iloveyou
“still” is a state irrelevant
because
i never for one second
doubted that i do

of course you’ve hurt me
like there’s no more tomorrow
i hold that in
my heart of hearts
because i know

ilove you
and that’s okay
you don’t have to
love me
back again anyway

tell you things that shouldn’t matter any longer;

i take comfort
that i could hurt you
no more
no disappointments
and failed expectations
i can most safely affirm
you still remember
i once told you

iloveyou more than my heartaches and pain.

then you pushed me away
and now i am stuck
waiting for you to say
you are pulling me back
the door’s closed
but not locked
you say

i tried the ****
turned clockwise and counter
it’s not movin’, it’s jammed
so i ask, is there someone else than me?
no one’s knocked yet
you say
the door is closed but not locked
you repeat

but how come i need a key?
i slammed the door
and there
i was hurt once more.

you are dealt with cards
pocket aces!
***** and a heart
your mind celebrated
you have been gambling for so long
cards as such don’t come so often
a sure win you say,
maybe its my lucky day!

you raise a bet, certain you’d take the ***
flop was layed, two clubs and a heart
you check, one player bet and the other calls
now’s the turn, a diamond ace!

a semi-backdoor!
you thought so you go all in
here comes the river, another club
you confidently show your cards
but you take no notice
there are three clubs
in the community cards

you have three of a kind
but the other has a flush.

you lost the ***
now out of the game
bad beat commentators say
you answer
i’d be smarter the next tournament i’d play.