John Edward Smallshaw

John Edward Smallshaw Feb 3

*** in the..
...pity it was only a dream
because I live in a small town
where nothing ever goes down
unless it's the miners
going down the pits.

John Edward Smallshaw Feb 3

Strange

Dangling over those pits of desire,
eyes like red coals and body on fire

do you think you'll ever get there to
the other side or is the chasm that you
opened just a bit too wide?

and if it is what will you do
who will you cry to?

***?
On the last day
when you put the last sea shell
to your ear
the only thing that you will hear
are the grains of sand.

John Edward Smallshaw Feb 3

As far as the day goes...

Rainbows we danced on
crosses we hung from
dreams that we clung to
are all a piece of you.

and we outlived them
grew old and shelved them
and what remains
are the aches and pains
which nobody wants
but everyone gains,

it's a circus ring and we all bring
our lions and clowns
smiles and frowns
to put on a show
and then we go.

John Edward Smallshaw Feb 3

The penny will drop

when everything stops
except for clocks that still tick.

we're being picked off like flies
and all you say is
everyone dies
but that's lies
nobody dies
it's a summer holiday
in a heavenly hideaway
that lasts longer than forever.

I've imagined nothing before
it's like
footprints filled in
by a million years wide
so
as long as
I belong as
a part of it all
and not sat alone
on the celestial wall
I'm happy.

John Edward Smallshaw Feb 2

Bollo ks

Skip the intro?
I've ******* been the intro
and it's
not where you want to go.

Show and tell?
hell
has a handcart for you.

Relaxing
finally
because
work has in it for me,

a day off
is like a liferaft
to a drowning man.

Feb 2

owls at dawn

three penises

I woke from a dream this morning
with three penises
and three sets of testicles
sprouting from my groin

I was astonished
wondering about the implications
could they all perform?
could I have *** with three women?
or three men?
which gender did these penises prefer?
and how would that work?

or would I be too embarrassed by this mutation to ever have *** again?
I imagined a hand touching down there and felt
extreme embarrassment
no, this was definitely the end of my *** life
I would never have *** again

then something shifted
in my mind
and I woke
from THAT dream
original factory settings restored (I checked)

relieved (so relieved)

this was one problem the universe had not thrown in my lap (haha)
I can still see those tiny peckers though
like a bouquet of newborn masculinity

what high jinks
are going on
at the bottom of the ocean in my brain?

#camus #absurdity #gender #dream #reality #existence

Feb 2

Renee

Untitled

Rain forgets itself.
It falls, it breaks, it unnames.
I long to follow.