I'm only 13
I have been through more than you want to believe
more than people will admit

but no one will believe
i am only 13

the things i say
I wouldnt be able to see

but yet I am
I dont care if you listen to me
if you think im 30
but thats ok
I dont need you approval for my age

.At the middle of the bridge I stood, looking at the rocks below
One hundred feet, the drop would ****. I steeled myself, prepared to go.
Just as I was to hop the fence and get it over with and done.
I heard the sound of air brakes squeal; a bus stopped on its local run.

One passenger got off the bus; He was an old man grey and gruff.
The lines around his eyes suggested that he had often had it rough.
He looked at me with stern fixed glare and read my reason for being there.
With gentle words he saved my life, talked me off of my despair.

The years have passed, some good, others not
But never again was I in that spot, where I was tempted to walk on air.
I’m fortunate that he was there, an unlikely angel for an unspoken prayer.

You always say you want me to leave
and that you don't want to hurt me
that you don't want to bring me down
because your falling

What you don't understand is
that i wont fall
I have a strong foundation in God
strong enough to hold the both of us
and you wouldn't be falling
if you stopped jumping off

Stop pretending your not happy
stop pretending you don't feel joy
you can feel
but you wont admit its real
you cant admit your getting better
your pain comforted you like a wool sweater
but there is something better
something that doesn't make you lie
something that will be with you all the time
something that is right there waiting for you to open your eyes
you would see if you tried

but you have to choose to stand with me
neither me or God can make you believe
make you see
there is still good in you
you have a home
but you have to open your eyes
and see on your own

Hi im sorry you guys
I wont be posting for a while where im going doesn't have internet, so see you later

You like to party, I am a partier
You like to wander, I am a wanderer
Your thighs are the closet to Narnia
Is it cool if I go and get lost in that?

I'm the lion, the witch in the wardrobe
Massage my lap, I have a sore bone
Of course cold on the dance floor
Like an Eskimo's toes in the North Pole
With both toes poking out of two holes
In the Eskimo socks, I'm hot
Like a cauldron from a warlock
Wearing sweatpants in a sauna
Who's your father? I'm not

I'm *******' Raven Bowie and here's my ****
Rooster, ****-a-doodle-doo sir
Take a hit of the hooka, now make it drop

Girl's ***** was bigger than the stomach of Rick Ross
Holy mother mountain of tender tendon to get lost in
Bounce, bounce, that castle *****, that bottom
Make it wobble, wobbly-waddle 'til my third leg has to hobble

You don't want to look back on this night
And think I should have been freaking on a *****
Freak-freaking on a *****

My whole life i hid behind the curtain of lies
so i can hide from the real me
but as i hid i got rug burn
from regret, depression and hate
irritating my skin from the curtains
I close my eyes to forget it all
and as the burn infected me
all people could see was the scars
so i went deeper and deeper into the curtains
and now i cant find a way out
because this darkness of suicidal thoughts
is coming in from all directions
and i dont know how to stop the burns
so i keep running deeper and deeper
then i realize i was falling apart
the rash had started to infect my bones
and was decomposing my ability to feel
to love
the deeper i ran the more of me i lost
then you came a long
you told me to come out
that it was okay
that you didn't care if i had burns
but i pushed you away
I didn't want you to follow me into the abyss
I cared about you to much
for you to get lost like this
all you said was
**open your eyes
your not in an abyss
your just hiding behind the curtain

She wont give up
calling me
saying sorry
please *****
Im not going through this again
no way

but then my body wont listen to reason
and i fall in love with you again
anyway

People always say the eyes are windows to the sole

but i gave my soul away

so if look into my eyes

and you see nothing

you will be certian

that i am empty

He had 23 scuff marks on his shoes

and he knew exactly how many tiles from the wall

his locker was

because he always had his head down

maybe if his head is low

they wont see his red eyes

maybe if his head is low

they wont noticed he cried

maybe if his head is low

no one would notice he wanted to die

he didn't believe there was a tomorrow

but only if he looked up to the sky

he would of felt the sun shine

Hope was the burning fire
that kept her alive on the dark lonely nights
on a island named depression

Then a gust of Hate
blew her fire out

and when her fire went out
she saw an escape off the island
called suicide

My body aches
Because I miss you like the sands miss the kiss if the waves
I miss you like the horizon misses the sun every morning
I miss you so much that I can't function
I feel like I'm going through withdrawal
And my skin crawls for the taste of your lips
I miss you
But I know that's not enough to win you back

