
And he unties his laces
He says he's had fun
Open and closing cases
Taking and stealing bases
Like it's just part of his day
Running and gone with no traces
It's not about the pay
No - no, just part of the day

The melancholy of the city
It propels, it repels me
The darkness of the streets
At night when we meet
Is all I've ever wanted

Street lights glowing maniacally
Above cars zipping inherently
Owing their lives to these people
Moving, shuffling, toppling sheeple
Money is the name of the game, this game
Either you have it or you don't... but it's all the same

You see, your face is something interesting
To me I've never really felt as if this thing
The pump of my heart in rhythm with
The steps you're taking and you don't give a ****
But it's all alright because I've got no respect
For anything and I never care to check

                  To see
                             If you're like me

The film burnt out
With the past
Your eyes glint
In the moonlight
I saw my life
Light up
With the strife
Of the everyday struggle
When your therapy
Enraptured me, enraptured me

Your mouth
Showed me
Introduced everything
Of what was in store for me
It allowed the flow
Of the blue current
To take hold
And I appreciate
Your whole and bold
Poisons and gifts
To take me over
To show me
To allow me
To see
What I was meant to see

With each strike of a key
As silly as it seems
Your eyes have been used to see
Exclusively
For too long

From each sunset to day break
My soul, my body seems to ache
Please, here is my whole being to take
Offered up as my hands and knees shake
It seems there are no suitable takers

Through the thick of the night
The fog over the river's so bright
With moon shining high exuding white light
In times like these we used to hold eachother so tight
But now we're nothing but my memory's dream

Now I am stuck and getting lost in the woods
Seems like it happens more often than it should
Like all the times I said I could
And every time I said I would
Without a second thought

But now I think twice

People never listen
to me.
Because they know
the truth.
That I've grown
to be
a naysayer and
truth bringer.
True honesty is
honestly
not something they're
used to.
So if you don't
want to
hear what I have
to say,
then please, please
never ask me
what I'd do.

I got a secret that'll make you sick
I know something that'll make you think
I'm always there when the air gets thick
I'll be there to fade your red to pink

I know you know
That I know what you know
As confusing as that sounds
Nothing matters when you've hit the ground
But getting up running is what I've learned to do
If I learned it from anyone, it's got to be you
What does it hurt to make someone's day?
Oh, what bad is there in doing the right thing?

Just let me know when you need what you do
Cuz I'll be right there no matter what I'm going through
I'll try to turn the light back on, try to flip the switch
Try to pull you up and outta that ditch
The only thing I ask for in return
Is for a place in your heart, down the roads I turn
Making my way, doing my thing
As you bleed all over my heart-string

I know I'm coming off
As whiny, you scoff
At my childishness and
How I refuse to bend
But it just seems to
Me that all of it plus you
The whole world operates
In the opposite of what you dictate

You can't push too hard at all
Because you only end up on the floor
Clutching your hair and humming
Crazy on the doorstep, punching the door
You always end up punching the door

I can fight
Words
Like they are
Wars

And

I can drop
Jaws
Like they are
On fire

And

I can ****
Hate
Because it is
Alive

And

I can hold back
Tears
Like they are
Death

And

I can fight
Fears
Like they are
Years
Of
Wasted
Time

And...

I can go
With
The flow
For only so
Long

Because there's no chance in Hell
Fires burning for a hundred nights and a day
No future as far as I can tell
Inside my warm bed where I lay
So just leave me alone
Yeah just walk on your own

Things broke in the morning
When everything was cool
I thought I was yearning
But your touch just makes me shudder
I had to leave the spot
And just let it die where it was
Because when things get too hot
I'm not one to stick around
No, I'm gone without a sound

i was flailing.
floating, barely.
my heart was tearing.
but i was landing.

i got better.
i impressed her.
like a lawyer
i convinced her.
i was the only one for her.

