Meadows with rows of flowers.
Trees encircle them as if to protect there innocence.
Untouched,
Except by nature.
Feel the fall breeze.
Smell the cold fragrance,
Isolated from the world.
To think,
And to be yourself.
Closing my eyes and see your picture on my shelf.
I will be a mist in the wind,
Waiting for you to come home.
Where you have a lonely heart to mend.
And may my love send you back down that empty road you roam.
And I hope in your search,
You see me in your eyes when you look in the mirror.
And maybe I could be lucky enough,
That you might find a tear.
It seems so long since you've been gone.
You left without saying goodbye.
I walk entwined within the trees,
As if to hide behind there outstretched arms.
They seem to comfort my hurt.
Only the leaves can hear my cries.
In my eyes,
I can see your smile.
In my heart,
I can hear your laughter.
I hope in your travel,
You find your way home.
I will still be here,
Just the way you left me.
I will be a mist in the wind,
Waiting for you to come home.
Where you have a lonely heart to mend.

I wonder what your doing tonight.
No doubt,
Drinking away my memory.
You can pretend I don't exist.
You can walk the other way,
But you can't ignore the feelings that's between us.
It happened that very first day,
You can walk away from the phone.
But you can't my letters.
You can act like we never met.
But you know,
I haunt you every night.
So keep telling yourself that I don't care.
Listen to your heart,
You can't deny the love we share.
It might be a windy morning,
When you come to me.
It might be the darkest of night.

But I guarantee you,
My love will come through.

You'll never hide your love again,
Or drink away my memory.

Sober, am I really sober?

My mind has become idle
Even in this sobriety
That’s been gifted in pain
These hands have been worked
And my flesh is shedding
Along with the trees this fall
I’ve been sober for a while
But I’ve adopted a new high
A detrimental self-determined
Deterioration of myself
Trying to escape the reality
Of the life I’ve carved
In the midst of this whirlwind
I can only cling to the purity
That lingers in the silence
Before I shut my eyes for rest
When I’m lying in my bed
Beneath the lies I had told
With all the truth I painted blue
I can see the sober mind
That's sitting still in my head
With all the regrets  I long to toss
Into the pile of bones I buried
With the past I hope to forget
But I am shaped by this all
I am the product of a history
That was written by plenty
Only to be lived by one

In this sober body I call mine

I won't hold my breath.
This time it's different.
Measuring the distance of everything we've loved,
Just to throw it all away.
You've made the choice to go.
Your heart matches the color of a shadow.
So black,
So broken,
And fragile.
I'll hide my tears out in the rain,
Waiting for someone better to say my name.
Dancing alone,
To the sound of a million heartbeats.

Today the sky is so blue,
I sit and count the clouds thinking of you.
You've colored my world with sunshine,
You've knocked down a wall i used to hide behind.
Hiding in hurt,
Never knowing what love truely was.
You reached your heart out to me,
Unsure of yourself as I was.
And two hearts grew together and became one.
How can I ever repay you,
For everything you've done?
All I have to offer is my love,
Forever true.
I will wait for you as long as it takes.
I will never be satisfied until you are standing by my side.
And as long as I have love with you,
I will never have to hide.
Tonight,
The sky seems so far.
I sit and count the stars,
Thinking of you.

You can't count all the times I've missed you so.
The thrill of your touch again tonight.
And me not wanting to let you go.
When will I see you again?
Why should I care?
You only see me when someone else isn't there.
I know your restless,
Not ready to settle,
Not yet.
But when your ready you'll fall in my net.
Because I'll always be there when someone turns you down.
I guess you could say,
I'm your funny little clown.
People point out your bad,
But I only see good.
If only they knew you like I do,
They would.
Because I love you.
Not crazy about you all the time.
But in my heart I'm true.
So when your low I'm always around.
Just come running back to your funny little clown.

Sometimes I have to find an in between,
So I can break the ice.
And when I do I can slip through.
Sometimes I cant comprehend a meaning,
Or overlook the littlest thing.
I look for a gaze,
Or touch.
Then I can capture what I want so much.
I want to be close enough,
To see a vision of myself in your eyes.
I want to view the possibilities in your smile.
I want to enlighten myself with you awhile.
I need more than a glance,
Or a quick hello.
What you are thinking is what I need to know.
Could it be something more than what your showing?
Or did I miss out on knowing?
I want to be close enough,
To hear your whispers in my ear.
I want to see into our future,
Of the happiness we could share.
Could we be just two hearts that never joined.
A chance that was never taken.
Or a love that was bound to be forsaken.
Sometimes I have to find an in between.
So I can break the ice.
And when I do,
I can slip through and hold your heart for a lifetime.