forgetting him

means to force all of my happiness out of memory.

I don't think I'm capable of doing just that.

I don't know
what to do

when you leave for college
in the fall. shall I
apply to that school?
shall I visit you?

or

should I let you be alone.
as that is what you really want.

I wanna call it a night,
Or should I call it the end of life
my blood turns red
while your fake tears spread

How do you feel
behind the coffin
Seeing me rest
Does it ease your soul?

you wanted me to call it a night,
you wanted me to end my life

Both you and I hit things off right
But where did we go wrong?

Was it after our first date to the ice cream parlor in town?
Was it the carnival we went to?
Was it when you stopped showing interest?

tell me

what are i going to do

when

the best part of me
was you

?

you left me
that night.

and

you didn't once
care to turn around
and
see if I was still
standing there.

you left.
you walked away.
don't you dare put any,
of the blame on me.

I miss you

If that isn't good enough to get you to come back,

Then I don't know what is