Yeah, its done now
I saw your eyes
Glinting and shimmering
Before the sunrise
But now on my own
And you are too
The words you said
Weakened me like a flu

We came at dawn
Naked and cold
The wind blew strong
Suddenly felt so old
With limbs paralyzed
By the thought
Of the end of the line
But I fought

Now I'm stronger
I must admit
These things happen
And people don't give a ****
But from within you
You can sense
Your hearts aglow
And no longer so dense

Here's to thoughts
Here's to words
Here's to communication
Here's to discourse

Here's to rationality
Here's to logic
Here's to what we know
Here's to the truth

Here's to the wrongs
Here's to the unfortunate
Here's to the let-downs
Here's to moving on

In a place
Where the blood
Flows like wine
And the wine
Tastes of poison

Things seem so
Complicated
On the surface
But beneath
The thinned skins
Lies the stuff
Thats brings knees
To floors

No, I'm not really scared
I don't see the point in being frightened
Being strong can't compare
In the end you are enlightened

I'm just so happy to see you here
Nothing can curve my mind now
Baby there is no fear
Don't be afraid, I can show you how

Looking back in anger is so tempting
But at the end of the rope is nothing
When you've completed what you've been attempting
It's so fulfilling to know that you're the only thing
Still standing

Because all you have is you
Trust is a trait that the naive hold dear
And you know it's true
The only thing is you that you have to fear

The great lengths that you endure
Are what the lines in your face stand for
So just keep the light flowing through
Just keep on being you

Into wonderment
Pondering permanence
Whether to weather
The cycle of storms
Am I even getting better?

Decreased desire to detach
But still unfastening the hatch
Going somewhere stationary
While still wishing I was withering
Where will I be buried?

And when?

There's something to say
Well, a lot to say
About the clarity
One feels
After you've moved on
From someone
Or something
What have you
However
Right now
I don't think I'm in the right mind space
To accurately describe the feelings
Going through
My head
My heart
My lungs and
My body
Right now

So
I'll just stop now

They wanted him to go
To disappear in the woods
All alone

He wanted to leave
To live on a beach
All alone

But they just couldn't do it
They could never let him go
By himself

Because they knew he'd never
He'd never come back

So they tied him to the barn
They beat his limbs dead
They taped his mouth closed
Wrapped a bag around his head

He moaned and he bled
And they just laughed and pointed
"He's done for," they agreed
But they could never stick a man like him

When the sun went down
And the moon shined bright
He gained the strength
To stand and fight

He shook off the ropes
The bag and ties
He coughed up the last of the blood
And soon held his head high

He looked to the distance
At the house and all the animals
And smiled and smiled
Because he was done with them fools

such
high vibrations
call for celebrations
like graduations
or transitions
from the low
low depths
of the deprived
floors of the
atlantic or pacific.

many
nights spent floundering
and pounding
on locked doors
like i actually
wanted to know
what laid so
apathetically on the
other side.

but
now with horns
and the might i've shorned
be it from the gods
of the greeks
or romans
i prepare
for a fight
for in dubious
battle
i shake
and rattle
while
inside it is so quiet
like a pit
in the midst
of a war fought
by men stripped
of guns, grenades
and vocal chords.

She'll never know
how I truly feel.
Because I go
about my business
swiftly and silently.
My heart feels
locked up like
it's been sentenced
to 25 to life.
And there's nothing
I can do to end this strife.
It's like a burning Hell
inside of my head.
She rings my bell
and I feel dead.
But I'm not.
I'm still breathing.
Feeling kind of hot.
Bobbing and weaving
through the jungles
of my love.

Crying isn't something you learn
It is ingrained
Death isn't something to yearn
Until you're strained
Anxieties itching and scratching
Good learns to fly
Problems killing and aching
When the bad feels like stopping by

Before you give birth to a child
You should have probably grown yourself
When it's time to step out of the wild
You should have probably gotten some help
Don't ever be stupid enough to turn down someone else
In the end you'll figure it out
It's time you shed your skin and come out of your shell

Taking the pieces of words of others with good intentions
Use your head, use your thoughts, cut off your makers
I can't seem to remember that thing you mentioned?
The other day when you were on your knees
Punching the wall and pleading for attention
You little baby, you little animal, you ******* fetus
You should've thought twice before you left this lying around

Write me a nice letter
Tell me it'll get better
And staple it to my forehead
Before I sink into my bed
All play and no work
You'd think it couldn't hurt
All work and no play
Kills you slowly, day by day
The Yin and the Yang
The gun goes "bang, bang"
Through and through and through
You'll find the lies buried in the truth

See through you
and all that you do.
Never trusted a girl
who sounded that sweet.
Seen my share of the world
and I've wept for weeks.
Earthly things no longer
take me by surprise.

