I want so badly
for you to message me
Anything,
I just want to know
That at least once
I’ve crossed your mind
And you couldn’t
resist the urge
To reach out to me
I want so badly
for some sort of
reassurance
That,
to you,
I didn’t mean
nothing

You attacked me
In ways i forgot
i could be attacked
You stumbled innocently
Across my weak spot
And when i tried
To fight You off
i realised You’d gone.
i was staring at myself,
Still under attack.

I understand
But it hurts
I never asked to be everything
I just wanted to be enough
You made me feel like I was
But now you’ve chosen her
And I get it
I would too
She’s beautiful
She doesn’t have to try
She doesn’t care
She’s exciting in all the ways
I’m not
I love her
So I get why you would
Want to love her too

He felt, to me, like Safety
And I want to WANT to feel safe

So I played the part
And he hurt me anyway

How do I trust myself
To choose safety

When the obvious option
Isn’t even safe
For me

How do you break up with someone
You were never even dating?

I never bothered saving your number in my phone
So that when you left, I wouldn’t feel any more alone