we once dreamed of a paradise,
those sunsets and sunrise;
but of these tears we couldn't hide,
i'll always be by your side

a place where all lost hope is found,
chances beneath the ground;
but of these failures in dawning light,
i'll seek courage to fight

we've imagined beautiful sceneries,
to escape from all the miseries;
but of these mysteries sudden unfold,
i'll offer my life till we're old

we once dreamed of a paradise,
those sunsets and sunrise;
but of these chaos like a caged dove;
i'll build paradise with our love

wanting while not wanting you
these scars stained my heart,
but wanting while not wanting you
gives me the courage to start

wanting while not wanting you
i'll just keep this steady pace,
but wanting while not wanting you
slowly filling the empty space

wanting while not wanting you
i have reasons not to fall,
but wanting while not wanting you
is just denying the inevitable

wanting while not wanting you
is what i ever long before,
but wanting while not wanting you
makes me want you even more

your languor
for our elation;

your torment
for our delight;

your debts
for our salvation;

your hunger
for our appetite

the good thing about being lied
is you'll learn how
to cry
in silhouetted corner
of your room
that once
was your world—

the good thing about being lied
is you'll know how
to smoke
that piece of cigarette
hiding in your closet
to get rid of his kisses
that still linger
in your breath—

the good thing about being lied
is you'll get hurt so bad
that you'll realize
the feeling
of how it excites you
to be alone again

my legs are heavy
before i even realize
that i'm awake,
words are floating
in my veins
trying to escape
the endless
stream of thought,
imprisoned
beyond the walls
of my mind—
i failed
to pen mysteries
in a blank canvas

she cut her arm
with lonely blades
to feel
the nectar of pain
inside her heart
then hide the scars
to look
perfect again

my eyes betrayed
me again,
unshed tears
engraved
on my face
with pain
and longing,
i've missed you