It's what they all say:
"I love you".
Working, trying to play and
"I love you".
Nothing sounds so bland as
"I love you".

Saw you brushing yourself off
in uncut grass, under tall trees.
For things they tend to scoff at,
I take my leave.
Everything they all value
I see as dirt.
Deep down you know the truth
and it hurts.
Rise above and cut the root,
watch it burn.

Watch her lips
The way the words float from her mouth
Through the air
They seem to flutter
And then dissipate
Just like that

Watch her legs
The way they bend at the knee
Like an animal
Ready to pounce
With each and every step
Without effort

And last but not least
Keep your eyes
On her eyes
Two flickering, batting
Mysterious doors of light
That slam shut
Just as you reach the doorstep

What a performance

why is it so hard
to get my head
on an even keel?
and to fill with lead
would be so simple

I have nothing to hold onto
when the lights go dark
I never know what to do
but at the same time, I do
I don't know what to do

I feel the end coming on
and a new start beginning
but I'm not sure it's worth it
to go on and keep on losing
I've lost everything I've ever won

People on this Earth
Don't seem to notice
When another walks by
Nobody chose this
This stretched rope we walk
Seems to thin out
With each and every step
There's no way out

Either you make a move
Or stay still
Both ways you end up dying
Even by way of pure power of will
That rope is always there
Staring you in the ******* face
Taunting you and telling you you're nothing
All you know is you've got to get out of this place

Get in the road
Rip the engine up
**** that twisted path
Even what's "right" is ****** up
You have to carve your own way
With every ounce of your being
Every drop of blood
Just stop bobbing and weaving
You've got to learn to take the hit
You've got to learn to stop giving a ****
You have to get up and move on, inch by inch, bit by bit

She said
Why don't you go to bed
With me?
It'll be
Like nothing
You've ever been
So I said back
You give me heart attacks
I just can't
Can't put myself through that

No, I won't subject myself
To you
I can't do it anymore

I tripped over
To her apartment
That night
Against my better judgment
Came through
Knocked on her door
What could I do?
I knew I shouldn't anymore
So when she said
That her nights been crazy
Her heads a mess
Barely balanced on her shoulders
I realized
That enough was enough
Told her
It would all be alright
It'll all be alright
Don't worry
I'm not in a hurry
As I walked out
It was all a lie
**I let slip happily through my teeth

i wanna do you
might wanna own you
see right through you
i see the one, lone you

in the end we'll both be unhappy
because our childhoods were ******
we can blame and go on for days
but we'll still listen to what our mothers say
can't ever seem to get a grip
we should take a long trip

and when we finally go
it'll be like all those tv shows
happy, happy, sad, happy
i want you to trap me
you're the only one to me
think we can set eachother free

I never knew you to be so coy
You're making me feel just like a boy
Usually you're all out there and that
Attracted me because I'm not like that
But when you tense up and hold me close
I couldn't be more confident that it's you that I chose

How dare you think I'd be that way
Was it something I do or something I say?
I'm a slave to repetition, I don't know why
It's all a competition, I just want my piece of the pie

Walk the edge
Where the waves are black and white
Your feet pad the sand
As the water greets and says goodbye

Cyclic motions
To and fro
Come forth then go back
Just let it go

All of the light
And all of the dark
This polar place
Is where I felt a spark

Inside my head
Eased by the certainty
That everything is one
And nothing is left out

Oh baby
How you confuse me
It's like everything
Can be nothing
I really like you
And now, I think you like me
But you wont bite me
Hard enough for me to tell

It's like you're in then you're out
You whine and pout
You don't know what I'm talking 'bout
When I ask you
When I ask you
When I ask you what you mean