Can you fall in love with someone

by the words they speak

I might be crazy

but im in love with the thoughts you think

even though i have never seen your face

I already am in love

completely

Love is something that always leaves me

wanting

something more

I see your beautiful face
And i almost forget
Your actually a monster

They say that times were tough then
That money was very tight
But I remember my childhood
And I know that can't be right

Mom would cook our dinner
Dad came home at five
We were all sitting at the table
Waiting for him to arrive

We wouldn't eat from a microwave
Or a restaurant down the street
We all ate Mom's home cooking
And boy that can't be beat

We didn't eat in front of the TV
Or with a phone in our hand
We weren't plugged into a stereo
bopping to the latest band

We would all sit at the table
Everyone in their place
There were never any surprises
We recognized every face

Brothers to the left of me
Sisters to the right
That's the way we ate dinner
Every single night

We laughed we joked we talked we ate
We were a family don't you see
Though some may have been raised poor
You can see it wasn't me

We ate collards we ate biscuits
We ate fatback and blackeyed peas
We said yes sir we said no sir
We said thank you ma'am and please

So when you talk of family life
Or how it used to be
Though many had more money
None were as rich as me

I hold up the world

but i'm being crushed under the pressure

Secrets are always better when you have someone to share them with

If i gave you a rose
would you keep it

If i told you i loved you
would you believe i mean it

If i stayed awake all night
thinking of your face

would you believe
that i need you

I love you
but you dont belive me

do you

Once upon a time there was a wounded angel
it fell from heaven
and couldnt fly back because its wing was broken

So it sat there
looking around for a sign of what to do
it stayed there for days
It was starving and needed food
he looked to his left and saw a farm in the distance

He got up and limped towards it
he asked the farmer for some food
but he didnt seem to care
"What can you do for me?"
"A fallen angel can't do anything."
but the angel begged and pleads
to the farmer for anything
"You can work for me."
so the angel agreed
he lived in a horse stall
with the horse
for 3 years he fed the horse
and took some food for himself to eat
he started to forget he was an angel
and he had wings
he forgot he was a chosen person of God
He started to believe as the farmer preached
a mouse watched the whole thing
he walked out to the angel
and inspected his wings
he saw they where healed
and told the angel of these things
but for months he wouldnt believe
he told the mouse to leave
reminded him he could be free
but the mouse stayed
and tried to get him to see
the mouse slowly but surely
got the angel to believe
it flew back to heaven
and told God about the mouse that gave him back his wings
God blessed the mouse
He said,"I will give you anything."
but the mouse refused
he didnt need anything
he was happy with his life
no matter what the angel believed
God agreed
and saved the mouse a place in heaven
for when he would leave his earth life
and the mouse and God would officially met

The tin man gave his heart to the scare crow

because he needed a reason to live

spending all day and night

talking to the wind

without a heart he would of gave in

he wouldn't of been able to live

but by giving his heart to the scare crow

it left the tin man empty

he had no way to feel anything

so slowy but surely

he stopped moving

because he couldnt live  knowing

he couldnt feel if he hurt somebody

he gave his brain to the lion

if he didn't have courage at least he could think

maybe he would be able to live in the background

but be smart enough to still help people

and change things

the lion gave his courage to the scar crow

so that one day

he will have the courage to get down

but until then

the lion couldnt wear his crown

then a girl named dorothy

came walking through

scarecrow, the outgoing man he was

gave her a talking to

he wanted to get down

so he asked her for a favor or two

the lions courage he used

to save himself and later the lion too

then he came across the tin man

not being able to move through and through

he walked over there

and put in the oil too

for the first time in years

he was able to move

then they hoped and skiped into the forest

where the tall trees grew

and as the lion hid in the bushes

he thought to prove he still had courage

stopping them was one thing he could do

so he stepped out in front

started hollaring a mess

then he got scared of a dog

and you know the rest

dorothy scholded him

the heartless girl she was

and told him he shouldnt of done that

the tin man would of felt bad to the core of his heaart

if he still had one

and because he didnt know

he tuned in

and the scare crow stepped back watching it all

as he cringed

later he told them

about the courage he had not

and dorothy changed her tune

and told him she would get his courage back

she led them all

into a place she didn't know

all so she could go home

I adore you
I lust you
I want you
I need you
I ache for you
But I dont love you