As the days pass
The nights drown in the sea
The wind always picks up
Just as you see me
I tend to have that effect
It's just a gift, I guess
But whenever I give up
You're never ready to let
To let it go

So as I sit here by the window
Thinking of you and your breath
And those times we sat side by side
In your, car going so fast
The wind picked up just as it always does
Your hair dancing in time with it
And your mouth humming
To the tunes on the radio

Why it has to be this way
Never has made so much sense
No it's never been clear
This year
Not really anything has
But it's a build up
Just a slow accumulation
To the ******
And the burst of the joys
Yet to come
I suppose

Who stole my loving?
Who removed my joy?
Surgical instruments
Sterilized silver knives
Who's winning the fight
When neither side is right?
Impending disaster areas
Coated in radioactive slime
I think it's time
I think it's time
This is the time

Bombs sail coolly overhead
Warm sunlight directs the flight
Circular motions around our head
Before everything goes white

Why do you feel this way?
Who did this to you?
Since when have you hated everything?
You're too young to hate the world
You're 21 and you think you know it all
Letting bad days seep into the night
And bad nights always ruin the next day
Not always
But almost always

In the early mornings
When the Sun comes through the blinds
You'd think that I'd be yearning
For my stress to unwind
But you'd be wrong, wrong, wrong
I'm doing just fine, yeah
And because of that I wrote this song

It's hard to remember what the Sun feels like
When it's cloudy and the wind burns your skin
But you've got to take a picture with your mind
You can never appreciate loss when you win all the time
So soak it it, soak in everything with all you've got
Let the though and emotion and words come to you
I don't get why everyone wants to be a robot
These days

Sit down, take off your shoes
Breathe in, you've got nothing to lose
It's in your head, you're in my bed
"I love you so much" is what I said
Breathe in

Everyone knows that rhyme pays
So I don't know why more people don't try
Everyone knows they can't stay
After they jumble their meanings in between lies

I don't think people get the gist of this thing
This thing called life in which were all our own king
These situations brought up just so we can get up and sing
And thinking of ways to slow down with more *******

People try to ******* you
But if my memory serves me well
I've gotten pretty good sorting **** from the true
And if you wrap your stink in perfume and try to sell it
To me I believe I will leave at the scent of the fever

I don't wanna die
Without having said every word
And meant them all
Don't wanna have to explain myself
When all my cards are on the table
For everyone who wants to look to see
Don't wanna leave
Without saying my peace
Don't ever wanna see you again
If I'm gonna be deceased
Before my time
I think I deserve this rambling
Because when my mind runs
I can't catch up
No matter how hard I try
How rough I train
My brain always wins
And that's not a bad thing
I'm very rarely bored
But a night like this hasn't come and gone
In a very long time
As I lay in bed
Fighting the swift stabbing of these thoughts
I just broke a sweat
Its all true
My my blood pressures rising

I just want another go
I just want to let go
I just want to see
I just want to be

Things seem so cheap
Things make it so I can't sleep
Things never seem to look up
Things always make life ****

I told you why
I told you I'd fly
I told you it'd end
I told you I wouldn't bend

But it's all good
But I'm alright
Because in this neighborhood
Everyone loses sight

broke my spirit not once, but thrice
everyone eventually pays the price
at your house, at your own expense
i wanna quit but nothin' makes sense
because i've borrowed everything i've ever lent

You search,
it's yours to find.
And move,
you've been too kind.
I'm not for you,
not to be confused.
With the truth,
because I never can tell.

Nothing seems so funny
When you have no money
And you can't give and
Therefore warrant no reception
Of anything
Gift or gaze or gallivanting
About

So you have to spend
Time
Since you've no dime
Or dollar
Slaving and selling
Your soul and trying so hard
To see through the ******
And mustard gas that makes itself
Evident once you realize where that your job
Is good for absolutely nothing other than
That feeling of being able to give
And, thus, to receive

Anything at all

I'm over here
Watching you kiss her
I've never feared
Being alone, alone
But now time is passing
And more time has gone
Nothing is lasting
When it is the way it is, it's hard to have fun

I get those nagging brain twitches
When I'm alone at night and in my bed
They eat at me from the undermost part of me
I just can never seem to get this wrapped around my head
Things aren't turning out, no they never have
And now I'm stuck here trying to figure it out
Oh it's so hard for me to forget it and just laugh
But this is the way, yeah, I think this is the way it has to be

don't you know that
your light compliments my dark?
and everything and all that
we encounter transforms into something not as stark?

the lights on the highway
pass me by like broken souls.
on my way to you
i know you'll fill my empty bowl.

hieroglyphics and strange markings
up and down your body.
i can't make them go away
but i can make it so you won't see
them as something that's harmed you.

swim deep
never creep
let them know
it's you
find it
take a little bit
you are only
good for what
you need

turn tables
switch sides
the Clark Gable
do it for the ride
eyes wide
mouth open
wind whipping
don't need a bullpen

For the sky and the ground
Don't know where I'm bound
Ground into the dirt, it hurts
Pound for pound, it lurks
In thin air, inconceivable
Behind the boulders, unbelievable

It won't leave me
Chronic electricity
And no one can see
The way it dries my leaves

Hangs me out to dry
On the gallows, strong rope
Strong-armed into a lie
Might as well just choke
On my fickle tongue, too young
To have a body feel so old

dawn to dusk
dust to dust
trust me, trust us
undo these cold handcuffs

you caused a fuss
i missed my bus
they were staring at us
two big oaks, sapped of luck

we've been ******
since the start
this life *****
but play your part
push that cosmic shopping cart

feet don't fail me now
take me to the gates
that divide the sour and the sweet
where good is love and love is what I hate
I don't choose what I pick
it's just always been that way
forever makes me sick
please don't ask me to stay

don't get me wrong
I want all of you
your arms, your legs, your ***
baby, you know I'm always true
my words have never meant
anything more than I put on
nothing less than what I've sent

so please just take it for what it's worth
don't try to read into what's not there
dead words have never asked for rebirth
just do it for me, and I'd appreciate if you cut that stare
those glaring eyes never cease to sear holes
and they never quite, even when you're tired
they simmer hotter than ever when your hearts turned cold

Life blurs before your ****** eyes
Just as they slam shut
A wind pushes you across the line
You hear a whisper hit your drum
You feel your heart beat in your chest
In your warm crimson bath you wait
It makes me want to cry when you think you know what's best
When you've never been the hunter, but the hunter's bait

i was just a kid when i saw the worst things
the worst that i've ever seen
so please excuse me if my voice cracks when i sing
because it's affected me

you don't owe me anything
so take your leave if i'm too much to bear
in my dreams i've seen things
but i've been awake for so long, i don't even care

i know i should be thankful
so i pretend to be
but right now i'm the opposite of grateful
and i'm pretending not to be

If you want to live
Then you have to die
And if you want to smile
Then you have to cry
Just listen to the ground
And kiss the roots of trees
For your head used to pound
Until you allowed yourself to see

I was drifting through perilous pines
Skipping stones and raking through rhymes
Like leaves on a warm autumn afternoon
Staring skyward, wishing the sun wouldn't wither so soon

When a realization ******* my reaction time
As raindrops ran rigid down my head, a sign
I figured, maybe foolishly, I should head toward the house on the hill
With the dull colored window panes that curiously caused a chill
Down my spine, like a spider creeping
And still
I found, toward the house I was heading

Upon arriving at the front garden
The wind picked up, my countenance hardened
I hoped I had trekked there for a fruitful find
Then I looked down, heard a sound and a saw a line
In the grass that looked to lead around back
The sound was a whirring loud enough to give a heart attack

I wandered around the house, the noise still echoing in my head
Thoughts of witches and ghosts lingered like I was a child before bed
Having made my way to the side of the sulking structure
Yes, it seemed to sulk there, like a heart that had been punctured
An old tractor with worn wheels sat, facing me
But a faint glinting in the grass beneath the tire was all I could see
So I moved in, bent down and heard the noise again!
Just as I got close enough to see, my knees gave in
The tractors engine had started, and the wheel splattered my head